It's officially the end of the month for November alone! Am glad that this month alone, has passes quickly.! :)


Indeed, this month alone, I've been facing quite a lots of problems and come close to heart, my educational path has finally mark down a beautiful endings!:) Those stress loads that has been with me for almost half a year has been whizzes by me alone. I do have truckloads of dearies friends who has been encouraging me through out my whole journey- they made me realize which bridges to cross and which not to be cross! =D



For the uninitiated, it's times that everyone of us is embarking onto the different path in life. Those bittersweet times we shared among ourselves, and helping one another to move onto the next lap, and there's a few friends that has been with me in ways of my different laps in life.



It's kinda weird of having so much emotion now, and I guess it's due to the month again! *Shrugs*



Im glad that my darlings Jennifer, Alice and Evelyn has talk much sense to me. They are the besties whom has share my stories in life.



By today, Im feeling quite tired over a couple of issues, I guess what I need to do is to keep myself in a crystal clear mind! O_o



I ought to know its really heartbreaking to have felt the distant between truckloads of people out there. But I hope that, they will not use the same excuses again. It's really upset me when, they are in trouble I would always try my best to me there for me during the wee hours and when the ball is on my court, in return all I gotta is all excuses and excuses. =(



Having to blog this down, Im feeling pretty lost in life and feeling real upset at this moment. Truth enough to be told, Im seriously holding back my tears in my heart. Somewhat I felt that Im going to have an break down again. *Cries*



In some weird or morbid way, many of my besties has been urging me not to be too tense up, however I cant help it. Truth to be seen, the real TinGz has been really learning to be able to see further one step in life be it- family/friends/relationship etc. All I want is to be happy everyday and treasure what's in front of me. As life is really unpredictable!



On the other note, being happy everyday is virtue uhh! I dont know about others but to me, living my days happily is most vital!=) *Wry smiles* Life has really teaches much in life, so I do treasure what I have now and if one day all this happiness has been wash away, at least I wont regret that once Im a happy girlie=)


Many attempts, when I wanna give up in life there's really nice friends that has been encouraging me and telling me the pros and cons in life. In life, we must learn from our past experiences and never repeat those un-glam experiences. Life has therefore, teaches me to be less wary and to be more happy daily.


*Sigh*



I guess by having so much of those unsorted feelings really makes me felt real tired and real frustrated over myself! *Humpfz*


I really need a getaway! *Woots*



In some weird or morbid way, I feel that at times by keeping my mouth shut is the best. I truly knows that, silence is the best answer of all. All Im doing now is to swallow all those worries into my heart! T_T



I've learnt that I found myself that nowadays I dont wish to talk my personal stuff to loads of people because I guess by telling them they wont understand too. All I needed to do was having those "hmmm and ahs" replied from me to them! *sorry*



Recently, I really tired of opening my gold mouth to talk to friends and even family members. What they say I'll just nod my head! *fanits* If one day, I didnt talk much to you people, please worry uhh cos that doesnt show a good sign! =(



I need to rest my mouth and braincells badly. So if you guys/girls who sms/call me Im sorry to have you all those "hmm and ahs".


YippeeeEEee!! =D


Finally dearest mummy has brought me the earpiece after my previous earpiece went literally cranky! I *Hearts* Mummy! =) I guess next dearest mummy will buy me a new spec and the mobile phone that I've been lusting for months... *Heehee*


Yesterday I didnt blog- due to the accompany my youngest brother to NUH for an appointment. And yea, Im seriously feeling exhausted.


Oh well, my lil' brother sickness is getting better! Yayy! =)



*TinGz is really feeling down*





Note: I hope that Dec will be a good month for me and everyone out there!











崇拜



你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在 在 你的存在


你以为爱
就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜


我活了 我爱了
我都不管了
心爱到疯了 恨到算了
就好了


可能的
可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易
怎么
你却不敢了呢


我还以为我们能
不同于别人
我还以为不可能的
不会不可能


你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在 在 你的存在


你以为爱
就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜


我活了 我爱了
我都不管了
心爱到疯了 恨到算了
就 好了



可能的
可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易
怎么你却不敢了呢


我还以为我们能
不同于别人
我还以为不可能的
不会不可能


你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在 在 你的存在


你以为爱
就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜


风筝有风
海豚有海
我存在 在 我的存在


所以明白
所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱
自己存在 在你 之外



I *Hearts* this song deeply because it reminds me of the love I've when my paternal granny and great granny is this around.

It really tears me down when Im watching this MV! =(

Labels: Reflection

Im still having problems with my connection to the Internet (Bloody Singnet!) and its getting to be a lil' tad more than irritating when I'm online via MSN and my friends keep saying Im popping in and out of MSN far too often! *Laughs* What's more, all the websites that I surf either takes donkey ages to load, or it never loads! =(


When you're feeling ridiculously bored at home I couldnt help by having asking DarLinG Alice out for a coffee session at my house! *Sly smiles*


And yesh, we were gossiping or I should say that we are having a heart to heart talk and sharing our stories...


Yea, intentionally Im feel to meet up her after my school days!! =)


Im glad that she didnt blame me for being so busy since Im blissfully attached!


She's a best buddy that I ever had, I use to remember that she has always be here seeing me through my ups and downs and guiding me along my journey. She never fail to lend in her ears whenever I need it. I *Hearts* you!


Down to earth...


For the families and friends of the 5 young men who perished in the choppy waters of Cambodia...


Although I might not know you guys as individuals nor friends, and I've only read about you through the snippets of information via the newspapers, all I wanna say is that I can only offer my condolences, and that although Life was cruelly robbed away from the 5 of you; What matter is that you all have lead your life to the fullest, however short the life was...


5 families have been robbed of a young son, a brother, a loved one; all promising and filled with zest for life, and you all sacrificed while doing a sport that you enjoyed and liked. I take a moment's worth of silence, and I am sure that Singapore is mourning. May such incidents never happen in the sports fraternity again.


My condolences to the families, and for those whom survived the tragedies of such a terrible accident - Keep those chins and paddle oars high up, for I am sure that your friends whom are no longer with you would want you guys to keep that fighting spirit going!



A moment of silence, and it's really at times like these that you realised the fragility of Life; and the unpredictables of Life itself.


Treasure your life and be happy everyday=)

Labels: Sentimental

Im here to blog this down again!!

Am highly nocturnal... *Woots*


TinGz's left eyes is getting more blurry and blurry! O_o


Add to the fact, Im focusing too much using my right eye...! o_O


Reason being - Hit onto some stuff one month back! Or It could be lack of sleep! *Snore snore snore*


Damn!


I hope to recover soon, else, it's off to the Eye Centre soon!! *Humpfz*


(I've told Darling Jennifer about the problem, she advice me to consult a doctor fast)



It irritate me a lil' by having those double vision and blurry vision! =(


I hope I'll get my new pair of glasses soon!!


And...


I couldnt live without my lovely glass!!


Well, I know it's late and I should be sleeping now, however, I've been sleeping like a log recently uhh... Now Im very awake due to the sufficient afternoon nap I had! =) *Laughs*


Am feeling bored, so came by here to surf some webbie! And of course talking to DarLinG Jennifer Via MSN!! She keep me entertain well! Hahs!


In the mist of feeling the boredom, Im totally hooked onto Youtube for some reasons- that's watching 手足 the local drama which was broadcast a few months back and I give it a missed, due to the late lecture I have! So now me being me, are quite free at home so I can do some catch up over the local drama over the net! *Heehee*


Goodnight World...!! =)


28 days to my birthday! =P

Labels: Life

I've tagged this in one of my friend's blog!


Your three favourite colours for clothes:


1) White- It's simple and looks much fresher and suitable in wear any types of bottom! =D
2) PINK - Because it's my all-time FAVE colour!
3) Yellow- Im in love with yellow seriously, because it makes me look more fair, add to the fact, Im fair in skin wise! =P


Your accessory weakness:


Definitely earrings/necklaces, bracelets! My siblings is amazed by the pairs that I have! *LauGhs* I do keep them nicely categorised in labelled boxes!


