"Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you."
One whom always creates quarrels for you but never once ever listen to me or believe me was something which makes me feel real upset about... It's all lies on him because he would always trying to me paranoid with what he saw online rather then to believe what I say... For this I am freaking out tired and seriously I am giving up, I do not want to probe or anything like this I would just keep my mouth shut because I knew that he would never ever believe me for once we are together... Perphas maybe this has prove to me that he never had confident in me not having faith with me...
For no reason,he would always be paranoid over stuffs he saw and being there excruciating things in his own ways and never once was in my way... Or maybe he felt tired listening to me... I admit, I am always the one compromising him in whatever he once but never once was mine! I give in all, I give my time, I give everything I can and all I get was nothing in return... He never once seems happy...
I have no idea what else should I do because I am freaking tired and I wish that I could just turn back time... I just don't seems to understand why can't he STOP being PARANOID! This is really freaking me out!
I have faith and confidence in him but never had that on me!
Now I realise that I was merely a problem or trouble for him, I guess that nothing will change... Here I am trying my best to keep this relationship and there he is putting all those funny quarrels out there...
I admit, I am being stressed up and all I want is to be happy everyday...
I gave my all. I loved Him more than I did of my previous boyfriends; Yet to be at the receiving end of such mistrust was just too much for me to swallow...
Im not an angel, neither am I perfect, I wished I was though -- I wished I had a magic wand to eradicate all the quarrels that we had inflicted upon us; to wave off all the unhappiness in your Life, and to make things between us right.
He never fails in cheering me up when I'm feeling bluesy...
He will always be ready for me in good and bad times...
He surprise me unconditionally...
He is my happy-ness...
He's the reason for me to smile everyday...
The Love, being the sweetest drug has shower me with two surprises in a week which I feel so happy and contented with... :)
It is nice of him, buying me dinner when my tooth was aching badly recently, he would make sure I finish my food and call me up to ask am I feeling better?
Yes, I do...
*Hearts*
Yesterday was a day which I won't forget in my life, he went to this particular shop at PS without me knowing it and brought me a soft toy which I really love...
The reasons why this blog has not been updated in eons when Ive promised I would have is because... ...
I seriously am darn terribly busy for the past few months of the year!
(I wished I had 30 hours in a day! So that I'd be able to sleep for another 6 more hours! :P )
I'm glad that half a year on now and things has started to changed and I'm happy with the outcomes now...
Believe me or not, the first half of the year I'm just wayy to busy with WORK and got most of day spend in the office till 7 plus, however, everything have marked a wonderful full stop...
In between the busyness, I have fall in love with someone I longing to meet in my life and things has turn out real well now and it's going be the 4th month soon...
Alright for the first four month was really a hectic month for me, with all sorts of deadlines to meet up with, all those nonsensical stuff in the office and in part of my life... However, things has come better to me right now and I love the life I have now...
For the month of February, I called it the month of LOVE... In this particular month, I've found my life partner, and I do still remember the very first date with him alone in the cold and silent cinema ... :)
He's all the one I want to be with and we have even made a vow between us and we hold each other hands till we age and eventually die... The image of him in my life was a sweet melody played everyday... Seeing him giving me all the best in our relationship is really a blissful moments...
Oh well, minus those quarrels,those arguments we are still one very loving couple... I love him through every bits...
To be with him by his side during his surgery day and going through every stages with him I can see that he's the one I want for and we have decide to settle down... *Hearts*
Okay, enough of those love love thingy!
Well, I'm still jobless... *Hurhur*
All I want is to have a good rest through the next few months before I go back to the corporate world again... *Laughs*
All that I've said, I've also went to help the local economy by shopping and brought truckloads of clothes for myself... Those shopping moments with dearie boy him follow me and accompanying me throughout every shopping days with me... He would always be the one carry all my shopping bags which make me feel so guilty out of it because he gotta carry all the way till I reached home... But Baby Love, didn't complain a one or two... *Hugs*
He made my life completed with him around...
*Loves*
Anyways, I promise to blog more as and when I'm free at home... Thank you for visiting my blog have a great journey ahead...
My brain cells died when I was in da office... Well, in the morning it was still okay for me and still, pretending to be happy in da office was one greatest lie I have up to be with... Plastering that very fake smiles of mine, just because I don't my colleagues to know that I was in da mood, but some of then sense it when I was having lunch with them... They did help by cracking a joke or two, but this time round I never even smile or laugh! I merely reply with a so much fake smiles on my face which was very random...
