Woke up in the morning, then I realise that I lost my EZ link card after searching my bag and the whole house... *Sigh*
I guess that I have drop it in da house while I was on the way home yesterday night... :( Indeed, I went to get the old card replace with the new ez link not even a week I lost my new ez link with a top value of 20 bucks... =(
Mummy dearest, so nice enough to give me her ez link card and ask me to change it for a new one for myself... And of course I save the money of buying the new card from the transit link...
Thanks to the lazy-ness in me that I top up 20 bucks at one go, and I've learn my lesson from there... :(
Shutting this door was never easy, for you once lead me on or even twice of it, you still choose to ignore and let everything be over just like letting off a balloon...
Would you be here to tell me "don't worry" every is getting fine...
Would you merely choose to tell me "call you later", but never will it happen again...
It's the night that I was lying on my bed and let the tears flows down again...
Would you be here to tell me " don't cry because its over", or you merely choose to take my presence for granted...
You no longer leave a smile on my face at the end of the day, instead bringing me to a night which I feel so random and thinking of you at that very moment, hurts me loads...
I admit there are times when I do think about him, but I really do hope that with the new year, I'd be stronger than I am now... The song reminds me not just of him, but of how I cannot seem to be able to shake off that tingling feeling of just wanting closure in some form... But, like what Leona Lewis sang, I really hope that I'd be "Better in Time"... ...
Since there's no more you and me, It's time I let you go So I can be free... And live my life how it should be, No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you... ... Yes I will!
Maybe seeing you being happy that's all I want for you...
Pretending to be strong when I was over the Msn with you wasn't easy at all...
Holding back the tears, fighting with the tears flowing down makes me feel real upset when I know everything is ended...
Like what I've always tell you, "what matters is just being happy"!
I do hope to usher in the new year with a better TinGz I use to be...
2008 is coming to a close.... ....
What a year!!
For that the learning journey is always a bittersweet rhythm...
It's been the tedious week for me alone and others in the office, I've been dreadfully tired after all had happen in the office...
Deep inside my heart, I'm sad that about 5 more days I'm going to bid goodbye to the follow colleagues... Minus PH and weekends it's another 5 more days at AIA!
I can't let my feelings go away, as the bonding with these 4 colleagues is getting closer each and everyday, I guess that don't want me to go too... Hopefully boss will extend my contract due to some reasons uhh... Best of everything, I made 4 very good friends over at AIA!
Let the pictures talk for me...
My best three colleagues erm one not in the picture because she's taking the photo! Chrissy, Me, Nicholas and Swee Kee!
Chrissy the one whom always help us to think what should we get for lunch and tea break! She never fail in lending me her ears and hands each time I call upon during office hour or even lunch hour! She take cares of everyone in the group. :) *Laughs*
Nicholas, the one whom never fail to have the lil' fights/quarrel with me but hey, we didn't really quarrel alright just that he's my source of entertainment someone whom can pick a talk with and someone who never fail to care for me! Don't think that way! Eer, the time spend in sorting romm just that you've work to do there and I'm always struck in that sorting room, thanks for being the nicest friend whom never fail keep me entertain when you happen to be in the sorting room. Hahs! Thanks for the treat to those "liang teh" session uhh... Mr Seah rocks! :P
Swee kee, for being most happy-go-luck girl in the group one whom always bring laughter during lunch time! I'll miss her laughter soon!
As for the one missing out, Kai ting, you are the one whom never fail to shower me with bits of snacks whenever I'm hungry during office hour one whom I can talk anything to and gossip uhh! *Laughs*
How about me, the one whom never fail to deliver their daily work and what-nots!
I guess I'll close this chapter soon after time reach and the day I bid you all goodbye, but we'll keep in touch! Yayy!
Of an incessant yelled/scream that got onto my nerves... :(
Of an incessant throbbing headache that turns into migraines off-and-on, as random as my mood swings...
Of the extremely problems/worries that has been going on right smack in my heart and mind...
For the month to come...
And I can't wait to help the local economy in the wee bits of the "daytime", and of course going with Bestie Jennifer. Hurhur!! Anyways, I've digressed...
