I announce... It's the very last entry of the month!!

After so much heaps of ups/downs during this month alone, and finally everything is ended, and I felt a strong relieve.. Yes, I have learnt my lesson too. Being happy is what I want!!

All this ups/downs will merely make me a stronger person in future! Those un-glamorously crys and what-nots in this month alone has make me feel real tired!! But never the less, I'm still standing still today=) *woots* I give credits to all my dearies friends... What they have contributed to me I really appreciate it alot. I know in times that I do made hasty decision, but after I think through it, I never regret what I did thus far.

From time to time, when I fall, I'll pick myself up and go on with my life!! Remember life always has a purpose for us to live.

I was so much affected by what I read over alice's sister blog. While I was reading it I was crying,because of all those hasty things her sister wrote there.. Does she knows that alice love her alot? I can feel that the love alice has given her, but I have no idea will she feel it. Does she know that it hurts alice so much. Alice is feeling no good too, she(alice) keep blaming on herself. Darling alice, do you know that it hurts me too, to see you in such situation?? I'm sorry I can't help you much, but being here for you is all I can do. I have given you all those advices and I hope that you'll heed it and think through what I told you that night!

I think she should take me as an very good example because I really went through alot during this month alone! Alice, use told advice you use to tell me whenever I'm feeling woozy/wistful! Remember you are not walking this journey alone!! You have your friends and of cos me lahx.. I know it's not easy to get over with it, but you have to try. I know I can't ask you to pretend that nothing has happen. Yes, it leave a wound in your heart, and I know is tearing apart! I know that alice is feeling physically/mentally tired!! Girl, all this obstacles makes you stronger and not weaker!!

Actually, I really feel that I'm the most 辛福 girl in this world, because I really feel the love my family members has given me.. Especially, My da jie, mummy and daddy!! Thank you so much!! Especially my daddy, he has show me much care and love after my break down!! I give credits to daddy!! I ought to know that daddy use to scold me but I know that he scolded me is for my own good!! I LOVE THEM=)

*Hearts*

Never the less, I'll be happy everyday and it goes the same to all my love ones!! Family & Friends and of cos My Special Someone!! Muacks!!

Let this month end in peace and next month will be a better month for everyone!!


*TiNgz misses Someone*

Oh well...

It's a new week and new start again!! Let's hope this week will be a better want for everyone out there especially all my dearies friends...

I'm very please to announce that today is my very LAST LECTURE for this module I "like", that's no other then Business maths!! *Laughs* Like=hate!! *Laughs*


Yes, it's not easy going through all this heaps for this module, but finally I reached the finishing line, and next will be the final examination of this module. Hopefully I will pass this module if not I need to re-module it in the next semester!!

BLESS ME~~~

*Laughs*

After all that happen in this semester, is all and finally over already, shall move on to the next level which will make me a better person...

Just now I asked Darling Alice to come down my house for some heart to heart talk. I rang her up yesterday afternoon when I gotta a sms from her. I was kinda worried for her, so I think I should ring her up to ask what happen.

I can only say this to Darling Alice: I'll be here seeing you through your ups/downs, no matter what happen please rememeber that you still have me by your side. I'll continue to lead you through this life and promise to be there for you whenever you needed me. I strongly believe in her that she will stand up again. She'll pick herself up from where she fall and continue is life journey for her.I want to see you happy again!! Remember don't stress yourself too much and don't tense yourself up too.. Try to relax and life will be better!!


I shall end here!!!


*TiNgZ is tired*


=)

I must admit, this weekend is indeed real busy for me.. Finally I'm not rotting at home this weekends.. *Laughs*

Another naughty thing I did was, to pon ten school yesterday, but yesterday lesson wasn't taken as part of our attendance... I'm not telling why I pon ten school=X

(because there's some people who are reading my blog, I shouldn't blog much on my personal thingy here,because there's one person who I hated will read my blog)

I'm not scared of putting the above thingy, cos there's nothing to be scared of, that person who I hate for life, or I should say this He/she cannot interfere my life!! Seriously, saying about this he/she I hated makes me boils at times, but not worth after all!! If he/she wanna find fight/quarrel with me I WELCOME HIM/HER!!

(I'm serious saying all this, so that HE/SHE better STOP viewing my Blog)

Hence upon saying all this, there's close friends of mine whom know, who is the he/she I'm referring too!!

To that HE/SHE: Better get off of my side, if not I'll get back my revenge from you!! Leave my BLOG alone and LEAVE me ALONE~~ Thanks!!

I sound real serious say all this, but I have no choice left.. It's ok, I don't hold any hates on him/her!!


Hmm, today I went suntec city and MS with Evelyn, after 2weeks finally we meet up for shopping.. Indeed we have a great fun, I guess Evelyn must be real happy today, because she brought herself loads of stuff... It's fun going shopping with her, and have an heart-to-heart talk with her.

Well, I can see that she is getting better, and I hope that she'll heed my advice and move on. Evelyn jie must Jiayou=) I'll always be here for you seeing you through your ups/downs.. I really wanna see you happy from the day I know you ok... =)

My Saturday spend with her was a good want...

How about tomorrow??

Yes, won't be home too, but I can't reveal where will I be going!! Simply saying, I'm busy from today onwards... Loads of stuff to be done and well prepare for...

Cannot slack anymore, need to date my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover from the next few weeks or so... I'm glad that Semester two is ending for me and will be moving on to next semester on 27 August 2007!!

But in between that, I'll have and 1week school Holiday=) *hooray*... Examination will end officially on 20August 2007! I need to study hard for the time being..

Before I end today blogging, I need to say this, friends of mine, please call me if you got problems.. No sms will be entertain unless for special reason!! Because I exceed my sms and out going call, and now my bill is a big bomb.. Thanks to the problems I encounter 3weeks back, because all this, my bill is a bomb!! I warn you people, don't miss call me, I won't ring back!!

Thanks!!

*TiNgZ need to study hard*

=)

It's officially all down.. Zero to go!!

Today is the very last day for my Mid-Term Test!! *Hooray* I announce I'll be having my Sales Presentation this evening, and hopefully I'll get prepared on what I wanna present this evening...

After all this down...The official Final Mid-term examination is looming, this is very important to me as it will determine my whole semester results.. Hopefully I no need to re-module...

*Touch wood*

I'll need to study harder for this time round, as this holds a very high precent! No matter what I need to do my best, so that I'll not regret in further...


In the midst of preparing my sales presentation, I'm still thinking what to wear for this evening presentation... Need to wear formal, but I want it causal and yet formal... I'm not kidding, I gotta wear Heels to that presentation!! Let's hope that my I won't have any blister while I'm walking with the Heels... *Laughs* Well, prepare with plaster along the way...

Hopefully I won't miss those important points that I need to empathize to the lecturer and my follow classmates...