SHOES - Just can't get enough of heels and nice sandals that catch my eyes! T_T ! 40% of what is in the shoe cabinet at home's mine! *LauGhs*



Your favourite gem:

DIAMONDS - Every girl's best friend! =)



Your favourite clothing:

I adore wearing dresses/jeans/skirts/tube top, tee shirts , I love dressing up for no apparent reason! =)

I adore tee shirts with funny/quirky phrases - Have one that says "I stole this shirt from a homeless guy why he had a shirt that says this, I'll never know".;Another that says- Two boyfriend are better then one." *Laughs*


Your favourite pair of jeans:


It's gotta be these pair of skinnies that aren't that skinny...Makes my legs look longer every time I wear them! And I adore all my 20 pairs of Jeans Collection which I've brought from bugis street and far east plaza!


Your favourite designer:

Basically, I go for comfort and style than the name of a designer that I might even mispronounce! I adore typical brands in SG , like Topshop, Pepper Plus, Mango and Zara! =P


A Phone Call With Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn!


Well, I've received and sms earlier on in the morning while I was sleeping like a log, however I didnt manage to reply immediately because my cellphone was on silent mode due to some reasons which Im not going to reveal over here =X



Admist, I've replied bestie once I woke up this morning, and I guess she is facing some relationship issues, which I didnt probe much, as Im worried that it will make her more upset.



Apparently, she rang me up at about 1 plus pm, and she starts sharing her problems with me about her boyfriend. I know I cannot help much, but listening to her is all I can do. And yes, when you are attached to someone who means loads to you, you may feel heartaches at times when you cant help them.



For some weird/morbid way, bestie Jie AKA Evelyn's boyfriend is facing some crisis in his business. What I can say is that there's pros and cons being a tycoon, if you've failed doesnt mean you'll fail always. Pick yourself up from where you fall and move on, because of this setbacks it makes you stronger but not weaker. Everyone here isnt prefect when they were born, no one is successful when they were born too.



God's wants us to meet a few social hard knocks before delivering the better social knocks for us. Learn from your lesson and never repeat it again in life. *Wry smiles*



Im seriously having no idea how to help bestie out, because Im not either better here!



Am also having truckloads of stuff here which are un-solve. I only know that keep a positive mind will be better!


I just hate people driving me nuts! And therefore, Im having a very bad headache! *Sigh*


Actually Im feeling kinda emotional at this moment, because Im listening to a song that's really sad! Too much un-glam flash back!



Everyone of us have our own sets of problems, even I! So what for waste time of those trivia that doesnt belongs to us??




Add to the fact, Im not feeling well either in moodwise. =( Let bygones be bygones! It hurt so much to have heard those word, it was the most traumatic words I ever heard! =(



However, Im glad that in some ways or another, Im able to stand strong with my two feet and look forward for what's looming for me.



On the side note, too much of stuff that are running through my mind which are leading me to the "think too much" situation! =(



I guess I should have think about it!!


TinGz's left eyes is getting more blurry! O_o


Reason being - Hit onto some stuff one month back!


It irritate me a lil' by having those double vision!


I hope I'll get my new pair of glasses soon!!


*Hur hur*


*TinGz isnt feeling good*

Labels: Friends

So, as random boredom starts crawling into a person's bloodstream, that particular person become very bored... Well, in my case, it's due to the fact that I've been pretty much dateless!! (*Gasp*), so I have been spending much time at home...

I dont know about other people, but to me, spending time at home can be, in some ways, therapeutic! *LauGhs*



I kid you not!


Why do I say so? Because Im finally free from schools and that's when I can spend quality time with mummy and friends. Am still catching the snooze! =)


Well, there's pros and cons being at home uhh... The pros are- more sleep, eating session, gossiping session over the phone with friends. The cons are- can be bored to death without anyone goofy-ing down here.


Technically, I need to find other sort of entertain like- watching MV over youtube and of course more blogging till I find myself a job! *Sigh*


Am about to ring up some random friends of mine, being the free bird now, I've more time spend alone! That's what I beckons during my institution days... =) *Woots*


Truth enough to say, recently I've realize that I'm able to see further one step in lots of areas-be it life, relationship, school and what-nots, and I've myself a better TinGz! I guess by see further one step in life really makes a different, and the different is that Im a happier girlie now! *Sly smiles*


Add to the fact, Im not going to be the silly and foolish girl I used to be! I gotta learn to be firm in life and people whom I meet in life! =) Choosing the right way to success is vital! *Wry Smiles*


In a nutshell, I've improve my quality of life by working towards my thoughts, and my thoughts does affect my feelings! o_O


I remembered the silly me will always do stuff to satisfied others, but now Im a wholesome of myself and Im putting my in the first priority! It's my choices, my way and my priority!



After weeks of slump, Im finally able to get sufficient of rest and obviously more retail therapy sessions with my great babes out there =) *Hearts*


*Sigh*


It seems like everyone around are very busy with- work/school and what-nots... It always the opposite way from me uhh. =( When Im busy, babes are always free, when babes are busy, Im finally free! *Laughs*


Intentionally, I wanted so much to go for some walks around east area, because I've been rotting at home for some while! Hopefully that my second sister will accompany me to tampines mall later in the wee evening, as I need to get earpiece for my MP3. My earpiece went literally crank since two nights back! =(


I need sponsor for my earpiece?? Any sponsor??


*Heehee*



Here's a small lil' birthday wish-list of sorts!


TinGz's Forever Young birthday wish-list:-


- To-die-for a new bag that I've been lusting for months... And hope the bag will last uhh...


- I need a new pair of spectacle, which I've ask from my dearest mummy! I told her that both my white and silver spectacles is getting blur which means the degree has increased! I've been complaining to her I cant see very well and I might go blind! (Especially, my left eye as I've knock onto something one month back and it really hibernating having to see the double vision! *Sigh* I hope dearest mummy will get me one. =) As, this is the very FIRST time I've dearest mummy to buy me a new spectacle, for the rest of the spectacle are sponsor by myself lahx! Hahs!


- SHOPPING VOUCHERS!! Mango, Forever 21, Topshop, Dorothy Perkins, VNC, or even Charles and Keith, CK Tangs, Takashimaya, Isetan, BHG (Formerly known as Seiyu)... You name it, I want it...! *Laughs*


- Unlimited credit for online SHOPPING on my fave websites!(To-die-for accessories,clothes and bags...!) The list goes on... :P


-A wallet that doesn't have double flaps... =P Too much to beckons... I want it in BLACK color! It'll be nice if that's from The Wallet Shop! There's one wallet that's catching my eyes!! T_T



-That watch from adidas / Fossil/ Casio sound great too... =)



- The Samsung U3 mp3 in PINK please! (hint hint: sitex show coming up) Its so pretty..! I mean, my Creative 4GB player's doing fine...But how can one resist such a slim,functions-packed, to die-for mp3 player?! No Apples please! Im never an Apple fan! *Laughs* The only downside is the charging - via USB? Oh well, The accessories are so pretty!! *Loves* But, it's to be purchased separately...! Darns! =(



- A bigger wardrobe that can place all my clothing's, seriously I've too much of clothing hanging around the house and it look like some bazaar or pasar malam!! * Laughs*



- I want a splendid celebration with someone I loved! Surprise!! (begging onto the surprise) *hur hur*




- Health, wealth and smiles for everyone around me! =)




- A PINK cake! *Laughs*




But TinGz reckons that she'd be getting loads of accessories from friends again! Well, I guess that's the safest present to give a friend when you dont know what to get her! *Laughs*


All I want is to have a smashing birthday...Cos I seriously think that I didnt had really memorable and enjoyable birthday celebrations in the past...My 16th was, in my friends' words, "pathetic", "lousy", "horrid" (Blah blah blah...They didnt really have nicesties to say... *Laughs* ) cos all my friends were having awesomely huge parties and I didn't even have a cake! Not even a slice...! *Laughs* (However I manage to get an memorable 18th bday last year, and of cos with an Ice-cream cake from my friends that we celebrated at marina sqaure parris..)


Well, to be honest, this is just a wish-list... Its the thought that counts...Really! =)



And I know of truckloads of people that have the intention of getting me un-glamorously smash by cake...! *Laughs*



Can't wait for my Forever Young birthday in Dec!



30 days to my Forever Young Birthday=)

Labels: Boredom, Wish List

Yea, am invited to attend Priscilia's solemnisation on the next weekend!! Congrats to her and her husband-to- be for starting a new phase in their journey! :D


And I still have no idea what to wear and what to buy for her and her husband-to-be!