Sorry that I haven't been updating, havent been feeling good out here! :(
-R.I.P Creative Zen Mirco + Valentine's Day Wish-List:)
On a sad note, my Creative Zen Mirco is dead and it went literally cranky recently and finally Im waving a good-bye to my white Creative Zen Mirco Mp3.
It has been with me through my heaps of downs and ups moments, playing those songs on the Mp3 who one moments which I couldn't forget. Now Im kissing it a good bye as it was dead now it now R.I.P :( Im kinda sad because this Mp3 has been with me for about 3 years odd and now I gotta buried under somewhere in da house. I admit, I did feel heart ache when last night the Mp3 was dead. Last night was the last time Im using it while Im mugging something down for sweetheart and afterwhich it went hay-wired and till the end it couldn't be switch on again.
Apparently, this Mp3 which is dead now means alot to me as I've mention before it brings me joys,laughter,sorrows through my living years with it. Well, as what Mummy dearest use to say old want don't go how will new want find their way. *Laughs*
On a happier note, Im glad that Mummy dearest is going to be the sponsor for my new Zen Stone Plus with built in speaker Mp3. I probe Mummy dearest last night while she was doing the spring cleaning, I told her in a serious tone of voice, "Mummy my Mp3 die liao". Mummy dearest know that Im feeling kinda sad over it and in no time she told me-I'll (Mummy dearest) buy a new want for you tomorrow. Im pleased that Mummy dearest has always been my sponsor for truckloads of stuff. I Love her through every bits :)
In the mist of looking around for a good Mp3 player, Mummy dearest went to withdraw money for my new Mp3. I guess there is too much too reckon. :P
The bondings I've in my late Mp3 will always marks a good memory in me, because whenever Im feeling down I use to listen to songs and hum some tunes along and that's when my mood got better. It accompanies me throughout my travelling journey to and fro to catch up with friends, sweetheart and of course when I was a school girl then! *Laughs*
Anyways, I've digressed. :P
Valentine's Day Wish-List
- Flowers in PINK! :)
- A splendid celebration with Sweetheart.
- A new charm watch/accessories :)
- Sony Ericsson Z750i
- New Mp3 (Hahs! Got it from Mummy dearest) :P
- Friends/loved ones/sweetheart be happy everyday =)
Alright, this is just one a wish-list, its the thoughts that really counts. Valentine's day is also a day of celebration friendship too.
Let me update bits of my weekends spend.
Im glad that Im able to meet up with Bestie Jie yesterday afternoon for lunch and never the less a heart to heart talk in-life, school,work or even relationship!
On the side note, Bestie Jie is getting herself prepare for the Uni application that is open for her as she has been waiting for a year or so. So I hope this time round she remember to apply a place for herself uhh. *Laughs*
I kinda pleased that she is one happy girl after all the heaps of hips cups for her and I know some way on the road she feel lost and I do pick her up and tell her which bridges to cross and which bridges to burn. Im glad that she one girl whom really know what she wants in her life. *Hearts*
Add to the fact, from the chats with dearest mummy about a certain problems that happen and Im not going to reveal over here. =(
Come close to heart, it hurts me when I gotta hear some which isnt pleasant at all from a relative whom I used to be close with but from now Im going to be distant from them. Just to avoid those arrow that is coming back to me. *Sigh*
Truth to be told, I hate how people interfere my life problems and I guess which nothing is considering about them, however they are the kpos to came by and kpo my life. Frankly speaking, if the person who is unhappy with me why cant he/she tell me personally instead of asking a third party to tell me all about it. =(
My hearts tears whenever I look back of the past and I felt that my most inner emotion isnt good at dealing with all these! My tears flow off from my cheeks when I was lying on my bed. Do they know that, they have hurt me loads?
I guess, no ones truly understand how it's feels. In my opinion, keep silence is always the best solution of all. I ought to know that Im really very affected by what they said, but what they said isnt true at all. I know Im not good in many areas, heys no one is born to be perfect.