It's has been raining recently and I must admit, this weather lead me to a 12 hours of sleep...That sound wonderful right??? * Snore Snore Snore*


A BUSY weekends ahead!!


*TiNgZ needs some confidence*


=)

Oh Well...

My bad for not updating my blog recently:(

Was Lazy and Busy=)

*Laughs*

Either way you at it!!

To be honest, I hasn't been staying at home recently, was to and fro to school and meet up with friends. But at the same time, I was busy lending my ears to my very dear girlfriend. Well, I may not give her the best advice in relationship, but I really hope that she'll move on. As what she use to tell me, "sometime not getting what you want is a blessing"! Yes, it's true, I heed her advice and move on and it makes me a better girl now.

I can still lend her my ears, I'll be there for her when she needs me,I'll be seeing her through her ups and downs. This is what I can do for her, I hope that she'll walk out from all this unimportant trivia.

To admit, I haven't get prepare for my presentation tomorrow, I wonder if I present it my golden mouth will be tight... *Laughs* It's was like econs ago when I present in front of the whole class. There's nothing much I can do, but just to present it once and for all.

After this presentation end, the next calamity is looming, yes, there's no other then my Final Term Examination!!! My bad for not dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to be covered... Has been real stress out, so I told a lil' break and allow myself to enjoy my life after so much things happen. But everything is fine now, I'm a Happy Girl ever then before.

The rainy weather makes me feels real cold and make me feels real sleepy too... Maybe I should just take a nap later!! But before doing that, I need to read through my presentation for tomorrow.. As I cannot hold and paper or cards during the presentation=(

I must admit, I has been having retail therapy recently... Wonderful retail therapy I have with all my dearies friends... Well, I would be able to this again as much as I wanted, as I need to prepare for the looming Examination.. I need to endure...


*TiNgZ feel blessed*



*HeaRtS*

Yes... It's finally an usual weekends I use to have in the past=) Getting back this feeling again make me feel great... No Worries, No Doubts, No Troubles... Moving on, onto a new world that belongs to me:)

Well, I must admit, I hasn't been really dating my mountain-ful of notes since the day my mid-term test is over... This few days I took those nights to have a good rest, it allows me to sleep early without any worries occurring:) I guess I'm a Happy Girlie till today:) *Woots*

To start off with what I wanna say today, please allow me to do some nagging here and there in today's blogging=)

Firstly, I'm going to meet my Darling Jennifer tonight after she knock off.. Yes, we are heading to bugis to have some shopping session and makan session... It's has been weeks since I last met her up.. Hmm, we live one road across one another, but we seldom met up in our area, because Jennifer is busy schooling.. I'm busy with what I also don't know lehx..*Laughs* I rang Darling Jennifer up last night to confirm the timing and venue to meet and what-nots... I was really looking forwards to see her today=)

I'm wondering what will I get myself tonight?? Darling Jennifer should know what I wanna get tonight... I wanna get the story I saw 2weeks ago at bugis... Anyone is curious what is the book all about?? I think that book is good for knowledge, because it teaches us how to maintain a Boy-girl Relationship=)

Perhaps getting myself a pair of either demin jeans or demin shorts... I have loads of stuff to buy, but I can't buy it at one goal, because will be heavy for me to carry back to my house=) *Laughs*

Me and Darling Jennifer, are Highly-Tempted to the "qi ji" eating house... So tonight our dinner will be at there:) *yummy* I'm craving for "qi ji" chicken wings... It's yummilicious!!

That's what I'm doing tonight=)

Err, I guess during the day time, I need to get more SLEEP!! *Snore Snore Snore* But before doing this I need to get my clothes ironed and bag packed=)

My nagging begins:

Apparently, I was knock off to my bed at 11.15pm... It's very early right?? I was sleeping soundly and luckily I didn't snore:) *Laughs* I was really feeling very tired for the past few days after everything is settle down... Yupx, in between my sleep, I still received heaps of sms-es from all my friends=) I didn't know they miss me so much... Indeed I heard the ringing sound of my incoming sms-es, I woke up and press the sound away, I didn't reply because as what I said, I'm feeling tired.. But at about 3am, I received a sms from my Evelyn, I immediately replied her, cos I know something has crock ups for her... I did console her etc. After which she said she will ring me in the morning. But meanwhile, I told her not to think so much and have a good rest.

I guess it must be Relationship problem. I didn't asked her when she give me the sms-es. My six sense kinda true arhx.. *Laughs*

Finally, she rang me up at 10am, and I must admit, I'm still sleeping... But never-the-less, I talk to her and listen to her problems. I cannot reveal what thingy is she facing but is about relationship...

To me, I have really seen alot during the past three relationship I have. I urge everyone out there who are attached, treasure what you have now before everything is gone. Yes there's pros and cons being in a Relationship. There are sweet and ugly experiences in a relationship, but all this obstacles makes you people stronger. Yes, I was feeling woozy and wistful for the past few week ago, but since the day I moved on I tell myself this, Being happy everyday is already the gift from god to us. Yes, Heartaches are inevitable,we have to overcome it so that we will not make the same mistake again. I feel agitated when I'm being neglected in a relationship.

Constantly/instantly I'm learning to be brave each day with the help of all my dearies friends. Through out my ups/downs, I feel that moving on and letting go of someone that doesn't belongs to you will make life easier and happier for you, that's what I benefit. I can only say, today pains will be reduce by tomorrow pains, and tomorrow pains will reduce by yesterday pain. Life always has better things for us to look forward too.

I know it's not easy, but we have to get it through once and for all. I tried to persuade friends who are really lost,sad etc during their relationship. I told them take me as an example, I can over it so do you people.

Relationship is to be happy and not tolerance!!! Which I think is true, because among my three relationship the first and second want are happy but the last(recently) want is about tolerance. F***!!! But I'm glad, in a morbid way, I have learn to be a less wary and less barren girl=)

Yes, sometimes things do screwed-up, but we have to solve in as soon as possible. No point looking back at the close door that has been shut-ted. In life, there are many other new doors are opening up for us. It's your choice to appreciate a new door that's opening, or choose the door that is remain shut forever. Sometime we tend to look at the close door once it has been shut-ted. Walk out of the close door and god is offering us a new door to walk on by.

I hope that Evelyn will understand what I told her via call/sms. Move on... I may not give her the best advice, but I'm ready to be here for her seeing her through her ups/downs and guide her along the way. The piles of advices I given to her and hope she will think through what I told her.

Enjoy the life that god has gave us=)

Evelyn, you must JIAYOU, I'll be here with you=)

That's all for my nagging:)

*Woots*


*TiNgZ need to get a short nap*

=)

I declare Mid-term Test is OVER!!