Priscilia, one of the first few people I knew in MIS( my recent school) ..I remember walking into the school lecture theater and she was one of the first few girls that I spoke to during Orientation! I remembered that she'd always have a smile and "hello" for me whenever I bumped into her around institute. We knew each other better after a couple of lecture in the month and I could imagine we got closer when we moved on to our next semester and from the start we have all the same kicks and rubbish during the tedious and boring lecture. And she just sitting beside me for me often reach school earlier to chop a place of four! Heehee=)


She's one of the bestie classmates I've during my institution days. She will often pop by with a great smiles and even during my most downs moment, she would just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make me smile... =) Much credits are credited to her for bringing me back to earth! *Hearts*


One whom I can share my worries loads with, truth to be told, she the nicest friend I met in the institute. And always giving treats on old chang kee and mr bean! The jokes that she craps during the real "dry lecture" really make me laugh out loud till lungs are having some un-comfort acts! *LauGhs* I guess what I enjoy the most in school was eating session and the trips to the loo! *I miss MIS loo*


Indeed, we share many bit's of stories together uhh... =) One whom I respect in my school life, never fail in encouraging me in my educational life and giving me much advices.


For now Im contented that I have a bunch of nice classmates from MIS! The bondings we have and through really un-glam moments we have shared and encouraging each other to moved on after each completed level. =) *Heaps of smilely*



Back to the point...


Any suggestion on what to buy for her solemnisation??


Any suggestion on what to wear?? Perhaps, just dress causally as long as it presentable!


Now, TinGz has got another huge problem, and that is...



I have NO idea of what I'm gonna wear!


The sliver lining though, would be that...
It gives me the perfect excuse to shop for new shoes!


Well, this weekends I'll be resting at home and catching up with my snooze-ing!!


Im in an sleep-deprived situation!!


*Snore snore snore*

Labels: Celebration

Finally, I've a wonderful retail therapy with DarLiNg JeNniFeR...=) *Hearts*

*Woots*


In some ways we have conquer the whole town area!! *LauGhs*


That includes Bugis Junction, Bugis Village, PS, The Grand Cathay, OG Orchard, Cine, Wisma and last but not least our favourite place Far East Plaza!! *Sly smiles*


I kid you not, we was walking down from bugis all the way to our destination! And our legs are seriously aching too death uhh... *Poor us*


On the side note, I've brought myself a sling back and of course 3 pairs of earring, and Im not very satisfy uhh. =( I didnt manage to get the white dress and the heels.. *SiGh*


Seriously there's too much stuff to be purchased this month alone!!


Am still jobless! -_-


*Hur Hur*


I guess now what I need is more rest because during those exam period I didnt manage to get enough of sleeps and Im lack of sleep at this moment! =(


Lastly babes, I'll meet you all up real soon alright! Im officially free! *wait for me sms/call*



Braincells are tired! o_O



I promise to update soon!

:)



Cheerios


=D

Labels: Friends, Shopping

I'm pleased to say that all down, ZERO to go...I am officially on an long holiday...! And officially unemployed... *Laughs*


Am finally graduated from MIS!!


Today is a day that I bid all my lovely classmates good bye and a waving a big wave to MIS! *heaps of smilely*


To my classmates of Intake 66th:


Guys/Girls,


Thank you so much for always being here with me walking through our most difficult moments during our tedious lecture and never fail to crap some jokes during the break time. Those people who crack jokes when Im real down, just to cheer me up, they are Rowena, Fadilah, Priscilla Daniel, Mark thanks mates!! Never the less to Joanna,XinYi, Jess and Joanne, I ought to know that we only get to know each other during this semester as last semester we didnt click much. Im gald that I have made friends with you all. Thanks for all those toilet trips and always accompany me eating during lecture time... *Heehee*


I've made a wonderful time with you all people from the 66th intake! Especially the sistership with my dearest Rowena Jie Jie, she never fail to be with me whenever Im down. Jie Jie, Thank you for always giving your xiaomei love that last and care that last. Im blessed to have you as my Jie Jie, I hope that our sistership won't change uhh... Jie Jie I love you many=)


Back to the point...


Finally Im on a totally different note, that's more slacking session at home and more resting moments and hopefully I get a job fast uhh...


(While I do have an interview on hold with singtel)


Am pleased that this course has finally called it off an full stop for me and now Im embarking on a different journey in life that's the working life. I've learn a lot during this few months of schooling, well everything has ended and now what I can do is to walk towards my dreams and fulfill them! =)


Apparently, walking this journey I must thank a lot of people who has help me in one way or another. Especially during my most wistful moments, dearies friends never fail to pick me up and lead me on. They has taught me what's pros and cons in schooling, and I've decide on which bridges to cross and what-nots. They always be ready for me, giving me the most honest opinion and never fail in bringing me back to earth. Most credits are credited to the following dearies: DarLiNg Jennifer, Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn, Yanx AKA Dr Janice, Eric! (Sorry friends if I missed your name out, you should know who you are) I LOVE YOU ALL!


Truth enough to say, they has been watching me since Im a young girl especially bestie Eric, he has taught me much in life and has giving me loads of advices on which bridges to cross! Well, my very long friendship with DarLiNg Jennifer, she has been the one who seen me when Im a primary one kid till now an 18th years old teen. I remembered those schooling session with her and many stories we shared between us. As for bestie Jie AKA Evelyn, I knew since I've work in Starhub, I guess we have much in common uhh... She never fail to be a best jie to me, she always telling facts and flooding me with loads of advices when Im lost. Lastly, my lovely dr Janice, I knew her since econs ago and from there we have been good friends and turning into the doctor and patient relationship. Why do I say so? Because she always be ready listening to me and often bringing me back to earth. No matter how busy is she, she would always drop by with and comment in friendster or a chat over MSN! *They are my great friends in my life*


Thanks for always being there, either in person or a sms/phone call/email/MSN away! They have always been there through my ups and downs, and we've had our fair share of arguments and silly spats... They will always been my confidant, my pillar of support and my tissue giver whenever I cry over stuff...


=) Many loves!!



They might not know this but they will always have a very very important place in my heart! Cheers to many more years of friendship to come by! =)



I guess, without all these people Im not able to have walk this far and complete this journey! I've learnt to be a girl who is less wary and emotionally barren at times=)


Exams are over and Im finally able to enjoy the days ahead of me!!

*Woots*



Im feeling very very exhausted by today! I reckons for more sleeping session!! Yayy...!!



T_T



Cheerios

:)

Labels: School

It's been rainy and breezy the past few days, and it being rainy means that I can either sleep like a log (Christmas log! It's 34 days to my Birthday and Christmas!) cos it's so cooling and un-stuffy at nights.


It's raining, and I've found myself unable to have my afternoon nap as Im currently having a very bad headache that has been lasting for days or so... Isn't very glam to be during exam period. Im feeling rather woozy and this headache has causing much inconvenience to me.


While I was trying real hard in mugging my notes, my head hurts badly its just like many stuff that is hitting my head. I ignore it fo days, and it got worst, and Im feeling quite blur now. =( Am feeling very cold, am shivering in much! -_-



I hope that I'll faint, as Im all alone at home in the huge house! *Sigh*


On the sidenotes, I wish that there will be someone nice to here with me listening to all my worries and what-nots. Indeed Im glad that dearies friends always made their way here to text/call me up. I guess most credits are give to them. And I kid you not, bestie Jie AKA Evelyn has always compliment on my level of patience in many situation-work(last time), school, relationship, family and so on. Well, my level of patience is excellent! =) *Woots*


Apparently, I guess no point been to encroaching and having those think too much illusions. If Im not in da good mood, I will choice to keep it to myself rather than to share it. Because I guess no point, as people wont understand what Im feeling now. *no worries babes, Im ok*


At this moment of time, Im feeling kinda lost in many areas, I cant pin point exactly on what happen but I guess all I need is to follow what my heart says. I remember that there is a nicetest friend who always keep telling me "focus on what's more important". I totally agree with what he/she says to me, I may heed his/her advice. Because he/she is always my advicer and my bestie in many ways. =)


Im feeling kinda sentimental!


*Sigh*


Too many unanswered questions that are left in me and too much loads in me which I hasnt been throw it away.


Life is so amazing in such a way that there would be times when you're kind of looking for something and that you'd think you know you're correct about something, yet subconsciously, your mind tells you the polar opposite...Perhaps its a hunch, or the intuitive sixth sense, or instinct, I cannot pin-point the exact word to describe it; Yet sometimes, your gut feeling tells you that you're correct, yet sometimes, it might just be that one is thinking too much of stuff...