In the midst, I'm trying very hard to myself occupied with all my workload and even knock off later then 8pm... Just wanna keep my busy and tired so that once I reach home I can go to bed without thinking of any other stuff...
Still, trying to be strong and brave throughout the day in da office, but never seems right after I've received a sms from this particular someone! To apologise what had happen last two days... Actually I've got a urge not to reply, because I knew if I were to reply tears will start coming and fighting with tears rolling down when I'm my at work station... In between the receiving and reply of sms-es, unknowingly, tears just roll of my cheeks and I ran to the ladies to get it done with and carry with my work... However, I never manage to finish my workload and once the clock ticks to 5.45pm I went to my maternal granny place for dinner as what I've promise her...
Not long after the dinner, I went to visit my maternal great-grandmother, she's being old but still young in her heart... I accompany her to watch the telly till about 8plus this evening... Maternal great-grandmother, held on to my hand tightly and I finally sense I should be more happy... But I ought to know, sitting beside her, watching the telly with her, holding her hands was really bliss which I never can do that with my paternal great grandmother nor my paternal granny either that someone whom step into my life and walk out of my life...
I can never share the laughter together with him anymore... I know is wrong in the first place to switch off my cellphone, because I'm feeling real extreme low and got the urge to head off to the beach for some quite moments... Time has proven... Time will heal... Time will bring me to a good world!! *Crossed finger*
Just leave me alone... I'm fucking tired of my bloody life...
Are all guys rotten??
I'm losing my faith...
Of all that had happen, I promise myself not to step into any relationship for the next couples of months... Till I meet mine!!
But now, wish me luck for my coming activities and what-nots...
It's the real loud bang that brings in the last weekends of the 2008....
What a great fall...
Earlier on, had a literally loud bang when I fall along the CPF building of towards some near by malls to collect my watch...
It's really bruises at my butt...
Thanks to the bloody new sandals, that course the hurt of my butt...
What are you thinking?? *Laughs*
So, that leads to a big bang on the last weekends of 2008!!
What a year!...
Follow by meeting someone whom I really hearts a lot... I was late in meeting him, due to the great fall I had earlier on... Been complaining to him throughout the journey that my butt hurts... :(
Indeed, knowing him was a bittersweet journey, for I has always been hearting him so much, till I even cried to sleep during those random nights... Unknowingly, I had always wanted so much to there whenever he calls... Time will simply prove what's right and wrong...
The bloody idiot who has been walking in and out wayy too much...
That I've been really down...
It's the mood and the random thinking caught me up...
But there's still nice friends around me, bringing me back to earth...
Like Bestie Jennifer, busy mugging for her exams, however, she did paused awhile to lend me the pair of ears that I need... Thank you for being always here bestie... The advices and those motivating words I will heed it and walk on my life no matter what may come... :)
Of course my bestie guy friend whom never fail to bright up my day with his cutest actions... For the countless sms-es to check on me, for the countless time with me in the office... Making sure I get my meals and I got home safely... All in a millions:) I guess this month alone, your bill gonna be high due to some reason or what... The laugh, the lending ears, the shopping moments and what-nots uhh, will be missed soon...
I admit, I haven't been getting my sleeps for the last 24 hours...
It's the mood that is fooling me still...
Those random song reminds me of that idiot!! (Only Jennifer know who am I referring too)
It's the nights when tears still roll down lying on bed texting only good friend of mine... Unknowingly, that good friend of mine do have relationship problems too... But never the less, for the advice and comfortable from this random friend...
In the midst of texting the random friend, I gave Bestie Jennifer a msg... I'm glad she text me over the issue, she's always ready to hear me... I guess everyone has their own stories of life... Is the matter of time and do I still wanna pick myself up from where I fall..
Sharing the bits and pieces with the random friend somehow, somewhere along the lines, I feel I'm more fortunate then the random friend... Well, the random friend has been with me through the nights and making sure I'm alright before the random friend went to bed... Lying on my bed, listening to those songs play at my mp3, trying very hard not to weep so much... Trying to plaster the smile in front of everyone else, so much for being fake...
Along the lines, I almost suffocated and wanted to give up in whatever I have in life... But there's always a person whom I love told me to be strong and be brave... That's no other then my late paternal granny... She was the voice inside me to keep me going, hoping I'm fine here and praying hard that I'm happy in life...
Apparently, not easy to let go of someone whom really have struck in your mind... Feelings may fade... The bitter sweet journey which I've taste it in many ways, hopefully it make me wiser and happier in times to come or what may come!