*Hooray*

Well, I gotta back one of my results back, I must say, indeed I PASS with flying colours=) In spite of so many ups/downs in between this Mid-term test.. I'm happy that I didn't let all my love ones/girlfriends/guyfriends down.. People I have made it, but the calamity is not over yet... Please continue to help me along:)

Firstly my bad:( for not updating my blog recently, because I'm busy or lazy... Either way you look at it.. *Laughs*

Yes, many unhappy things happen, but it make me a brave girl ever then before... Yesterday I went to meet this Guy Friend.. I'm Not-Telling much=X

Indeed during those difficult moments my friends are always here for me... Please allow me to share with you what happen yesterday mid-night...

Oh well...

I was already on my bed at about 11.30pm trying to sleep, but I couldn't sleep because I have heaps of sms-es from friends.. Well.. There is one sms that I didn't expected to received after so many days.. At about 12.38pm that Someone aka ex bf finally reply my sms after so many days.. But no point sending me the sms already, because I have moved on.. That Someone aka ex bf apologise to me etc.. I'm not revealing what he said, well, I can only say that I'm very disappointed. I don't see a point to reply me after 10days or so. Yes he may feel that he is a bastard... But I can only say that please don't do that to his next girl. I was really in mock horror when he replied me, I was like telling myself should I reply?? Finally I reply him, with what I wanna say... He is one of my exs who really let me down seriously...

I was really hoping that he won't not reply because, since I have moved on and carry on with my life since the day he didn't open his door. The minute I told myself, let this door be shut forever, after which I pulled my mummy away and we went home. I was feel sad and heartache he won't come to understand. Yes, I made an hasty decision, but that the best way to go on our own ways.

I think that the break up will really make me feel happy and be myself and of cos there's other guys out there... But that Someone aka ex bf has left a bad impact in me, I must admit, I'm not hating him, because no point and not worth. Let him be, just hope that he will move on and be happy everyday...

Yes the pain is indeed unbearable, but no matter what I need to over come and be strong each day right?? I'm very contented now, as I can see who really cares/love me.. My dearest Daddy & Mummy and my 3Great Siblings thanks so much for being with me.. Mummy, thanks for those nights when you accompany me in my sleep and looking after me. I give credits to them...

All in all, this Someone aka ex bf has leave my mind since the day I send him the sms... I declare I'm really moving on and I'm a happy girl=) *woots*

I hope all this that had happen will somehow make me a girl who are less wary and spiritually a less emotional and less barren person=)

Yes, friends that had always been here in one way or another.. I give credits to them too.... I truly see who is the one for me after so many ups/downs.. (only Evelyn understand this)

Well, life is always full of ups/downs... Move on is the best medicines=)

That's all for the updates!!

Once again, thank you everyone who has seeing me through=) I LOVE YOU ALL:)

*TiNgZ has moved on*

=)

It's a nice song by SHE 天灰...

It's express the feeling I have at the this moment!!

FORGET... LET GO!!!

I'm a Happy Girl!!








"如果你不再出现, 我的世界 还有什麼可贵...
可惜不够时间, 让我们试验, 什麼叫永远."



想念变成怀念, 心动变成心碎.
偏偏还会关切, 你最後属於谁...



我的天空今天有点灰...
我的心是个落叶的季节...(的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭...



如果你从没出现, 我会不会, 觉得快乐一些?
可惜残忍时间, 总要把诺言, 一点点摧毁...



想念变成怀念, 心动变成心碎...
偏偏还会关切, 你最後属於谁...



我的天空今天有点灰...
我的心是个落叶的季节...(的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭...(全都熄灭)



我的天空今天有点灰...(有一点灰)
我的心是个落叶的季节...
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭...(全都熄灭)



我的天空今天有点灰,
我的心是个落叶的季节...
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭... ..."

It's officially 2down and 1 more to go!!

(this evening will be the second paper it's Business Maths, pray that luck be with me)

*Horray*

My bad for not blogging recently, due to certain stress loads that I'm having for those past few weeks... For the past few days, I have heaps of sms-es/calls from all my dearies friends, they text me asking me how I'm feeling about... Well, I can only say that I have learn to let go already, yes, sometime not getting what you want is a great blessing! That's what Evelyn told me via sms during the wees hours..

Yes, I have went through those ups/downs by myself, but never alone, because I know my Dearies friends will be here for me seeing me through. I must say a BIG THANK YOU to them, if not because of them, I won't be standing here... They has never failed offer me with piles of advices and hugs.. I LOVE YOU ALL!!

Yes, I must admit recently, I'm feeling a strong tiredness over those stress loads I have.. Never the less, I will walk out from this stress loads someday... I truly can see who has been there for me whenever I needed them... Well, somehow I'll be strong in times to come.

As what many friends told me, focus on what's more important now. The rest of it let nature take the course. I believe that god is still searching the best one for me. Yes, all this life setbacks will make me stronger and not weaker. God want me to learn from my mistakes and never repeat again...

I must say that there's pros and cons being in a relationship. Yes we learn those beautiful and ugly experiences. There's also pros and cons being single too.. Single life is the BEST!!

I guess I really need a REAL darling who could be there for me seeing me through my ups/downs, and that DARLING must have a good attitude towards ME.. Because I'm a attention- seeker.. I dislike having a boyfriend who is BUSY!! But cannot be 24 hours also busy!! My heart has an answer to which DARLING I want~~

(I've posted this some donkey years ago when I was with my exs)

I need a REAL DARLING that will do all this for ME:
- Love ME
- Trust ME
- Dote ME
- Respect ME
- Be There For ME When I Need HIM
- Sharing All My Joys & Sorrows Together
- Shower ME many surprise~
- Prove HIS Love For ME Is TRUE!
- Promise ME his VOW to ME~
- Understand ME~

A Real Darling, who could agree with my instinct!!! A Darling that would be here seeing me through my ups/downs! I'm Waiting =)


I read this online I would like to share with those who are reading my blog!

The heart of one person moves another's. ... If one's own heart is closed, then the doors of other people's hearts will also shut tight. On the other hand, someone who makes all those around him or her into allies, bathing them in the sunlight of spring, will be treasured by all.

Well...

That's all for today, I need to get prepare for my business maths test this evening..

Conclude:

I have learn to let go... Happiness is vital being happy is vital too.. In life, BEING HAPPY EVERYDAY is most important!!



*TiNgZ feels loved by all her loved one/dearies guys/girls FRIEND*

It's officially mid-term test...

And...

I haven't get prepare yet, or I should say I did study through all my mountain-ful of notes or I should put it this way, my mind is simply not focusing on my mid-term test...

Either way you look at it!! *Laughs*

(Friends wish me luck)

Indeed, I did read through all those MCQ thingy, to be ready to fight for the war... *Laughs* Isn't sound so scary, but because due to certain personal problems it leads me to no where but to be positive... I'm getting absolutely exhausted over many personal problems... The irritation is just there.