Perhaps I need a conversation with one of my bestie later! Because some of my bestie always bring me back to earth whenever Im real down because truth enough they have always been there see me crossing the most difficult bridges and never fail lending me a hand to rely on.



I guess there's really too much uncertainties in my life journey.


Frankly speaking Im feeling very good in moodwise, deep inside my heart I could only hide those worries to myself and of course sharing it with my bestie Jie AKA Evelyn. I text her with my worries and she replied me" think things on the bright side. No point making one unhappy. It doesnt feel good at all. Sometimes have to make sacrifices for loved ones."


Im glad that she never fail in giving me advice and listening to me. I cannot help it that I am a natural pessimist that sees the glass as being half full, and that I am a natural worrier... Or maybe its got to do with the fact that I always try my best, be it for friends, or for issues in life, so much so when it all falls apart, I get disappointed and I try to protect myself even more, for I am fearful of getting sad at times. But with each setback I have experienced, the experiences have made me much stronger than I have never imagined possible.



Likewise, in this case, I have made decisions, and with each passing day I know that it's been a long road discovering things about myself and of other issues that really matter to me. It has been an eye-opener, for I really have no absolute idea where I found the intrinsic strength to bounce back into the game of Life.


I guess the setbacks that I have experienced along the way have made me become stronger, and more aware of issues around me. Of course there are the lovely friends whose talks and chats with me made so much sense and that they have indirectly helped answered the questions that I probably had all along, but didn't seem to have the correct answers, or that I was just simply afraid of knowing the truth and answers, cos I knew I was instinctively correct... Their encouragements and advices did contribute to me becoming stronger... I am just surprised at how quickly I have adapted and stood up to the challenges that were waiting for me...! =)



Like in this rainy season, where when the rain and stormy weather clears, there would be clear blue skies ahead! And I now am beginning to see that clear blue skies, and even the rainbow ahead of me! =) Granted that there would be times when there might be rainy and stormy skies again, but come what may, I hope that I can make it through each shower there is and become a much stronger, better and happier person! =)



The greatest things I felt is I do really have nice friends always be there ready for me and truth enough they often paused for awhile to let me vent my worries and never fail to bring a smile back on my face! =)



Thank you, to all my lovely darLinGs! Thank you for listening, for having an open heart, for not judging, for being honest, for your encouragements and for helping and wanting me to become better! I *HeaRt* you all! =)




*TinGz is getting stronger*

Labels: Sentimental, Sick

Yea Im here talking about life because I've felt that life is a series bitter/sour/sweet moment...


Why do I choose to talk about life on this blog post?


As I hope that what Im gonna say will somewhat help with one of my bestie, that she's facing.


We are here to learn lessons, and the world is our teacher.


Why do I say so?


During our most down moments, we tend to cry over the problem that has occurs and we couldnt do much and just to let it wash away after the cries has stop. Be it in a relationship, there's a party who often make someone felt hurt and much heartache. In some way, I often urge her not to think so much when you're blissfully attached. Well, there's pros and cons when you're blissfully attached.


On the sidenote, I went to read her blog post about the problems that she is encountering. I know isnt easy to get over a hurt from someone who you love the most. As what she stated "伤你最深的总是你最深爱的人". Why I cant totally agree but its netural all I can say.



Our thoughts attract and create circumstances. As we change, we attract different circumstances. Until we learn a lesson about, work, lover we either, stuck on the same lesson, or keep getting the same lesson in different packages.


In a nutshell, life goes like. We get hit by little pebbles- as a kind of warning. When we ignore the pebbles, we get hit by a brick. Ignore the brick we get wiped out a boulder. If we're honest, we can see where we have ignored the warning signs. And then we have the nerve to say: "why me"?

Living and Learning


"It's only by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble there lies your treasure. The very cave you are afraid to enter truns out to be the source of what you were looking for".


Life doesnt always have to be painful- but pain is still the main reason we change. Until we are in pain, we can pretend. Our eog says: "Im fine". When things hurt enough, or scared enough, we become vulnerable. Our ego has no more answers, and we open up. Pain encouarges us to get serious.


In a nutshell, every person who walks into your life is teacher. Even if they drive you nuts, they teach you because they show you where your limits are. Just because people are your teachers doesnt mean you have to like them.


Life is a bit like a ladder. To move up, we have to fix the step we're on- whether its work, relationship, money, whatever. Once the step is fixed, we move to the next step. People handle their steps in different ways. *Wry smiles*


To admit, Im having a heart to heart chat with bestie Jie AKA Evelyn via MSN. Well, she's still kinda upset over a certain of issue, however Im sorry that I cant help much. But I can only give you advice and hope you'll heed it.


Just take things step by step and let everything sail well together, even is it the toughtest sailing part remember follow what your heart tells you. I cant make the choices for you, but promise to there for you when you call. To give you my honest opionion and always bring you back to earth. That's what I can do for you Jie, remember you're never alone because you still have your loved ones and friends out there,that will helpyou much in need. =)


Being happy in life is virtue!


Smile and the world is smiling with you!


=)

Labels: Life

It officially two down and one more to go and that's when freedom beckons...

*Hooray*

This afternoon was having "Fundamental of marketing" exam, and I kid you not my braincell didnt work well during the exam time. I have totally forget what I've studied, as my braincell went totally blank when I enter the room. *Sigh*

Well, it over already and I know that I should focus more on this coming Thursday paper. What's done is done cannot be undone! *Wry smiles*

=)


Im feeling very dreadful exhausted by this moment! And Im only having 2 hours of sleep today... Lack of sleep T_T!

-_-


*Snore snore snore*


Braincells are dead...


There's too much to say but Im struck!!


I promise to update soon....!

=)


*TinGz off to bed*

Labels: Exams, School

This is going to an special post that I longing to post since "problems vs the emotional side" of me and one of my bestie Jie AKA Evelyn.



Well, sometimes I felt that most problems/emotional feelings happens when something real bad happen. It could be not our fault, and it could be the other party in blame. As I mentioned before, guys sometimes need their own space to be a free bird, but having granting them too much of it will mislead to those quarrels and what-nots. However, girls being girls, will often paused for awhile to be there for their lovely boyfriend and sometime even go that extra mile in helping them with their stuff.



And this bestie Jie AKA Evelyn of mine, being the nicetest girlfriend she would do any thing to accommodated her boyfriend, however I guess her boyfriend has been really taking her presence for granted and she always need to be there for him and choices were never hers. It's always his way, his choices and NEVER hers. Guys, please dont treat your girlfriend this way because it will cause them to feel very emotional and they will tends to think and worry a lot. I guess, no one like to be treat like an rag doll, even me!



Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn sensed it when he suddenly became distant, but she feared mentioning it to him, for she didn't wanna wreck what they had by going into another senseless argument. She did try to probe, but he became somewhat angry; so she didn't dare to bring the issue up again. She just thought that he were just tired and stressed out from work. And when she did try to resolve the conflict/issues-at-hand, nothing was resolved, and he grew to become more distant from her.



She do admit that there were nights when she lie awake, thinking what had gone wrong, there were the tears of frustration and anger, for she was angry that she had allowed 2 persons very much in love to become the state that they are in - They were in love, but cracks were appearing, and they were so cordial and distant to each other. She, being the happy-go-lucky and silly girl that she am, had thought that Love would conquer all... But she failed to stop and evaluate things from another perspective; That perhaps he were so drained out by her and she antics that he didn't know how to handle or what to do anymore.



On top of that, he had pressures at home and at work. She wanted so much for him to be more ambitious, for he said work was no longer enjoyable and he were often bogged down by work.


Im currently feeling quite upset over this issue that my bestie jie AKA Evelyn is suffering. Well, Im not an profound person in many areas, but I've learnt for my past experiences in relationship so I wish to a lil' note to everyone who is reading/visiting my lovely blog! =)



Granted there are the regrets, the laments, the "should haves", "could haves" and "would haves"... But like what I used to tell people that needed my listening ear - There is much more to life than the "should haves", "could haves" and "would haves", and in my case, I think that it does apply - Admittingly, there would have been a lot of things I would and wouldn't do had I known the outcome, but it wouldn't have brought me to where I am today, and I can definitely say that it has made me grown up in certain ways, and TinGz would become a better person for her ownself; and that there isn't a party whose right or wrong in the relationship, for it takes two and whole lotta patience and understanding for things to work!