Deep inside my hurt there's a crack line, which couldn't be mend at all. Im a sad girlie! :(
I thank god for always being with me see me through my heaps of downs moments and with some up moments. Most credit are credited to those whom I loved. You know who you are! *Hearts*
Anyways, 8 more days to my forever young birthday. Thus far, I gotta one present from my dearest mummy. =)
And TinGz's awaiting for post-Christmas sales everywhere! Hahs! =P
Its amazing what a random thoughts, or shall I call that" more problems kinda situation" does to the brain... I had to shower, so I dragged myself outta bed, and before I knew it.... The problems didnt stop...
OR
It's amazing how time whizzes us by and before I had time to stop, smell the roses or whatsoever...
It's been many days...
Uncountable days till my last breath...
Time has really flown me by...
Im currently feeling a lil' vexed with loads of stuff be it personal or non- personal... Im simply feeling very fuck up... =( I had been a lil' vexed for almost the entire day. I can't exactly pin-point an exact reason for it, but maybe its just that I sometimes feel grossly misunderstood, by a lot of people. I mean, close friends and family members usually know my what I am trying to get at most of the time, and amazingly, the mood that I am in either by just the tone of voice I use or by the words I type on MSN -- you guys know who you are! :)
I guess endings always have the writings on the wall even before anyone says/initiates anything, and in this case, problems or grossly misunderstanding. I guess it has to do with the very fact of having a person whom you loved/cared and whom are very significant in your life, can get mundane, so much so that people often take the daily little things for granted. I admit that I have been guilty of being unreasonable however, I didn't take anyone for granted; but I would have never expected things to be so cranky pretty recently, for I had always thought that he'd be the knight of my fairytale, the one whom will share the white Pickett fences dream with.
{Note: Be it schoolmates, classmates, dearies friends and love ones, I never want things to go wayy cranky...}
I've learnt it- because of the group project all those members I cared for are now totally out of my sight...
Im actually feeling kinda vexed at this moment in my life...I dont know what I ought to do with my life... *SiGh*
So many dreams i aspire, So many things i desire, But many thoughts are the stumbling blocks...
Maybe I ought to head out to the beach more often to clear my thoughts...
"seriously TinGz.. sometimes... make decisions on your own... dun hv to keep doing wat others want u to... the old TinGz i noe has a mind of her own..."
On the sidenote, there's few random thoughts came across my mind, thinking of the past and the current Im feeling rather emotional... The love I had last time couldn't compare to the love I have now... Because there's two very important person who was in my life but how they are gone and have went to heaven... Yea, Im talking about my paternal grandmother and paternal great-grandmother... They are the two loves ones who shared my joys and sorrow together and often falter me with a hug when I always beckons... I salute them...
[My dearest "ah ma"(grandma) and "tai ma"(great-grandmother) I miss you all a lot, I hoped that no matter where are you all you all will continue to protect your grandchildren and great-grandchildren and be the reason of our daily smiles]
During my most "upset moments", Im happy that there'll always be a few sweet dearies who will text/call me up... I give them most credit... *Hearts* I guess how am Im feeling right now only two dearies will understand that's no other then Darlingg Jennifer and Evelyn... Yayy, they've always been here with me and give me the most honest opinion... *Sly smiles*
For some weird/morbid reasons, sometimes it really tears me down whenever I think of the past and the current... Yea, some will heed my advice but others will like wavy off my advice and be the way they wanted and Im seriously washing off my hands off of all school stuff... (Im saying this to all my projects members) no offend to others...
Technically, I hope that things will goes smooth of me and everyone of there... Blogging this down, makes me feel real very emotional, yes I ought to know that I'm still putting smiles on my face but deep down inside my heart I'm feeling weak. I hope that I could just sleep through all those problems that are occurring next week. I admit, from next week onwards will be a real stressful and tedious week till the end of my course. But never the less, there's friends who will just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make me smile...*Wrinks* I'm emboldened by all my dearies friends... ^^
It's really alarming hours...
I know, allowing others to have their own freedom and space will be better and therefore, I do not want to became a sad girlie I use to be.... And I admit, I have taste those bitterness life- be it school, family, relationship and what-nots... I know, I must not be too encroaching... I guess what the ending now will be, less wary and just focus on what's more important...