Yes I admit, I have learn to let go since Tuesday night, since then yesterday Wednesday in the morning I give an sms to that Someone but that Someone didn't reply. So I told myself at least I have made my decision, now the problems lies with that Someone, I have no idea is he simply ignoring this problem or not. Whatever it is I can only say that that's a immature way in handling relationship issue. That Someone is simply avoiding or not facing the fact, whatever he does now, let him be.. If he would to reply, I can only say thanks for respecting my decision.. Yes, not easy to let go, but no matter how much how deep I love him still, I can only let go and to be selfish to everyone. To me, if you love a person, who doesn't even love you in return, hey, don't waste my time... I willing to let go because, at least I see him happy I'm satisfied already. Love cannot be force... Yes, letting a close door shut and there's many doors that are opening up for me=)

No point putting in so much effort in it, since there's already a crack line, and heartaches will never be heal. I just want that Someone to understand that in what circumstances please handle things in a mature way. Yes, he may not like the idea of what I have said, but my patience towards him is really running out... Once I cried over about Someone that love, until my tears have dry up it shows that I'm really letting go it and move on. It's not worth to cry over him at all. He will never understand. Yes, he is a nice guy thus far... That's what I can say..

It's has make me feel very agitated for those past few weeks... *Sigh* I'm mentally/physically tired of it. Loving a person is not easy, when the love bonding are there it's never easy to forget and move on. But to me, after deleting all those sms and what-nots, I feel much relieve.. But hey,mind you, I hasn't been sleeping much recently, I only sleep for 3hours daily, or simply going without sleep for 24hours or so... The nights without sleep really sucks to death alright=( I hate having a tedious/anguish relationship. As what this once special someone told me via sms, Fight for your own happiness... I totally agree with what this once special someone told me this morning via sms... Just that the past me and this once special someone had, lead us to no where, but we are still friends...

Yes, it's a mock horror to me in making this decision, but I'm seriously very tired of it, and I want to let go as soon as possible. Since it's only lasted for about 2months. So I think that is it easy to let go now better then to be in love too deep. I don't put to much hope on it le, worst to worst that Someone didn't reply, I'll take it as he agree it. I hate to force myself to do all this, but love is selfish at times. I hope someday that Someone will realise what I'm doing. I won't hold onto hopes anymore. Let this door be shut now and forever...

Unfortunately, I has since then lost 2pounds or so. It's leads me to a very mood less days, whenever I'm feeling woozy/wistful that Someone will never knows. Even if he hurt me indirectly, I close one eyes and open one eyes, and accept what he said to me. Well, I didn't blame him for saying that to me... Hope that Someone will really go and sit down and think through it...

Now what I can is let bygones be bygones and move on. I have learn my lesson, Yes I has seen alot in relationships matters, so no matter how am I feeling now, I'll over come it and be happy in my life.

Alright, I shall end here for today, too much to say but I can't literally blog everything in just one day...

*TiNgZ feels a strong feeling of tiredness*



*Wish me luck for my test during this evening*

Well, let me admit, there's some freaking and fucking problems occurring... Which I'm Not-Telling over here...

I have no choice left but to did those stuff again to that Someone... I'm simply sick and tired over this relationship, since it has hit the hard rock, it's better to give up and move on... Well, it's not easy at all, but I gotta over come it no matter what... I don't wish myself to be in this state. Seriously, and it's getting my nerves boils... What if Someone dislike people not replying the sms that he send out.. It's goes same to me.. F**King...

Everything is so fucked up now.. Saying about this relationship, I can only say I'm very disappointed at times just that I didn't show it because it's a small matter. Yes Eric advice me to give that Someone a few days to think through... But Eric, I'm sorry I can't, I want things to be clear up as soon as possible... I agree with what Eric told me that night over the call, Relationship is not about tolerance... Relationship is about being happy... Eric, I have heed you advices, and thank you so much for being there for me.. Yes, indeed Eric is a busy person but he never fails to show care and concern to his friends...

I guess, I gotta be strong and move on... This is the only think I can do now.. I can only say, I must focus on my looming mid-term test and the big examination...


Sometimes, some people walk into our lives, they stay for a little while and sometimes, they're extremely difficult to let go when they leave. But since I've learnt, the hardest way in life, although letting go is really very tough,-- The first step is always the toughest, but there's always friends and family who would always be there for you when you needed a listening ear or someone just to talk to. Letting go also means giving yourself another chance to learn to appreciate and love another person again. I truly believe in holding onto the good memories and letting go of the bad ones, for they'd only impede the recovery process, for holding onto hate/grudges would never allow a person to truly move on with life. (it's really true)


Heartbreaks are really inevitable in life; it merely makes a person become a Stronger and hopefully, a much Better person... I read this online and I hope that it will encourage everyone who is reading this -The irony of it all is that we tend to look at the closed door when it's already locked shut and all bolted up. Most of us tend to wonder about the "should haves, would haves and could haves", not realizing that every time, with each closed door, it merely just means that another door is opening up somewhere...So we should learn how to allow the closed door to remain shut as it is, and move on, for life has much more doors to offer...Life will get better always=)

Review on the above saying:

Let the door remain shut forever and I shall leave in peace... Yes not easy to walk out from this siutation, but I gotta learn from it... I believe in holding good memories rather than those bad wants.. Life has a purpose... Yes many friends of mine has been there for me through my ups and downs... Get ready a piles of tissues and advices when I needed... I might never know I'll get a nice guy in the later part of my life.. Now I going to stay focus on my studies.. Tomorrow will always be a better day!!

Lastly special thanks to: MUMMY, DA JIE,ERIC,JENNIFER,ALICE,ROWENA,FADILAH!!!


These dearies never fails to be with me whenever I needed them.. I give much credits to them!!

I have posted this some donkey years back when I was with my ex:

I need brave DARLING that will do all this for ME:
- Love ME
- Trust ME
- Dote ME
- Respect ME
- Be There For ME When I Need HIM
- Sharing All My Joys & Sorrows Together
- Shower ME many surprise~
- Prove HIS Love For ME Is TRUE!
- Promise ME his VOW to ME~
- Understand ME~

A Real Darling, who could agree with my instinct!!!

Is it very difficult to do all things??


*TiNgz is going to move on*

Physically/Mentally stress out!!

Things has been screwed up for me again!! Bloody hell!!

Firstly, My mobile phone is getting crazy!! I bad you, friends of mine will receive twice of the same reply from me... Sorry pals, there's something wrong with my mobile recently...

(sending in for servicing)

Secondly, yesterday was real sucky night=( Yes, I'm being stress by my school loads... I thank Rowena for being the first friend to hear out my worries... Yes in the mist of talking to her, I give an sms to Eric... He didn't reply, so I rang him up and he told me he is in a meeting... I was like ok.. After which, I send an sms to Eric again, which I'm not revealing what I send him... He reply me and say ok call you later...