To me, if I ever encounter a problem in my relationship I would try to find sometime talking to him and getting back all things right again. I know sometimes Im very unreasonable, however my unreasonable action will show that I care. However I know isn't right to through anger on your partner. But me being silly will always stay up all the way up just to have an sms from him, which I feel in some way Im kinda silly. After heaps of conversation in it, I've conclude in my mind; that just let things sail by itself and not to be too encroaching, and I always believe in a day of 24hours there isnt a thing called "not free". Even it will take hours to received an sms/call I'll just wait. After much saying, Im feeling tired of repeating myself, so I'll just let things fall in together in the way they are mend to be.



Admittingly, it has make me stop wondering and pondering of those problems, yet sometimes the very down side of me is getting very emotional very quickly. And it can tell by all this; a phone call; "hello busy huh?"; replied yea call you later; then I'll hang down without saying Good-bye!



I don't know about others but to me, if I keep on having heard this I'll feel very frustrated and fed up; that will lead to an cellphone switch off or silent! I admit, I ever did do that alright! Because Im feeling very upset, due to can't I even talk to you for just 5 lovely minutes? I know, if you're very busy at least show up after the busy moment. And all I gotta do is wait, and I kid you not, TinGz waiting patience is getting much more excellent and is reaching the to hill!


Nothing I have, but an excellent patience! *opps self-denial*



Apparently, I might not help out much with the problems that bestie Jie AKA Evelyn is facing, however I've always urge her not to think so much when you're in a relationship, because being blissfully attached can be sweet and sour at times; there's pros and cons in it. However, it only take you to a step in another life learning, why do we keep having much mistakes in life;because when you have mistakes in life and you learn from it we will never run outta lesson!


Apparently, by having the "thinking too much" illusion isn't pleasant at all, so I hope that bestie Jie AKA Evelyn will heed my advice and paused for while if you're feeling tired in life. Sometimes, by pausing a while does helps and it'll do some self-reflection on why all this are happening. *Wry smiles*


I'm here today because I've learnt my mistakes in life and never repeat again; because there's always a reason in life like having able to see the lovely smiles daily. Much sufficient, that people tends to take things for granted and they'll only realise it when such happiness slips away. =)


Relationship taught me so much - patience, honesty, caring, understanding and most importantly, how to love another unconditionally.


Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn and I had a long conversation the other day, and I merely told her -


"Love would find a way. Indifference would only find excuses."


Sometimes we win, and sometimes we lose, that is Life, and it is undeniable.



Sometimes love just ain''t enough






I don''t wanna lose you,
I don''t wanna use you
just to have sombody by my side
And I don''t wanna hate you
I don''t wanna take you
But I don''t wanna be the one to cry
That don''t really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there''s a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it''s your heart you can''t trust
There''s a reason why people don''t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain''t enough

Now I could never change you
I don''t wanna blame you
Baby you don''t have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something''s gonna change

But there''s a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it''s your heart you can''t trust
There''s a reason why people don''t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain''t enough

And there''s no way home
when it''s late at night and you''re all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay

And there''s a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it''s sad when you know it''s your heart they can''t touch
There''s a reason why people don''t stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain''t enough
Baby sometimes love just ain''t enough






*TinGz mugging notes*


*HeaRts*

Labels: Sentimental

It's officially 1down and two more to go...=(

Today's paper wasn't easy at all, and I kid you not I have written rubbish on my scripts as Im feeling very tired/sleepy/upset/stress... I know all this things shouldn't has place it together with my exams. But I couldn't help it, it just the tiredness that is lusting my feelings and what-nots.

On the sidenote, Im feeling quite upset over a certain issue which Im not able to reveal it here, as I dont wish to be questioned over here. =( *Sigh*


I totally agree with what I read over acquaintance blog. As she mention her last relationship with one of my bestie guy friend. Well, there's no wrong or right in a relationship. Im happy for this bestie guy friend as he is finally the free bird, and happliy attached with a lovely girlfriend of his. I simply salute this bestie guy friend, I admit, he has help me much in life be it relationship/eduactional/life journey and what-nots. This bestie guy friend would always be ready for there for me; to lent me his good pairs of ears and his most honest advices/opinions. And I kid you not, this friend of mine is an busy person, however, he never made an excuse for him to hear me out and indeed we have a very long friendship which is like more then 5years and counting. *Smiles*

Well, to be honest most of my dearies friends are really busy out there, however they never fail to be with me. Thanks to all my dearies friends who always bring me back to earth when I was really real upset and hearing my crys. *I give credit to them all*

At this point in time, Im feeling very upset and tired, I had always wished that there'll always be nice friends here with me and bestie Jie AKA Evelyn has made her way here for me via MSN. =)

Once again thank you bestie Jie AKA Evelyn for bringing me back to earth... =) Heaps of smilely from you!

Being real upset all alone isnt glam at all, it will merely makes a person feel more miserable and sad!


(Special credits goes out to all my treasured darLings who have made the effort to cheer me up and to be there for me despite their busy schedules! I *heaRt* all of you!)

Labels: Stress

It's officially the "exams fever hits the boiling extreme" or I should name it " the freedom route towards exams"...


You decide alright! *Laughs*


Yea its less then 24 more hours to the officially end-year exams and after which Im will be on a a different note. And I can't wait for freedom beckons. *Laughs*


Am currently feeling the strong feeling of dreadful and stressful moments, however Im pleased to say that it will be ending real soon uhh. I just need to endure for another one more week. =)


On the sidenote, last few nights I've been reading up all those format for "business communication" examination. And I kid you not, it's really hibernating and tedious/anguish, I couldn't resist myself for pausing for a break as Im real exhausted having seeing those very wordy and mountain-ful of formats make me somehow feel woozy. I do still have a few more chapters to read up before going for tomorrow's exams. And hopefully it will sink into my brain as my braincells was malfunctioning this few nights. *Laughs*


During that nights of riding to my books it anticipated with dread, fear, stress, and lack of confidence; But the outcome of it, was, surprisingly better than I had feared; for I had feared for, and expected the worst... In that sense of "failing" my exams, however I guess I've put in much effort in revising and doing those necessary practices and what-nots... =)


To admit, I hasnt been paying much attention for this particular module "business communication", so I always feared that I might not do well, however I have done what I can is to read up and do more practices. I kid you not, isnt easy to remember all those writing formats, its has hips cups everywhere=(


I do have an alternatives however it will only work if only I have no choice but to choose those questions Im more confident with. Hopefully I wont end up writing rubbish on my script. {Self-denial, obviously} I might just fill in those inappropriate formats if I really have no idea which format to use. *SiGh*

In the mist of sitting in the examination hall, I shall not waste much time on those trivializing and analyzing the formats because times is precious during exams moments. *Wry smiles*

Just need to be tactful,diplomatic, keep it simple and short, so that the marker wont feel woozy marking my scripts. *opps this is advice by my lecturer* I give credits to her! And aviod irrelevant information that shouldnt be placing in the format. *opps I sound profound uhh, but Im not an A student lahx*


Alright enough of the "exams fever"!!


Back to books...!!


Well, I promise to update soon, if only time permits as its the "exams fever"!


*Woots*


*Wish ME luck*

Labels: Exams, School

"There's a time for everything, even the smallest experiences.When they're not ready for them, things simply fall apart no matter how hard they try to patch things up..."


(The above notes is subjected to Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn)


When an sms beeps at almost 4-ish in the earthly morning, I couldn't resist myself from waking up of my sleeps to replied this sms that I received. Indeed the sms was send by Bestie Jie AKA Evelyn, which something not very glam that has been happening to her recently.


At the point, bestie Jie AKA Evelyn has text me on the issues with her relationship, which I cant reveal much here as I needed to protect her from being questioned. *Wry Smiles*


That phone call was anticipated with dread, fear, and disappointment; But the outcome of it, was, surprisingly better than she had feared; for she had feared for, and expected the worst.



After that phone call, it became clear to her that her boyfriend was feeling sick and that's why he didnt replied any of her calls/sms-es. I guess during that moment of his absence, bestie Jie AKA Evelyn was feeling very worried about what had happen to him which leads him to the "MIA" moments. Why cant he just replied an sms saying that Im sleeping, call you later, at least bestie Jie AKA Evelyn wont be worrying all the way. *Sigh*


Apparently to see that happiness has found them again I feel rather happy for bestie Jie AKA Evelyn because her first two relationship wasnt moving well. And Im glad that she has moved on after pausing awhile wondering what she needs to do. For her three relationship, I've share much of her stories and seeing her going through the most difficult times. She have leave the past behind and smile towards more treasures that the future may hold for her. *Sly smiles*


Truth to be said I'm not an profound person in relationship, however I did share my most bitterness relationship with her. Am glad that now I do have an lovely boyfriend who will keep me smiling. ^^ My past few relationship wasnt working pretty well, as there are too much of hip cups happen here and there. And I really learnt to move on, friends always says that another door opens after one is closed.