So in a way, after I've come to realize the pros and cons of being single and the pros and cons of being in a relationship with a significant somebody...
Either way you look at it...!!! *Wry smiles*
Is wrong being too concern over dearies friends/boyfriend??
Let time prove everything to me...
I guess only those dearies friends who knows me well, will get what I mean and Im a girl who is asking for simplicity...
Simplicity is virtue...!!!
Im highly stress up over loads of thingy and Im currently very tired of it...
*Hint hint*
All I needed was someone whom would keep me grounded, sane and happy... Isn't very difficult uhh?? But it seems damn it difficult... :{To be honest, there's too much to beckons... *Wry smiles*
In the mist of being real stress up, Im happy that Im still able to be positive and looking forward for the coming days... Exams are just very near and I've no time to waste it...
Keeping myself busy is what I can do right now at this wistful moments, I've been thinking quite a lil' bit of what I shall do now... I guess I gotta stick with my plan... *Sly smiles*
I hope everything will rest now and I need peace...
It's officially one down and two more to go....!!! And that's no other then my projects... It really has hit the boiling extreme which makes me feel real agitated over the group members I have...
And I'm please to announce that the pair work for "business communication" has come to an end... As I was at hougang during the afternoon with my friend to get it done over it so that we are able to concentrated on the self-study... Which I think is more important, as it upholds 70 percent...
I thought they're an obliging members, however, there's only like 3 members participate in the projects and the other one is just a "free rider"... F**K....!!!
Apparently, I hope that the two group project will be done as soon as possible as there's isn't much time left for self- study for the looming examination which is about less then a month... *Sigh*
I know no point cursing and swearing here but I wanna let you people know that isn't nice to have one group members who doesn't wanna help out... Let's look on the bright side of life...
Hopefully I can get those two group project done by the end of this week...{self-denial,obviously} *Laughs* I still need to gather those snippets of information and mugging down my notes and what-nots that need to be covered... Hopefully everything sail well uhh!!!
It's officially the second last week of lecture and I can't wait for it to end on 5 Nov 2007... I guess it's then freedom beckons... *opps too happy* =)
Initially, I switch off my both cellphones again because I'm feeling a lil' tired... I shouldn't elaborate much on why I switch off my cellphones, because I don't wanna get questioned... =X
For the past few days, I'm feeling kinda tired and hopefully to sleeps like 16hours a day, and I must dreaming... *Fat hope*
It's a lil' weird that the night owl has been developing weird sleeping habits, or the lack of sleep habits, recently. I haven't been sleeping well, which might explain the stress and what-nots...
I managed to sleep at three-ish for the past few days, and I woke at at close to 6am just to visit the loo, and after that, sleep didn't beckon! :(
Because my brain was still wondering around and thinking of loads stuff which are close to my heart... That really matters me for days and it's no other then the stress loads from school... *Sigh* That is an un-glam nights...!! -_-
Health-wise, I'm kind back at my "TinGz wanna gain weight" programme... *LauGhs*
Let's hope that I'll gain some weight uhh... {self-denial, obviously} *LauGhs*
I guess the new week which I'm rather alone... *Sigh*
Well, the coming new week will try to keep myself busy and occupied with things to be done and hopefully to meet up Darling Jennifer for some retail therapy before the started of her new school term... *opps waiting*
♥ Guess Wallet.
♥ My Titus Watches
♥ NIKE Water Bottle
♥ Sony Ericsson C903
♥ Sony Ericsson K770i.
♥ Samsung T10 MP3.
♥ White Killer Spec.
♥ Computer
♥ My Bed.
♥ Pink and White Stuff.
♥ Baby Love
♥ Bestie Jennifer
♥ Dr Janice
♥ Mummy Dearest
♥ Da Jie
♥ Youngest Brother
♥ Maternal Grandparents
♥ All My Close/Good Friends
Her Cravings
♥ New JOB
♥ Driving License
♥ More Clothing
♥ More Accessories.
♥ Heels.
♥ Sony Camera
♥ Lappy
♥ Overseas Holiday