Indeed, I know my friends are busy, but never the less, they are willing to lend me their ears whenever I need to... Eric rang me up at almost 3am while I was dating my bed!! Eric was like Yo watz up... I was like, uh give me a min, let me get out of my bed!! After which we talk loads of stuff and he had advice me too.. Eric, thanks for the advices that you has given me thus far, Yes I know, you're busy, but I feel real touched when you say, you're busy and you have tons of sms-es/calls from your friends... Thanks for ringing me back...

Well, I heed what Eric is telling me, and he has been telling me "kan kai" abit, life is just to be happy... He share how he is successful in life... (which I'm Not-Telling=X) Indeed this is what a friend are for... I felt so helpless at times... Eric told me to concentrate on what's more important, like study for my exams... Eric also advice me to read a book in a day so I won't so stress... I guess, Eric has walk all this journey and I think he is the best person who could give me advice... Eric, urge me not to think too much and worry too much.. Just do what I can now, then to regret.. I must relax... I mustn't be tense up.. Be it in school stress, relationship problem etc, Eric has thus far giving me the best advice.. Before I hang up the phone with Eric, he told me CAN YOU PLEASE GO SLEEP!! I was like wah, at least still got friends that care for him... Eric many thanks.. It's was like econ ago when we met up... Sorry to take up your time, I know you just flew back from overseas and flying again today, but anyway Eric, Thanks I appreciate it=)

(Wonder does Eric read this??)

(Eric, i think i should listen to you and use your way... only me and Eric will get what this mean)

Well, I felt that sometimes when I'm always feeling woozy/wistful there'll be friends beside me encouraging me pulling me back to the right track... I give credits to all my dearies friends... They have helped me in one way or another, I truly hearts you all.. Never fail to be with me during my difficult moments and even sharing my joys...

Eric & Rowena, Thank you very much for being with me last night... Those advices are really very valuable...

Before ending this...

I woke up at 6am this morning to do some stuff on my school work... Well, while I was doing, I suddenly break down due to the over stress load that is coming from my studies.. I have no idea why my tears are dropping like tap water..

I have an heart to heart talk with mummy in the morning... I feel that mummy has been very supportive towards me.. Mummy sorry for making you worry... I feel much better after telling mummy what happen to me... Mummy thank you for those advices... I shall be happy everyday... Da jie, thanks for hearing me out too.. My da jie has sms in the morning saying that she'll be back home early, as she is worry for me.. Da jie don't worry, I'm alright...

I'll be BUSY for this coming few days... Mid-term-test is looming in like 2days times...

*Wish Me Luck*

*TiNgZ feel really loved by all my dearies friends/family*

Oh well...

I came here to blog again, yes, I'm multi -tasking here and there... *Laughs*

(talking to bro, crapping in msn with friends, copying my mountain-ful of notes online etc)

I got this urge to come online and blog this of all a sudden, after my lil' bro shared with me his working life in Best Denki Samsung. Yes, he complain to me about the colleagues there, but hey bro, you have nice colleagues in Tekmedia that are working with you in the same Best Denki=) I can only advice you (my bro), to work hard, and try not to take things to hardly. Yes, I know the taste of being "gan" by your other competitors. But after all you guys are working hand in hand with Best Denki. I agree, the taste of having no sales isn't nice, and the taste of having sales is real great.

But at the same time, I urge my lil' bro to study hard at the same time. I know isn't easy to cope with studies + working life... I have been through it, and the taste of it is really sucks to death. Yes, I have been working in sales line for years, I remember my so called very "first" job at Tekmedia, isn't difficult at all, because those things I'm doing are just peanuts to me. I remember I enter Tekmedia in the year of 2005, was once there staff but after finish the IT SHOW 2005, I'm no longer a staff in Tekmedia. But I have since then, know one great friend that's Hock! =)

After which, in the later part of year 2005, I join MSH-Starhub for about almost 2years. Yes between the date join in Starhub I'm feeling happy working there and getting this job I wanted. But it is real stress each day, as we need to hit sales target. Worrying that there's no sales, but StarHub services is getting very common now a days. Apparently, I have learn alot since I enter StarHub, the good/bad experiences has lead me to a better person. At that time of view, I was still schooling and which upon me to this job this 2006. Getting to taste the bitterness of schooling and working life isn't easy at all, and I truly understand how my lil' bro is feeling right now. But bro, remember whatever you does, do it with no regrets, because life is short. You cannot stay in the career for long-term. You should try many others jobs too. Yes, sales line isn't good at times, but it makes you know that life is really very precious=)

When it's time to focus on studies, you should put your fullest attention to it. Yes, it's good to work while you're still schooling, but I hope that my lil' bro will be happy in whatever decision he made. Yes, I encourage him to get a job in Tekmedia, because I want him to learn to be more independent, because he cannot keep relying on my mummy to give him pocket money...

(yes mummy does give us allowance, but we should know how to think for our parents future, because one day our parents will age and they will rely on us. So I want my brother to learn how to earn a lil' allowance for himself)

I sound pro saying about my bro's job, but I'm not working now... Because mummy tell me to concentrate on my studies first, yes, I'm initially looking for jobs. But it need to depends on my schedule. As I'm schooling in an private school so isn't easy to get a job!

Having that said, I hope that my brother will learn through this journey of his, yes, I must admit, he has since then been a very good boy. I can see that he is changing, compare to last time shawn(my bro) I use to know.. So bro, keep it up, Jie jie will always be there for you. Bro, you know my greatest fear is that people will bully you at Best Denki. But don't worry jie jie, have ways to protect you..

Anyway, it's an raining night, so I guess, it's great time for some sleep and waiting for my mobile to be charge... Hopefully this special someone will text me soon...

Dark circles= look like panda already...

Break outs: Uncountable...

Aqua: Never seem enough...

Sleep Count: 6hours of sleep daily...

Meals count: 3meals daily...

Things to be done:

- Get my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to be covered up soon...

- Report must be done on 12th July 2007

- Get my hair re-highlight...

- Get a new pair of heels or cork shoes...

- MORE CLOTHING'S!!!


The list will be longer!!


*HeaRts*

=)

Thursday 5 July 2007


On this very boring and exhausted day, I was having my favourite module tutorials... *Laughs* This tutorials lasted for 3hours and finally ended at 10pm... Well, let me tell you bits and pieces what happen during this 3hour of tutorials...


Here it's goes:

The lecturer was going through the answer on those tutorials he given us, he was like asking us to put up of hands up if we got the correct answer...