For some weird/morbid reasons, I truly understand how bestie Jie AKA Evelyn is feeling, however by thinking too much doesnt solve the problems. All I can urge her is to look further one step in life. And relationship is sometimes an give and take situation, why make your life so miserable when he dont appreciate what you have done thus far.


In a nutshell, I hope that my sms-es replied will made you feel liberating and comforting; It warms your heart to know that you've got friends that are rallying around you as well, and that you are tired, but definitely sounding happier...! =)



She's always thought that it would be good if they had a reserve of internal strength because a relationship subjects a person to vulnerabilities and uncertainties, and admittingly, they often are confronted with the conflict of trying to compromise and also to make a definite stand on certain issues. Many times, she was faced with problems and issues that left her exasperated, without any clue of a solution. They had their share of differences, and she thought it was complementary that such differences existed, like how people always say that opposites attract, but sometimes, she just couldn't understand him, nor he her.



My beautiful thoughts...


That's why, it always stirs my soul whenever I see an elderly couple hand-in-hand along the beach with a serene smile - Their silence shows their togetherness and ease with each other. I'd always look at that scene with a smile on my face, hoping that I'd be like one of them in the future... Having to hold someone's wrinkly old hand through life and it's journeys, and laughing when his dentures falls out of place, and reminiscing about the times when he had a complete set of teeth, and how I would, without fail, wake him up with a smile on my face after squeezing the toothpaste on his toothbrush, and preparing his breakfast...



Those whimsical pictures in my mind... =)


On the sidenote, Im feeling kinda upset over what had happen to bestie Jie AKA Evelyn. I hope that she feels better right now. After me having a long conversation with her and I hoped that I did talk some sense into her. =)


Likewise for me, I've been in her shoes before, and I always believe that what I had told my lovely boyfriend he will heed it. To admit, I do see an improvement in him, all I hope that he wont waste his effort. I admit, sometimes when I think back of the ways/actions he has show me it really tears my heart, but he manage to make me smile at the end of the day. Which makes me feel much relieve after all.


There isnt an predication in relationship, truth enough to be told, living happily and ever after is what TinGz's is longing for. A simple and yet blissful life.


Apparently, to be blissfully attached with somebody significant to your life is really an sweet and blissful moments. =) To be able to share those sweet/sour moments together is something called happiness. *Hearts*



Im simply contented. =)

Labels: Friends, sharing

It's kinda horrfying when I woke up from my sleeps, it's due to an horrfying nightmare I had in the early morning... *Cires*


(opps well, I shall not reveal it here, as I dont wish to scare other here who will be reading my site...) *Wry smiles*


Its kinda early for me to wake up at this hour uhh... Because Im not an earthly person, am rather an wee hours person, the night owl... Im highly nocturnal!!! *Laughs*


I kid you not!! Am finally studying and reading my very super duper thick "business communication" textbook and study guide... I was half way through reading as there isnt a need for mugging down of notes or whatsoever...!! It's just more writing format and what-nots... Seriously while I was reading it I almost fall asleep as this particular module is kinda "dry" in terms of kinda bored...!! Either way you look at it...!! *Laughs*


I admit, Im feeling kinda sleepy still but yet I refused to go to bed because there's things to be done before I start to date my books again uhh... *Sly smiles*


Apparently, last night I had received an sms-es from my bestie Jie AKA Evelyn... She was having some relationship problems... So me being me, pasued for awhile and ask her what happen and what-nots... I guess she really felt hurt by what her boyfriend does to her, and I truly understand how she's feeling during that moment...


And she told me...


For the couple of months, it had always been his way, his choice, and never hers. She was never ever a priority. I guess bestie Jie AKA Evelyn has always be there for him whenever he calls or whatsoever... Well, I only know that he should has taking her presence for granted and treating her like a rag doll... Which really upset if anyone of you treat your partner this way...


Is it very difficult to text your partner to let him/her know that you have woke up from your sleeps?? On the sidenote, she's was worried what had happen to her bf and yet he has woken up from the sleeps and went to Facebook etc... I truly do understand this kind of feelings... So I can only urge bestie Jie AKA Evelyn dont to take things to hardly, because there's pros and cons being in a relationship... I know she was crying badly, but during that moment I really dont know what could I say to her but I did merely talk some sense into her and hope she'll heed my advice and look forward...


I admit, Im not a profound person in relationship, but I have tasted the bitter side of relationship a couple years ago... Im contented with what I have now, as I do have an lovely boyfriend... And there's too much to beckons, really!!! :)


It's the lil' bits of surprises/action/care/love and what-nots that really counts!! *Hearts*


Let's wish bestie Jie AKA Evelyn all the best... *Woots*


There's too much to say BUT Im struck...


*Laughs*


Apparently, Im still feeling highly stress up... *Sigh* Sometimes I really wish that I could just burn my worries away so that I won't be too upset over couple of issues... =(


Well, I must concentrate on my exams that will be looming very soon and I must put in all my effort in it... {Self-denial,obviosuly}



*TinGz needs to have a good rest*

Labels: Nightmare, School

Im currently feeling highly stress up with all my mountain-ful of notes, study guides and what-nots to be covered...!! *Sigh*


And I announce this Friday 16 Nov is the very first paper... And that's no other then "Business communication"... I kid you not, I hasnt been studying for this particular subject... And there's too much format to be remembered and it's really very hibernating and tedious alright... The very thick textbook that I need to read up... *Wry Smiles*


During this very stressful moments, I really hope that there'll be nice friends and loves ones that will show concern to me... Am glad that Darling Jennifer made it here for me, and most credits are credited to her... *Hearts*


I kid you not, my dearies friends misses me so much that I woke up having 15 sms to read and reply... Heaps of sms-es coming in during the wees hours... =) I ought to know that Im kinda tired so I didnt reply to all immediately...


I manage to go to bed at about 4am which might explains to those night rides/night date of my books and what-nots... *Snore snore snore*


I drag myself outta bed at almost 1.30pm this afternoon to have my lunch and what-nots... After which my dearest mummy told me that my dearest god-mum was admitted to hospital, and Im going to visit her later in the evening with my oldest sister... I pray speedy recovery for my god-mum...


Apparently, I wasnt feeling kinda good mood today as Im kinda wary... Well, I might not be able to reveal this over here as I dont wish to be questioned by friends who drop by here...


Bits of story I have told Darling Jennifer, and Im glad that she bothered to paused for awhile during the wee hours to listen to all my worries... Well, being happy is virtue so I must learn not to take things to hardly... =


On the sidenote, I know that Darling Jennifer is feeling kinda wistful now as she text me a few minutes ago for some chats and what-nots... Well, I hope that she'll be happy in whatever she does... Darling Jennifer, remember Im always here with you, do give me a call if you really need to... =)


I ought to know that many of my friends are really busy with school/work, but they always manage to text/call me to have a chat with me... *Hearts* In the mist of their busy moments, they has always paused for awhile for me to let out my worries and what-nots... They made my life awesome...



在我最無奈的時候我都會有一些些的好朋友中在我生邊給我鼓勵。。。


因為有這些好友我不再寂寞了，和我最愛的一個人他在我生命是個很重要的一位人，他就是我的男朋友。。。


無奈的心情沒有人能體會。。。就讓時間真名一些吧。。。


人往往會在迷路的方向找回那個遠點。。。


就讓我找回屬於我的遠點吧。。。



笑一笑沒什麼過不了的。。。



哈哈。。。

Labels: School, Stress

I would never have imagined this, but...


Facebook is highly addictive!


And I mean it when you can wave Friendster goodbye!


And the profits it generates from the tie-ins and advertisements must be a whole lotta money!!


*LauGhs*


Now, poke me and send me some chocolates or flowers if you know me!



Friends add in Facebook if you know me alright...!!



Have a great fun using Facebook...!!



Here's a small lil' birthday wish-list of sorts!


TinGz's Forever Young birthday wish-list:-


- To-die-for a new bag that I've been lusting for months... And hope the bag will last uhh...


