Spring cleaning for CNY 2010 has started...


And I am almost half-done with cleaning up the room and what-nots...


All this which might explains to backaches and all the aches which suppose to join them real soon... *Laughs*


I am not kidding, it's really tiring, it can drain out my bloodsteam by climbing up and down like a monkey! *Laughs*


More spring cleaning will be looming soon maybe next week as weekends are reserve for good times... Hurhur!


Anyway, I digressed!


:)

First of all, work hunting hasn't been successful yet..


Many applications I send some has ring back in regarding of sending my CV to respective companies...


None of the companies ring me...


Therefore I will be still trying very hard to get back to the working society real soon and hope its before CNY!


Truth to be told, time hasn't allow me to catch up with Bestie Jennifer for a long time, however she has text me and asking me out on this coming Monday but will confirm with her again...


Anyway, I am looking forward for shopping spree this weekends and CNY is just round the corner and which means SHOPPING begins from NOW!! Yayy! *Hurray*


I have change my blogskin today, FYI, the section of " The Past" are not click able due to some reasons that the HTML code went literally cranky on me, so mean while use the Lables tab at the end of each post to read "the past" ...


Will update more when I am not LAZY!


*Laughs*

I am feeling highly stressed up!


I am feeling highly moody!


I am feeling highly fed up!


I am feeling highly tired!


All that rubbish that adds onto my life is really giving me a hard time, I am just 1km near of giving up in everything...


Somehow somewhere along the lines, the rocks is getting real rocky and its resulting me to those upleasant thinking...


Like what I have always heard from friends, "life is like a box of chocolates, you will never know what you are going to get"! I totally agree with them...


For no apparent reason, I have no idea why is he giving me a hard time in everything, I have tried my best by giving in and all that I could... But he doesn't seems to be happy...


Seriously I have no idea what does being happy means to me??


Perhaps the times I use to be happy has already buried longgggg time ago, it's been 5years on and I never for once can forget about her in my life... She's the one whom I heart alot, she's the one whom will always be ready for me whenever I called upon... She has really gone to a place which is far far away that I couldn't see her...

Indeed I really do miss her very much... I wonders if she can see or hear me, I wish nothing but the best for her and for me too... I rememebered her in my dreams telling me to be happy and all that she wants from me was merely to be happy as ever as I could...


I know, I failed to do it... I fear, I cried, I worried... No one will ever love me as she does...


哭过就好了　　痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了


I need a break to all those rubbish...


I want to be the happy girl I use to be!


:D

"Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you."


One whom always creates quarrels for you but never once ever listen to me or believe me was something which makes me feel real upset about... It's all lies on him because he would always trying to me paranoid with what he saw online rather then to believe what I say... For this I am freaking out tired and seriously I am giving up, I do not want to probe or anything like this I would just keep my mouth shut because I knew that he would never ever believe me for once we are together... Perphas maybe this has prove to me that he never had confident in me not having faith with me...



For no reason,he would always be paranoid over stuffs he saw and being there excruciating things in his own ways and never once was in my way... Or maybe he felt tired listening to me... I admit, I am always the one compromising him in whatever he once but never once was mine! I give in all, I give my time, I give everything I can and all I get was nothing in return... He never once seems happy...


I have no idea what else should I do because I am freaking tired and I wish that I could just turn back time... I just don't seems to understand why can't he STOP being PARANOID! This is really freaking me out!


I have faith and confidence in him but never had that on me!


Now I realise that I was merely a problem or trouble for him, I guess that nothing will change... Here I am trying my best to keep this relationship and there he is putting all those funny quarrels out there...


I admit, I am being stressed up and all I want is to be happy everyday...


I gave my all.
I loved Him more than I did of my previous boyfriends;
Yet to be at the receiving end of such mistrust was just too much for me to swallow...

Im not an angel, neither am I perfect, I wished I was though -- I wished I had a magic wand to eradicate all the quarrels that we had inflicted upon us; to wave off all the unhappiness in your Life, and to make things between us right.




不喜欢怀疑什么　并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化　慢慢不同
我不是生气　　只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了　但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变　但不能
说　你会这么做是我的错

哭过就好了　伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱　　为了牵手
不是为了争吵　　为了调头

哭过就好了　　痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

I am feeling really very bored at home...


But I am doing online search for jobs can be somewhat therapeutic...


Of cos there's manu research to be done before getting back to the coroprate world but however, I do hope that I will get the job with my interest in it... I am still keeping my fingers crossed well because I don't want anymore hips cups here and there which really leads me to a moody world...


Apparently, life hasn't been really happening because I am struck at where am I now... I want to lead my life well now and of cos letting parents to enjoy their soon after I am back to the corcoprate world...


I have been doing what I can in getting a job many methods I use and many source of applications I have been using...


And Yes...


Finally a agency called me back to confirm all my particulars and I hope that I could get into this particular job... I wouldn't want to probe anything over here before everything is CONFIRM!


Wish me luck!

:D

Apparently, the first weekends of 2010 begins with a literally loud bang!

Why do I say so?


Imagine you have a great fall to welcome the New Year wasn’t a very pleasant thing ever! I might have just merely smile during the fall but I didn’t as the pain was indeed irresistible and I remember vividly I was screaming in pain where no one come to help me or perhaps I should say there have one person who is in my life simply ignore me during the fall…


Anyway, I digressed!


I would never want myself to bring in the New Year with those injuries which really makes me feel that 2010 wouldn’t be a good year for me… I should have just crossed my fingers till then!



There’s only the pains that really brings me into a worst night ever! Never would I want myself to be suffering the pains on my knees and toe… For that I wouldn’t want anymore injuries to come by way, as I am really trying my best to wave down all those unpleasant stuff in life…



I guess there’s pros and cons in life but after all, what matters is just being happy am I right?


In some reasons or another, I want my life to be filled with brimming happy-ness, joy, laughter and LOVE to be filled in these category…



Anyway, it’s time for me to start “job hunting”!


:D