*Laughs* I kid you not, but put up our hands somehow make me feel that I'm a primary school kid... *Laughs*

Yes, I ought to know I did do my tutorials work but I don't have my answer all correct, but hey, at least I bother to do it before the tutorials begins. I was like what the hell, whole class only a few of donkey did the tutorials... I'm one of the donkey... *Laughs*

During the tutorials, I was very busy going to toilet and busy replying my sms-es from friends and this special someone... The lecturer was like pin-point at me, ask me what is my name, I was like uhh my name is blahx blahx blahx.. He was like asking me why my answer is D give and reason to it, I say it's basic knowledge. Yayy, is true is really using brain to think:) The lecturer say, we students always trying to sms during his lesson, he say an example,like I was sms-ing my friend next to me... *Laughs* What makes him think so huh?? Cos me, fadilah and rowena was sitting at the very back row laughing and talking... But Hey, we did pay attention alright! I thought that the lecturer is going to give me a great dressing down, but luckily he didn't, cos he told the whole class he is a nice lecturer, which I personally also think so lahx.. =)




Yes, I must admit that isn't nice getting heaps of sms-es while you are having tutorials. One thing is I didn't put my phone onto vibration, but it's on silent mode.

Friends and that special someone must be thinking why I can reply in time right??

(I place my phone in front of me, once the light is up that shows I have a sms)


Well, the heaps of sms-es lasted all the way I reach home, well, beside sms-ing this special someone, friends of mine also give me sms-es asking me this and that...



That's on 5 July 2007!!!


Friday 6 July 2007

Nothing much happen, went shopping with mummy and sisters after that went dinner with my family and come home to date my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover!!!

That's all for 6 July 2007!


Saturday 7 July 2007

Well, I went to meet Evelyn yesterday for some heart to heart talk and of shopping... I just wanna say a big thank you to Evelyn for those advices she has given me yesterday. I heed her advices as well.

Finally, you found your happiness, so I shall wish you all the best in whatever you does.. I know teaching as a career is not easy, but I can see that you enjoy it.

Give me a sms/call anytime when you need to talk=)

Thank you....

That's all on 7 July 2007:)


Sunday 8 July 2007

Well, I must admit that I'm resting in peace recently... (resting in peace doesn't means I die ok) *Laughs* Apparently, I have subsided those problems that has been bothering me for the past few weeks, now everything got to rest and finally I'm in peace...


In a morbid way, I have learn to let go of those worries, and make my life easier. I believe that things will turned out the way that they're mend to be, for it gave me who to walk on with my life long journey; and yet in a certain way, it has made me who I am today, a lil' girl who is wary and emotionally barren at times.


Despite, of all the social hard-knocks that life has taught me, it makes me stronger and braver. Because each setbacks that has happen teaches me a valuable lesson. Yes, everyone is facing different obstacles in life, be in school, family, relationship,career, just remember that there's always a solution to all those obstacles. Yes, I know sometimes stress can be control but, if we didn't control it well it will lead to a bad depression... I own up, I almost suffer from depression, so isn't nice... The horrifying illusion isn't pleasant at all.


Well, I have learn not to hold things too hard, and by giving in some space of allowance for those problem to be solve... Yes, it's easy to say it then to do it. But no matter what I got to give it a try. I must admit, recently I'm feeling very exhausted and yes, I have since then been sleeping early everyday. Because I really feel the tiredness over the past few weeks, after the talk I have with this special someone, I felt much better and relieve and from that day onwards, I told myself, I mustn't take things to hard and learn to let go some of my worries, and let nature take the course. In the mist, of sleeping there's always friends sending me heaps of sms-es to check am I'm feeling better. But waking up in between the ringing sound of the sms-es isn't nice. (but, I appreciate what this friends has been doing for me) Constantly/Instantly telling myself, focus on what's more important the rest of those problem let it have a rest because I hate to carry so much burden and ended up I'm the one who is suffering like hell...


*Sigh*

I'm glad that I didn't make any hasty decision, because I thought of giving up on my studies, as I'm really very stress. Mummy told me if I'm stress quit school, but mummy has always been very supportive towards my life journey. I was delighted to have those encouragement from my family, friends etc... I merely telling myself, I must MOVE ON and don't LOOK BACK!! Life is always full of ups and downs.. Everyday, every second, life is a whooshing past at an alarming rate.


All in all, I have since then replies my those sms-es that my two great Darlingsss has been sending me... I have heaps of sms from them whenever I'm in trouble or I feel woozy/wistful. They has since then, played an important role in my life, they has teaches me through my ups downs. Darlingsss Jennifer & Alice, you girls never fail to be with me each time I call upon. Even in the mist of text-ing/ calling Darling Jennifer in the wees hours, she still offered me an ears and many advices.. Which I have heed it and from there, I'm going to forget my worries...


Now a days, I have subsided Sms-ing/calling this special someone, because yes, I know he's feeling very tired and stress at times, so I should let him rest well whenever he book out. Well, I still give this special someone a few sms-es in a day, to show that yes, I'm still caring about this special someone, I guess that he can feel it. Well, if he didn't reply, as what he said, he is busy, so I truly understand and of cos I believe that, once this special someone read this sms he will reply once he's free. I can only say, patiently waiting to hear from this special someone.

Hopefully that I'll get to see this special someone when he book out tomorrow! That's what I'm always hoping for. Thus far, I have send him about 4 sms-es, and I'm going to wait patiently for this special someone to reply. Yes, I did send him an sms again around 7pm plus, but I guess that he's resting already. But never mind, this special someone will reply once he check his mobile.

Patience is all I'm having thus far!!!


Therefore, I shall now declare that I'll be busy preparing for this looming Mid-Term Test which is respectively on 12th & 16th and 26th July 2007. Yes, I has been dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to covered up for this thingy. Initially, I haven't complete my report, which is like due-ing on 12th July 2007, yes those snippets of information has been gathered but I still need some ideas. But hey, isn't easy to cope with so many things at one go. Generalize on those steps to solve my business maths module isn't easy at all. It's making me mad soon... I have heaps of getting this particular module to be done=( Things has been less screwed-up for TiNgZ, but I'm still trying my very best to solve what I can now, sitting down here doing nothing isn't going to help.


Hence upon blogging this, I have learn alot in life journey, what this particular doctor has been advising me thus far. I guess TiNgZ just need to relax more and enjoy life and be happy everyday is virtue. Technically, it has made me a happy girlie and living happily for another 30years or so... *Laughs*


* I give credit all to my dearies close friends*


*TiNgZ feel much relieve*


=)


The end of my blogging as of 8 July 2007!

It's another usual day I used to have like just any other days...

I'm tired...

I'm sleepy...

(mind you, while I was sleeping my phone keep ringing)

I ought to know I'm not angry with the noise that my phone is making because friends of mine sms me to check am I alright... So no worries about it:)

Having lecture at 7pm-10pm... But, mind you, 3hours of lecture becomes to 3hours of tutorials.. Which I hate it.. (bloody hell, 15mins of tutorial I already cannot take it, imagine 3hours??)