I can't wait for the arrival for my 20 years of life...
19 years of life is really what I've learn so hard in life... But many thanks to all my dearies friends for being here with me stay up all late to text me and bring me back to earth... I don't bear to let this chapter close...
Moving on this time around is so tough... But I know I'd have to slowly move on... ...
But I've too I guess, Mr A. Tan, if you are reading this, I wish you well, no hard feelings towards you... If you are happy so do I...
It's another 25 more days to my Forever Young Birthday...
I promise to come up with my birthday wish-list soon...
I'm having a bloody weekends and I'm there kinda piss of over what had happen over the day...
First I got my hair cut and rebonded my hair again after a year of long hair I went to chop it off, and I feel the lighted of loads... :)
Secondly, while was having my hair do this particular Mr Later ring me and I've got a shock when he ring me alright! I was busy and I merely reply back I call you later and I tell you my later will never come true because this sentence was he the one who has been telling me wayy much and I want him to have a taste of being ignore! *Shake heads* I guess after the talk over the Msn last night it come clear to me that I'll move on for his is merely walking in and out of my life that I paused and even cried myself to sleep... :( I've learn to let go and what matters is just being happy... :P
Thirdly, this bloody ex bf of mine, msg me over a issue on hand which I was kinda piss off! That I even knock onto the door and hit my left eyes and it hurts alright! Bestie Jennifer has since then let me rant over her and she being the nicest sister of mine who always make sure I'll be alright and never fail in helping me and giving my moral support... I love her through every bits!
Maybe closing the door of happy-ness isn't easy at all hopefully I will be brave and walk out from there! Its' been days ever since that Mr later hurt me till have lost count in how many times he has hurt me or merely ignore me or even given me a cold shoulder! My heart feel colder!
There are the times when I face my four walls, wondering why Life has to play such a twisted and cruel joke on me, to let someone so special come by my way, yet fade away after such a short time... How Life is an irony when all closest gfs are experiencing troubled times in their relationships... Yet, looking at them, I know in some ironic way, I am blessed...
I am blessed, that I've friends/ family being here with me, making sure I'm okay before they leave for work or school! :)
FYI, hasn't been feeling good ever since all these issues happen and I hope somewhere along the line, I'll pick myself up and walk briskly again! :)
Letting go is not easy, for it take times to mend the broken heart...
At the end of the day, it is not important who win is that we have all learn the lesson together...
We had met and had shared 10200 hours together, talking about our past, our present and our futures together...
In the 10200 hours which we spoke and shared together, he has made me laugh, cry, and made me experience the euphoria of Love that I have never ever felt before.
I thought that he was The One, and wasn't a "Mr. Right Now"...
I thought he was the Mr. Darcy that I had been looking for all these while; and that he was the man for the Bridget Jones in me...
I assumed that after all the shites I've been through, my prayers were answered when his hand first held mine...
The signs were always there on the wall, but we chose to ignore it, thinking that nobody's perfect, and that I should embrace everything about him openly, for everything he had experienced had made him into who he was, and that if a person loves another, she/he ought to love without passing judgements, without minding his past, for it merely made him who the person I had loved...
The 144 hours were really one hell of a emotional rollercoaster ride for me; I had to be strong for myself, friends, family,and they was freakingly worried, but I'm glad they never ever fails to just listen, although there were tears their eyes. I knew I worried my loves ones when I just cried my eyeballs out 144hours ago, when it was a lonngloonggg night for me.
For things screwed up, ever since I started work, and I admit I do at time ignore sms-es from him, it's never my intentional...
With the passing of 144hours, I have cried alot, more than how I shed tears when previous relationships ended... I don't think I have cried that much ever before...
I struggled with normalcy by burying my emotions within work, yet the pressures of work caught up with me, and the memories of how he used to be just a sms when I needed to rant added onto the pain... I lost count on the number of times I had wept silently at my workstation, knowing that I still had to stick the plastic smile on my face, for I couldn't let my emotions affect my work...
I couldn't and didn't understand how Love, could have just faded like that... I kept thinking if he wasn't good enough to me, whether he was too naggy, or that he had irritated me too much, or if had been over reacting... Nights were restless and sleepless, and there were nights I just wept silently, trying to comprehend what exactly went wrong... ...
Family and Friends were there to rally around me with Love, they listened while I ranted, they said nice and not-too-nice things to me...
Suddenly, it all made sense to me... ...