- SHOPPING VOUCHERS!! Mango, Forever 21, Topshop, Dorothy Perkins, VNC, or even Charles and Keith, CK Tangs, Takashimaya, Isetan, BHG (Formerly known as Seiyu)... You name it, I want it...! *Laughs*


- Unlimited credit for online SHOPPING on my fave websites!(To-die-for accessories,clothes and bags...!) The list goes on... :P


-A wallet that doesn't have double flaps... =P Too much to beckons...


-That watch from adidas or Fossil sound great too... =)

- The Samsung U3 mp3 in PINK please! Its so pretty..! I mean, my Creative 4GB player's doing fine...But how can one resist such a slim,functions-packed, to die-for mp3 player?! No Apples please! Im never an Apple fan! *Laughs* The only downside is the charging - via USB? Oh well, The accessories are so pretty!! *Loves* But, it's to be purchased separately...! Darns! =


- Health, wealth and smiles for everyone around me! =)



- A PINK cake! *Laughs*


But TinGz reckons that she'd be getting loads of accessories from friends again! Well, I guess that's the safest present to give a friend when you dont know what to get her! *Laughs*

All I want is to have a smashing birthday...Cos I seriously think that I didnt had really memorable and enjoyable birthday celebrations in the past...My 16th was, in my friends' words, "pathetic", "lousy", "horrid" (Blah blah blah...They didnt really have nicesties to say... *Laughs* ) cos all my friends were having awesomely huge parties and I didn't even have a cake! Not even a slice...! *Laughs* (However I manage to get an memorable 18th bday last year, and of cos with an Ice-cream cake from my friends that we celebrated at marina sqaure parris..)


Well, to be honest, this is just a wish-list... Its the thought that counts...Really! =)



And I know of truckloads of people that have the intention of getting me un-glamorously smash by cake...! *Laughs*



Can't wait for my Forever Young birthday in Dec! But for now, books are still my priority!




*HeaRts*

Labels: Social Networking, Wish List

It's officially 45 more days to My Forever Young 19 th Bday...!!



Am glad that my bestie Rowena Jie jie remembers my bday and of course my dearest boyfriend too...


Yea, Im a christmas eve bday girl and the following day is christmas... That sound wonderful uhh...


And I cant wait for it come by... =)


Well, I had decided what am I going to do for my celebration, as I've discuss it with Rowena Jie Jie already... I'll be holding a lil' small party at either Rowena Jie Jie place or my place... It all depends on the suitation...


*Heaps of smilely*



I want a PINK cake though!


I reckons I'll have plenty of sms-es coming in that day... *Hearts*


On the sidenote, I gotta get prepare for the looming exams before getting all this started uhh... Highly stress up by those mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to be covered...


*Sigh*


Weekends are bored...


I digressed...!!



=(

Labels: Life

Im officially having an "rest day" or I shall called it an " slacking day"...


Everyone is outta of the house...!!


*Woots*


That's when freedom beckons...=)


Everyone is having their own entertainment...


Likewise for me, spending time at home can be, in some ways, therapeutic! *LauGhs*


Just imagine my two oldest sister has gone for some retail therapy with dearest mummy and lil' bro is going for friends BBQ party...


And me, all alone at home rotting BUT at the same time spend quality time with my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to be read and mug down...


After so much hip cups happen here and there Im finally on a slight different notes, that's Im much more less wary and less emotional... =)


Apparently, I do have to spend some time getting those stuff to be done before my exams because I wished to spend more time mugging down my notes and what-nots...


On the sidenote, there's an revision class held this evening, however Im not attending because I dont think is necessary... As there's no lecturer there... *Laughs*


Im currently feeling a lil' sleepy and that's gonna be the month...!! *Laughs* My eyes are just going to shut in any minutes or seconds... Either way you look at it...!! *Laughs*


Well, its officially one more week to exams... Am un-prepare still, but still not bad as I do read the very super duper thick textbooks and what-nots... It's really very tedious alright... *Sigh*


I cant wait for my officially holiday and officially graduated from MIS~~~


*opps too happy larx*


Some random ramblings, for the past few days I've been very down and feeling rather emotional and what-nots... I've sit down and go through what had happen and I finally came out with a conclusion and that's not to take things to hardly and let go of it if I really need too... Now a days Im able to see further one step, which means not to waste time on certain trivia and to focus on what's more important in life..


On the sidenote, I felt much more happier and relieve... *Smiles*




*TinGz needs to study harder*




*HeaRts*

Labels: Boredom

Im all alone at home for today...


Add to the fact, Im feeling more lonely recently...


That's means more telly/sleeping/eating/dreaming...



Either way you look at it...!! *Laughs*

=(


As all my family member went to work and lil' brother has just only went to school and will only be back at late night... *Sigh*


Im currently feeling kinda exhausted...


I had a chat via MSN with my oldest sister, telling her Im all alone at home and what-nots... And she wish me HAPPY- NUAING (translate in English is happy-slacking)... *Laughs* I told my oldest sister Im going to SLEEP, EAT, DREAM through out this whole day...


Isn't very glam to be alone at home when you're feeling kinda sentimental uhh... *Wry smiles*

I ought to know, I still do rang up some random friends which I hasnt been keep in touching with them recently... But there's not a reason to forget them uhh... I rang up this acquaintance asking her how is doing and blahx blahx... *Laughs* She saw in a mock horror to received a call from me... Cos I seldom rang them up unless they really need help urgently... *Woots*


Well, me being me, paused awhile listen to whatever she had to tell me and what-nots... I could only urge her not to worry so much about those trivia problems... Just let it be...


(I hope she'll get what I mean)


Well...



I have loads of stuff to say but I cant literally blog all of it down at once...


As braincells is currently feeling quite low...


Im also feeling kinda demoralize... *oppss sad*


On the sidenote, I guess that Im feeling highly stress up over the upcoming exams which is leading me to an very "unknown route"... ={


I guess Im feeling quite tired over certain of problems/issues...

At times TinGz really need someone who could listen to all my worries... Yea, there's a few names in mind... And you babes know who you are alright... Thanks a million for making your way here with me... =)

Am somehow hooked on Facebook and I wanna catch some friends there...


Friendster is much more lagging nowadays, and I admit whenever I log in to Friendster within a 10mins I'll log out because Friendster is getting boring... And I simply in love with Facebook...


Hey, friends, add me on Facebook...


Try out with the new network at Facebook...!! I believe you love it as it has loads of applications and what-nots... =)


I want my friends on Facebook...!! =)



I really need a getaway soon...!!


*Ahwaiting*


人生重使有最難受的一面就讓時間真名吧。。。


*TinGz needs more pat on her head*



*HeaRts*

Labels: Boredom, Social Networking

My idyllic course has finally putting on a full stop after half a year...


And Im finding my way to SIM or PSB which will have pros and cons in it...


(But SIM would be TinGz first choice) *Pray that she get a place there*



And Im finally waving a Good-Bye to Markeing Institute Of Singapore with the slogan "The National Professional Body for Sales and Marketing Practitioners".!



Im officially on a totally different note from today onwards, as Im officially pre-graduated from my course and this week onwards will be self-study weeks and that means no more to and fro to school and those hibernating lectures and what-nots...



Im feeling kinda happy that the course I took is finally over and now I need to focus on the upcoming exams which will be looming very very soon... *Sigh* Im not still prepare...


On the sidenote, Im feeling kinda sleepy maybe the lack of sleep I have during the past few nights... Im highly-nocturnal...!! *Laughs*


Well, there are still many stuff to be done from today onwards like more mugging down of my mountain-ful of notes and study guides and what-nots to be covered... I guess I wont be able to have a good night sleep started from today onwards... *Sigh*


It's really boiling stress at this moment in time, I wished that there's someone who could be here for me and always bring me back to earth... Well, that someone Im refering to dearies friends and sweetheart... But I guess Darlinggg Jennifer is on the way to replied my sms-es... And I'll get her to keep me entertained later... *Laughs*


In the mist of the critical moment I wished somehow somewhere there's a shoulder I could lie on and give me more courage and what-nots... *opps sly smiles*


It seems that there's loads of my dearies friends out there who are real busy with work/school and what-nots, however Im happy that, they didnt forget all about me and in much time they did text/ring me up for a chat and what-nots.. *I miss all my dearies friends*


Im currently feeling damn it cold and it gotta do with the rainy weather which leads me to shivering and what-nots... *uhh I need a warm hug from sweetheart*


And...