Hopefully I won't doze off... *Snore Snore*

(tutorials are real bored ok)

*Sigh*

No point sighing over that, attend that once and for all then can have peace to continue lecture for the next week or so...

Let's wish me luck, after 10pm when I'm on the way home. Pray that bus 65 will not be packed with mountain-ful of commuters. I has been recently waiting for bus 65 almost for an half hour after my lecture ends.. Yes, I know I can take MRT which make life easier for me, but I hate the long walking distance...

Well, I'm simply hoping to see this special someone today... But I understand, he need to rest so this special someone please rest well ok...



*Hearts*

Well, let me blog lil' bits of what happen today....

I must admit I hasn't been sleeping for 24hours or so due to some problems.. Which I'm Not-Telling over here!!

(Jennifer,Alice,Van,Janice should know what happen to their ting lahx)

Anyway, girls I really appreciate what you girls has been doing for me thus far, thanks for being there with me when I needed ears and hugs... The piles of tissues and advices, I heed it and I give credits to you girls. Yes, I'm feeling woozy/wistful for the past few weeks, but never the less, you girls has been there for me in one way or another. I LOVE YOU GIRLS!! Alice, thanks for faltering me with the hugs when I most needed most all. You have always been my great sister, bo bian lahx, we are one storey away from each other. I'm so very sorry to disturbed you so much, but alice thanks so much words cannot describe how much I treasure the friendship between us. You're just like playing a role of my big sister, guiding me through my life, seeing me during my ups and downs. I give a big hug to you and Jennifer=) I LOVE YOU ALL DARLINGS!!

*Muacks*

Well, initially today I did something which this special someone don't like it, but sorry that's the only way. My apology to this special someone, I hope that you'll be less stress out. Yes, things are fine now. So as what this special someone told me, take care of myself and study hard... I guess this is the only think I can do for him, yes I'll look after myself and prepare for the looming mid-term test.

There are still tons and tons of tutorials work to be done, I guess tonight I'm not able to sleep early, as I has a mountain-ful of tutorials work to get done over with it and hand in tomorrow. How am I going to finish it in just one night?? I have no idea but I'll try my best. I think what's more important now is to focus on my studies and my exams. After all this mid-term test ends at the end of July, it's time for the BIG EXAM that will decide my next educational destination. I don't wish to repeat... So I guess, I need to study real hard for this particular module, that is no other then BUSINESS MATHS... It's makes me go MAD when I'm doing revision for this... What the hell the book is teaching!!!!

Apparently, many people has show their love and concern towards me. Well, I must thank my parents for being patience with me,cos at times I do show my temper, but since then, daddy has been real sayang-ing me when my mummy told him I break down. Well, I get to sense the love from my daddy recently. The daddy love that each daughter wishes. Thanks Daddy & Mummy, for the care and concern you all have been shower upon me. I guess, I'm the youngest daughter so that dote me more. Daddy & Mummy thank you so much... Well, I must admit, I seldom talk to my daddy since I'm this old till today. It's only a recently break down, daddy show more concern upon me. He will ask ah ting today got school, eat dinner already etc... Daddy seldom ask this to his fours dearies children's. But I sense daddy love his kids, just that he don't know how to express it...

Sitting down, thinking through I learn to be stronger and braver. And to this special someone: Thank you for enduring my unreasonable action.

Life just go keep going on and on. Life is all about learning, no matter is good or bad I have to overcome it. Only I can help myself... As what Hock told me via the phone last night: Li ting come on is not the end of the world... I heed hock advice too... Well, it was like econs ago I meet up with hock. My ex-colleague cum friend cum my bro's boss!!

My wish is to see this special someone one more time before he book in on Friday. Tomorrow I gonna go for my favourite lecture till10pm... But before attending this lecture tingz needs to get her tutorials done.. If not the lecturer will scold me upside down:(

It's time for some tv-ing followed by dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover...

Lastly to this special someone:

I hope you'll be less stress out, and be happy everyday. No matter how stress or how busy are you, please remember I'll always here for you... Jiayou... Love you loads:o

*Hearts*

=)

Oh well, I must admit I hasn't been sleeping for the last 24hours again... Arghx... The hell of this feelings sucks to death. Due to some personal problems, which I'm not revealing here. I can only say that, I'm feeling real SAD=( I told myself not to think too much but I cannot, cos whenever times permits me to be free, I'll start to the negative illusion again. Sorry, but I can't help it. It has been many uncountable days, that this thinking too much has been staying and lasting for weeks=( what the hell!!!

I must say, I'm mentally/physically stress out. I have many stress loads, I know that problems can be solve, but I'm simply lost. Leading me to a world of hell. I has been un-earthly in whatever I'm doing. My concentration simply slips off my mind, and brings me to a hell thinking. Randomly, feeling very wistful/woozy. It's pretentious for me to keep a clear and positive mind. It's not easy, I'm suffering like hell who knows it? In fact, I'm really very maddening over myself sometimes. My intentions was to walk one step count one step, by now it's never seem easy to me.

Despite of sitting/wondering and doing all those self-evaluate. I keep tyring very hard to keep myself busy and not to think on those unhappy/negative situation. In a morbid way, I'm still sad inside my heart, but at the same time I'm learning to let go of those problems I have.There are many various ways of handling stress loads. Yes, I admit, I have facing stress loads like, school, family, relationship etc. Therefore , I hope that things will happen the way it's seems to be or mend to be. Choosing the right way to solve stress loads is vital..

Eventually, I really hope/wish that I'll be alright soon, as the mid-term test is looming, and I wish that my personal problems won't affect my examination. Many things is not within our control. Let nature take the course. If one day, those unpleasant things which I don't wish to happen, had happen, I can only accept the fact and move on with my life. It seem that my mind is all about those unhappy/negative thoughts.

Well, I cannot predict what will happen the next day, I can only say that live your life to the fullest and be happy is virtue. Treasure what you have now, because we can't predict what will happen next. Treasure the one you loved...

Look like my life is getting complicated, what should I do? The problem lies with who? As what this Particular Doctor, used to tell me whenever I'm on MSN. That Particular Doctor, keep encouraging and hearing my problems. Be it in school, family or even relationship, this Particular Doctor has given tons of advices. It's the matter do I take all this advice and heed what this Particular Doctor has been telling me. Some times, I wish that there's someone like this particular doctor, listening to all my problems and what-nots...I wish I could learn from this Particular Doctor, because this particular doctor is very optimistic and this particular doctor, handle well with his life, no matter in which area he know which is best for him.

During my difficult moments, there's always friends beside me. I must admit, I rang up my darling Jennifer at 1.30am. I rang her up because I wasn't feeling very good. So I thought of sharing my problems with her. But she was sleeping and I disturbed her. Well, I told her I'll ring her in the day later, as she'll be schooling. My friends told me via msn. "Tomorrow will be a better day".