It doesn't matter anymore thinking about the "Should haves, would haves, could haves..." It doesn't matter anymore that I should be worried if he has woken up, and whether he has finish his duties...It doesn't matter anymore for that I've already wanted so much in ending the relationship...
Truth to be told, I haven't been happy recently, I wasn't smiley, I was superbly frustrated, and I felt un-Loved by him... (The lies in between of him) I assumed it was work and the pressures of Life that made us edgy...
Then I realised that Life is like a novel, with many many chapters. There are certain people whom one would like to have right until the end of the novel. However, as one grows and walks along the journey of Life, those people might not stay like how we wished... They affect individuals in different ways through their presence in some chapters of Life... But the story of Life would still have to go on; It'd just be another brand new chapter...
I've still got a long way ahead of me, and although I look back at the failed relationship knowing that no one is perfect and how I have made mistakes, I have realised that I am only human, and how I will never ever be perfect, and that I will always have imperfections...
I have learnt that I should never ever change myself into becoming someone I wasn't just so I could be at least be something close to his ideal of perfection... I should never ever disappear from my friends when I get into a relationship, and I should never ever forget that how, at the end of the day, it's my family and friends that keeps me sane and rooted, whom have seen me through my darkest days, and whom have always been there for me when I needed them for support...
That being said, I know I have issues to resolve on my own, and that it will be TinGz back to her same old cherry and chirpy self in time... I would also need to spend time "dating" my bed and doing something which is much therapeutic - like online, meeting up with friends etc, and as well as figure out Life, and how I would want my Book of Life to be written in the chapters ahead of me...
As for now, I intend to remain single, for a while, not because I am fearful of Love but simply because I am going back on track to the promise I had made to myself prior to meeting him... I would need to resolve some naggling issues that are within me on this solo journey of mine so that I would become a better person, not just for myself, but for my family and friends whom have been there for me... ...
To Oscar:
If you are reading this, I am thankful that I was once loved and cherished by you. I am sorry for taking you and the relationship for granted at times; it was never intentional. I am sorry for the times we argued and for making you frustrated over issues. I bear no hate nor hard feelings towards you. I wish you well, and thank you for the months of bliss and laughter when we were an item. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down, for being there when I needed a pillar of strength, for talking sense into me when I was irrationally unreasonable, but most importantly, Thank you for having once loved me... ....
144 hours later, with tears streaking down her face, TinGz is smiley and seeing that the rainbow is there after the rain, and telling friends whom care that I will definitely get better in time... ...
It's officially over, for I doesn't have the feelings for him anymore...
Maybe he'd understand better one of these days as to the causes, but...
I really need to let go...
We just allowed the relationship to take a nosedive from the good to the worst; We hardly really communicated for I doesn't want him to hurt me or make me sad/angry. We just bottled things up, and then like a Coke bottle that refuses to contain all the liquid and gases anymore, it all came to a downward spiral...
He's gone, but he wants us to remain as friends. And honestly, for the first time in my love relationships, I really do not want us to be there for each other as friends, despite the fact that I wanna ease him out of my picture. Knowing myself, when my previous relationships ended, one of the very first things I'd say to the other party is for him to stop contacting me, for I feel that it's pointless remaining as friends after all that we've been through...
I don't know if he wants us to remain friends is just so to make me feel better, or that it would be comforting for him to be able to know that someone would be there to listen to him, and just cheer him up on those bluesy days... Or that it's just talk, and that we wouldn't remain in contact after some time...
I gave us a chance, I gave my all; and looking back, the only regret that I have is that I no longer have the chance to spend my days growing with him on the long life journey ~ I can only look from afar and hope he is truly happy for we're no longer together...
Yet, I surrender first , simply because I want him to respect me and still, in all honesty, love him alot (in the past)... But sometimes, loving someone means letting her go and not seeing herself be so unhappy and suffering. But facing the 4 walls of my room and thinking things through, I realised that it makes me happier, then I will take a step back, and allow him to be happy too.
Nothing's fair in this world, and we don't usually get what we want all the time. He has given me far too much in Life and through these past 14 months of bliss that it's finally time for him to give something back in return to me...
You live to chand regret You live to love and bleed
Love play with emotions like pawn on hand To be used and to be risked To stay in the game it's a matter of making the right moves Take a wrong step It's checkmateerish.
Firstly, my bad for being away from blogging for a few days as Im really mastering the fine art of "being super busy" with works and what-nots...