So, as random boredom starts crawling into a person's bloodstream, that particular person becomes very bored... Well, in my case, it's due to the fact that I've been pretty much dateless!! (*Gasp*), so I have been spending much time at home...


I dunno about other people, but to me, spending time at home can be, in some ways, therapeutic! *LauGhs*


Why do I say so? Well, I get to spend quality time with Mummy dearest by going on morning a lovely local breakfast, and shopping!!! Grocery shopping! =P


And of course spend more quality time with my bed/telly/PC and of course my kitchen which is a place where mummy put all those food for me... As Im always alone at home during afternoon and till wee evening... That's when more sleeping time beckons, more MSN chat with friends.. *Hearts*


And of course, being dateless means spare time on your hands, so you would try to... Get the camwhoring uploaded soon...!!! And trying to find the recipe to cook some dishes... =) *Woots*



Im finally kinda free from lectures/tutorials, and that's when its time for me to do some texting/calling up to some of dearies friends... I've rang up Darlinggg Jennifer in a bit wee evening for so catch up and what-nots and I hope she is doing real good out there and it's since econs ago since we last met up... After which I rang up Evelyn in a wee bit, asking her how's she doing and what-nots...


And we started talking about BGR, and that's what I can tell Evelyn, try not to take thing to hardly and dont even let him treat you as a rag doll... Well, it's great hearing that you're having a nice boyfriend after all...


To admit, friends have been calling me to meet up and what-nots, but unfortunately, school days has officially ended however, I need to get going with the exams....So, apologies to my darlings...It isn't intentional that we dont get to meet up...! =I Babes, bear with me for another 3 more weeks and I'll ask you all out soon... *Heaps of happiness from all of you*







*TinGz off to telly*




*HeaRts*

Labels: School

It's just another usual day I used to have, but this day is a lil' bit of bitter/sour/sweet...

You decided alright??

I cant pin-point in what exactly that had happen recently...

Just more "arrowing" back e-mails and what-nots... And frankly speaking Im seriously damn it fed up over the e-mail shooting... =(

Im currently feeling very fed up over a couple of issues...

Those issues really makes me go lil' wary...

Im totally not in da mood to names those issues over here...

Im feeling kinda sentimental...

*Wry smiles*

On the sidenote, today is officially the LAST LECTURE of my school life and that's when exams beckons and after which is freedom...

I know, I cant wait for the looming of "Holidays"...

Well, counting down to another one more week to exams... And Im un-prepare uhh... Still lingering around...

Apparently, during my most "stress-ful moments", Im glad that dearies friends did text me... Especially Darlinggggg Jennifer she text me asking how am I doing and what-nots... I guess she's one of the bestie that will understand...

(I hope she reads my BLOG)

It's really been econs ago since I ever last met Darlinggg Jennifer.... Babe, I hope to meet you up soon... And Im free on this coming Wednesday... *Hint hint* Time permits to do some self-study together or gossiping session... Either way you look at it...!! *Laughs*

Well, Im still un-perpare for today's lecture as I havent get my books ready yet and iron my clothing's.. *Opps Im kinda lazy*


Im currently feeling very lonely, as Im all alone left at home... :( Im a sad girlie...

*Sobs*

TinGz off to get herself prepare for school...!!

Labels: School

我怀念的。。。

他的出现,让我开始有真正幸福的感觉。。。

他的体贴,他的贴心深深地打动了我的心;

使我有一种对爱情又有了期望的感觉。。。


我怀念的







我怀念的

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么


想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受


我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动



我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁 记得
谁 忘了


想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受


我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动


我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁 忘了


我怀念的 是无言感动
我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛


我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥


谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔



我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动



我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口


我放手
我让座
假 洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

Labels: Songs Mv

Its amazing what a random thoughts, or shall I call that" more problems kinda situation" does to the brain... I had to shower, so I dragged myself outta bed, and before I knew it.... The problems didnt stop...


OR

It's amazing how time whizzes us by and before I had time to stop, smell the roses or whatsoever...


It's been many days...


Uncountable days till my last breath...


Time has really flown me by...


Im currently feeling a lil' vexed with loads of stuff be it personal or non- personal... Im simply feeling very fuck up... =( I had been a lil' vexed for almost the entire day. I can't exactly pin-point an exact reason for it, but maybe its just that I sometimes feel grossly misunderstood, by a lot of people. I mean, close friends and family members usually know my what I am trying to get at most of the time, and amazingly, the mood that I am in either by just the tone of voice I use or by the words I type on MSN -- you guys know who you are! :)


I guess endings always have the writings on the wall even before anyone says/initiates anything, and in this case, problems or grossly misunderstanding. I guess it has to do with the very fact of having a person whom you loved/cared and whom are very significant in your life, can get mundane, so much so that people often take the daily little things for granted. I admit that I have been guilty of being unreasonable however, I didn't take anyone for granted; but I would have never expected things to be so cranky pretty recently, for I had always thought that he'd be the knight of my fairytale, the one whom will share the white Pickett fences dream with.

{Note: Be it schoolmates, classmates, dearies friends and love ones, I never want things to go wayy cranky...}


I've learnt it- because of the group project all those members I cared for are now totally out of my sight...


Im actually feeling kinda vexed at this moment in my life...I dont know what I ought to do with my life... *SiGh*


So many dreams i aspire,
So many things i desire,
But many thoughts
are the stumbling blocks...



Maybe I ought to head out to the beach more often to clear my thoughts...



"seriously TinGz.. sometimes... make decisions on your own...
dun hv to keep doing wat others want u to...
the old TinGz i noe has a mind of her own..."


On the sidenote, there's few random thoughts came across my mind, thinking of the past and the current Im feeling rather emotional... The love I had last time couldn't compare to the love I have now... Because there's two very important person who was in my life but how they are gone and have went to heaven... Yea, Im talking about my paternal grandmother and paternal great-grandmother... They are the two loves ones who shared my joys and sorrow together and often falter me with a hug when I always beckons... I salute them...



[My dearest "ah ma"(grandma) and "tai ma"(great-grandmother) I miss you all a lot, I hoped that no matter where are you all you all will continue to protect your grandchildren and great-grandchildren and be the reason of our daily smiles]


During my most "upset moments", Im happy that there'll always be a few sweet dearies who will text/call me up... I give them most credit... *Hearts* I guess how am Im feeling right now only two dearies will understand that's no other then Darlingg Jennifer and Evelyn... Yayy, they've always been here with me and give me the most honest opinion... *Sly smiles*



For some weird/morbid reasons, sometimes it really tears me down whenever I think of the past and the current... Yea, some will heed my advice but others will like wavy off my advice and be the way they wanted and Im seriously washing off my hands off of all school stuff... (Im saying this to all my projects members) no offend to others...


Technically, I hope that things will goes smooth of me and everyone of there... Blogging this down, makes me feel real very emotional, yes I ought to know that I'm still putting smiles on my face but deep down inside my heart I'm feeling weak. I hope that I could just sleep through all those problems that are occurring next week. I admit, from next week onwards will be a real stressful and tedious week till the end of my course. But never the less, there's friends who will just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make me smile... *Wrinks* I'm emboldened by all my dearies friends... ^^


It's really alarming hours...


I know, allowing others to have their own freedom and space will be better and therefore, I do not want to became a sad girlie I use to be.... And I admit, I have taste those bitterness life- be it school, family, relationship and what-nots... I know, I must not be too encroaching... I guess what the ending now will be, less wary and just focus on what's more important...

So in a way, after I've come to realize the pros and cons of being single and the pros and cons of being in a relationship with a significant somebody...

Either way you look at it...!!! *Wry smiles*


Is wrong being too concern over dearies friends/boyfriend??



Let time prove everything to me...


I guess only those dearies friends who knows me well, will get what I mean and Im a girl who is asking for simplicity...


Simplicity is virtue...!!!


Im highly stress up over loads of thingy and Im currently very tired of it...


*Hint hint*


All I needed was someone whom would keep me grounded, sane and happy... Isn't very difficult uhh?? But it seems damn it difficult... :{To be honest, there's too much to beckons... *Wry smiles*


In the mist of being real stress up, Im happy that Im still able to be positive and looking forward for the coming days... Exams are just very near and I've no time to waste it...


Keeping myself busy is what I can do right now at this wistful moments, I've been thinking quite a lil' bit of what I shall do now... I guess I gotta stick with my plan... *Sly smiles*



I hope everything will rest now and I need peace...


*TinGz is feeling rather upset*

Labels: Sad, Sentimental

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