Hence, upon blogging all this, I hope that, that Special Someone knows how I'm feeling right now. Yes, I'm going to be busy soon, so I guess I won't be able to ring/sms him as much as I wanted. I know he'll be busy with his duties till Wed, also understand that he is really being stress-out. So I don't wish to bother him, I'll be waiting patiently everyday for him to give me a sms/call. I'll do my best in keeping myself busy, but sometimes I do think about my personal stuff. I'm a girl, who likes to sit down and think through what I can improvement on, or even doing a daily self-reflection. I believe that there's a room of improvement in everything. That Special Someone, tell me not to be sad over him, I simply CANNOT!! No matter what upholds between us, pray that he will be alright soon.

Oh well, I'm writing this onto a paper first and which now transferring on the blog post. I took sometimes to write all this. Yes, I should be sleeping at 3am. but I'm simply not in the mood to sleep. Beside writing this, I'm also mugging down all my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover. Isn't pleasant, for not sleeping for the last 24hours.

Well, will be going for the lecture this evening, hopefully I won't fall asleep or day dream during lecture time. Or I might just doze off to sleep. 24 hours didn't sleep is feeling very tedious/anguish. Either way you look at it...

Lastly, last night I rang up my lil' bro boss, the boss was my friend, when I'm working for Tekmedia. Rang him to clarify some stuff about my lil' bro. Anyway, thank you so much for the help hock=)

I can see that my brother is working very hard in this area, working life and school life is not easy. But I'm glad that he still gotten a job from Tekmedia. No matter, how naughty he is, he is till my good lil' brother, I ought to know we do quarrels at times, but that brings us closer. Like now, he is working for Tekmedia, I show more concern to him. Anyway, brother don't worry, people are nice at Tekmedia and even your new colleagues in Best Denki and your department Samsung Friends:)

*Wish me luck*



=( I'm Real Upset=(

I'm exhausted and yet simply very depress!!!

(Not-telling =X what I'm depress about)

Yes, I must admit, I has been napping today afternoon, because I'm feeling very tired and don't want my mind start to think of those unhappy and negative problems. I has since then nap from 3pm to 7pm, after which I went for a refreshing shower, followed by a lil' walk to tampines mall to relieve stress and what-nots...


Apparently, tonight I'll still be dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover,I'm going to keep myself busy for this 2weeks or so. I'm not an am person, I'm so called an owl girl... *Laughs* My brain only function during pm time which nearly to wees hours...

Well, patiently waiting for this Special Someone to reply my call/sms... That's what I'm waiting everyday... I know he is busy and stress-out, so now a days I has reduce ringing/sms-ing him. Don't want to disturbed him when he is busy or stress-out. Not going to be encroaching towards him. Cos the feeling and taste of being stress-out and busy isn't nice. I always believe in myself=)

Oh well, tomorrow is another lecture day which I don't like that particular module!! Still have to go no matter what cos mid-term test looming=( STRESS..

*Woots*

Back to books now...

*TiNgZ is waiting*


=(

Oh well, before I starting blogging on the above title, let me share a lil' bits what happen yesterday...

Saturday 30 June 2007

Eventually, I meet my boy at Tampines for some walk around, after which we went Pasir Ris Park for a talk(which I'm not revealing here, simply Not-Telling =X), after that he accompany me to my company BBQ thingy, well I must admit I didn't talk much to my Lao Pa Ray, Ah Ian Kor Kor, Marco,Evelyn and Yong Wei... Sorry people, my bad:( meet up someday or I hop by office look for you all=)

Apparently, I was sitting on the rock enjoy the cool breeze along the park with my boy, was feeling much better after that.

END OF STORY!!

Sunday 1 July 2007

Fortunately I finally get back my sleep, I must admit I was dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover. And yes, I haven't go my tutorials yets, I have tons of it for me to be done before 5 July 2007, I don't think I can finish it on time. Because, I was mugging downs and taking down those important information from the thick textbook and lecture notes. Let's pray that luck be with me.

In of spite of being exhausted, I insisted that I must get done over with mugging on each chapter notes and what-nots... It's simply not easy to cope with study when you're a private student. I couldn't take it anymore, so I went to bed at 2am sharp, as I didn't sleep for the last 24 hours. Indeed I'm feeling very tired now.

There's many stuff that I'm stress about, some friends would know what happen and some may not know. But being happy everyday is virtue, so I urge everyone and that Special Someone, try to put away all your stress and worries loads. Life is always full of ups and downs. It's really the matter how you handle your stressful moments..

Well, this particular doctor, has always telling me, Life is just to be happy, Be cheerful, Be focus on what's more important. Everyone of us learn different lesson, it's the way you wanna face it or not. Isn't this particular doctor a nice friend of mine??

I hate myself from seeing this Special Someone being stress out and yet I'm doing nothing for him... =( Well, let's hope that this Special Someone will be alright soon. I won't go and bother him cos I know the feeling of being stress out. So I put myself in his shoes, so what I can do is sit down and be patience to let him sms/ring me... Seeing him so depress, make me feel no good too, well I really hope that he will be cheerful again... Sitting down here doing all my self-evaluate make me feel angry about myself.

Yes, I did ring him up and check is he feeling alright, I felt much relieve after hearing his voice, and tell him don't to be depress, cos I read what he wrote in his blog and friendster. I can only urge him not to ttm, believe that when there's a will, there's a way=) This Special Someone, keep telling me must look on the bright side of life. So I hope that he will do the same as what he told me. I'm not being too encroaching towards him, it's just that I really care for him. So I'll try my best to help him along, anyway, he said he know how to handle so I shall leave this to him.

Maybe yes sometimes, I do think too much on a certain problem, but this is ME! I really wish that sometimes I could enter this Special Some one mind for a minute or so. It's really anguish/tedious to think what I'm thinking about... I'm a person who really does care what the other party is stressing about and thinking about. I wish in a morbid way, I could help this Special Someone out. I'm mentally/physically Stress-Out!


I'll stop myself from TTM=think too much, and hopefully I can... I must do it no matter how difficult it is=) I believe that I can stop myself from thinking too much... I keep telling myself LIEW LI TING WAKE UP.. Nothing is wrong, everything is fine, just that I think too much at times=( I'm wishing what I'm wishing upon:)

(tingz, wishes she could do something to help this special someone)

*Sigh*

Please pray hard for me and hope that I'll be less stress-out and this special someone will be less stress-out too...

It's hurts be badly to see this such situation happen... Never the less, Stress is inevitable, learn to cope and from there learn what you need to. I miss the moments I use to have...

Well... My negative thought is coming back again... ARGHX... I HATE IT!!!

THE END!!


=( Sad...

*TiNgZ is simply stress-out*

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