Working demands is really kinda stress-ful and there's always some colleagues who is not happy with this and that uhh... *Sigh*
On the side note, I've decided to use back the template that I previous apply because the "Love was never perfect" html codes went literally crazy over me... So I decided to use something which is less using those html codes, because I know none of it... *Laughs*
And this week schedule is kinda pack with all work demands and other family stuff that I shouldn't reveal much here because it's really heart breaking. :(
Amidst of being busy, I do still have a few days off to meet up with friends and visit maternal great-granny and maternal granny altogether. :)
Despite, during my busy-ness I do paused a lil' for friends to chat with me via MSN and thanks to the technology...
Yayy to that! :)
One of my girl friend is facing some relationship problems that she Msn-ed me and told me the story and what-nots. Im surprise that friends do ask me for advice when it's come to relationship problem, anyway, Im not pro in relationship but I've been dealing with it was I was a lil' secondary school girl. I do hope that this acquaintance will heed my advice and move on with her life.
All I could say is that there's pros and cons being in a relationship. Because it take two hearts to merge into one loving couple. I ought to know that my advice are not very good but I do hope she'll know what is good for her because life belongs to her and she should be the one to answer for it. =P
I do hope she'll be happier when she chat with me next time...
Anyhows, it's weekends and Im really looking forward for this weekends already! Hahs! I can't wait to meet up with Dr Janice and Rowena Jie Jie... :) It's was econs ago ever since I meet them up arr... >.<
I highly nocturnal... :)
Reason being- Keep tossing and turing on da bed!! And I can't sleep so I came here to blog a lil'...
First of all, my bad for not updating this pink site of mine!! My apologies:(
Apparently, this week I'm on a very busy note uhh, that's one of the reason for not blogging much... =( This week alone there many "problems" happen here and there, but I'm not revealing any of it as I think isn't neccessary to post it here or vent it here... Life have to get going still...
*Sly smiles*
Well, this week I has been going to and fro to the school for the heaps of lecture and it's really very tedious and anguish... That's sound real hibernating! Having go through those lectures makes goes real crazy and stress... I guess the feeling of "stress" is looming real soon.
In spite of being "real busy" there are friend who still text or ring me during the day or even during the wees hours...Either a sober or being drunk... Either way you look at it...! *Laughs* Well, there's one acquaintance who text me during the wee hours few days back saying about her last relationship and what-nots...! I bother to reply her sms-es and after a few reply I feel that she isn't feeling right so I get outta bed and ring her up... Yea, she did pick up my phone call but she's sobbing and I guess during that moment she's really feeling a strong sentimental feeling during that late night and I'm glad she didn't get herself drunk... *Wry smile*
As that specific night is a day of a year to rememher her last relationship, and I guess she's feeling real wistful and she can't forget about what had happen that causes the relationship to end...
Well, I guess endings always have the writings on the wall even before anyone says/initiates anything, and in this case, breaking up. I guess it has to do with the very fact of having a person whom you once loved and whom was once very significant in your life, can get mundane, so much so that people often take the daily little things for granted. This acquaintance admitted that she have been guilty of taking his presence in her life for granted; but she would have never expected things to end the way it had ended, for she had always thought that he'd be the knight of her fairytale, the one whom would share the white pickett fences dream with.
(This is what the acquaintance told me vice versa phone call)
I only can urge her to move on for the pervious relationship because it's ever since a year and just flown by...! Learn from the mistake and never repeat it again... I hope that after the long conversation, I did make some sense to her...
A note of this acquaintance:
Sometimes, some people walk into our lives, stay for a little while and sometimes, they're extremely difficult to let go when they leave. But you've since learnt, the hard way, that although letting go is really tough, but its precisely the tough that gets people going -- The first step is always the toughest, but there's always friends and family who would always be there for you when you need a listening ear or someone just to talk to. Letting go also means giving yourself another chance to learn to appreciate and love another person again. And I truly believe in holding onto the good memories and letting go of the bad ones, for they'd only impede the recovery process, for holding onto hate/grudges would never allow a person to truly move on with life. Heartbreaks are inevitable in life, it merely makes a person become a stronger and hopefully, a much better person...And be happy when she's all well and happy... And from something I read somewhere online -- The irony of it all is that we tend to look at the closed door when it's already locked shut and all bolted up. Most of us tend to wonder about the "should haves, would haves and could haves", not realising that every time, with each closed door, it merely just means that another door is opening up somewhere...So we should learn how to allow the closed door to remain shut as it is, and move on, for life has much more doors to offer...
(The end of the story on this aquaintance)
Alright, let's turn the lime light back to me... *Laughs*
Well...
I am going to have a very tedious weekends ahead of me... As I have extra tutorials to attend this afternoon from 2pm to 5pm... Hopefully I'll be attending IF only I'm not tired...!! {self-denial} *Laughs*
After which I am meeting Darling Jennifer in the evening after her work, and yet we reckon for shopping moments during this evening... Oh well, I have bump onto her earlier on yesterday night when I am on the way back home from school. I have since then bump onto her at our house bus stop and we did gossip quite a bit... Well, time doesn't permits us to have long gossiping moments as she needs to go to work later in the morning...
Therefore, half of my day are gone by lectures and what-nots and hopefully I won't get tired during this evening session with Darling Jennifer... *Winks*
Initially, I am feeling quite a bit of moody but it's okay, as there's friends who will just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make me smile... * Smiles* It's really nice having all those friends who are always with me, seeing me through my ups and downs.. And make sure I'm alright... =) I give them credits... *Hearts*
Weekends are burn by dating my mountain-ful of notes and study guides... Hopefully it will help me during my exam next week...!! I guess more effort I must put in this time round...
I guess that I should blame my lil' brother for passing the "virus" to me... Yea... He was sick yesterday and had thus far recovered.. He should "thank me" because now I'm the one who is infected by his"virus".. That isn't sound very good uhh... The "virus" is making feeling no good, I'm seriously having a very terrible flu and throat itchiness... Isn't really very good to be unwell especially later I have to travel to prinsep street for my "fundamental for marketing" lecture... The rides from bus to train to a walking distance, isn't very glamours...=(
Apparently, let's hope that this "virus" will somehow go away, and hopefully it won't cause irritation to me while I'm travelling to and fro back... Home to school, school to home...!! Either way you at it...! *Laughs* Yes, my metabolism isn't very good, I can't fight with the "virus" and frankly speaking I'm a weak girlie... =( *Sigh* Hopefully asthma attack won't come and look for me... Isn't very pleasant to be down with flu and follow by asthma... *Sigh* I guess headache is also finding the way to join "the family"...*Sigh* I hate being sick at this point of time..
I guess, I'll be dragging myself all the way to school and drag myself back home... Hopefully I won't doze off during the lecture this evening. To say the truth there's high chances of me falling asleep during lecture or either I'll make my way to the loo... Either way you look at it...! *Laughs* I kid you not, tingz loves MIS loo... *Sly smiles*
Moreover, during my sleeps last night I do have some dearie friends sms-es me or even ring me up for a chat... I yet to know that I'm feeling tired and not very well, but I insist to chat with this acquaintance because she's feeling a lil' wistful due to some relationship problem. Yea, I ought to know that I'm not very close to her, but as a friend I'll let her my ears and give her my most honest opinion...
This acquaintance of mine is facing some relationship problems. Well, I can only say that, there's pros and cons being in a relationship. It's the matter how you people handle your relationship thingy. Yes, we cannot predict what will happen in our relationship, and all I wanna let her know is that treasure what you have now... I guess, that this acquaintance should trust him, as what I mention before, in a relationship there must be trust if there's no trust means both of you are really facing a big problem... Trust is a mutually a form of respect and trust your girlfriend/boyfriend with all you heart...
Admist, we can't foresee the future that god has for us, why not make life easier for yourself, live in the present and enjoy those moments spend with your boyfriend. Yes, I know that first step is always the toughtest... If this acquaintance mind is all thinking about those "negative point of view" then it will make life hard for herself... Yes I know somethings which your boyfriend told you doesn't sound very nice and what he said to you are causing you to have this "thinking too much moments"... Yes what he said to you might sound a lil' harsh and you may not like it.. Accept the fact and change for a better person... I beckons there's too much to ask for, for being the prefect girlfriend...
I hoped after the really long conversation, I did talked some sense into her and that she would realized that the best thing for her now,is to enjoy this relationship no matter how you both are together with, yea, the courtship of a 1year plus relationship should be strong by today... Just give yourself and him a lil' space of time, yes, everyone needs freedom, so I can urge you not to be too encroaching towards him because he isn't your husband or even he is your husband there's no encroaching moments... Everyone needs their own space to do their own stuff or even enjoy his/her life...
I hope that you'll heed my advice, and please don't take things to hardly. Is just give and take sometimes... I'm also not pro in relationship thingy, but I can only advice you to let go a lil'... But I sound very profound on the above advice uhh... =) So I wish this acquaintance all the best in your relationship, if you need help can look for me, no worries about it. I just want you to be happy in life...
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Aqua count: It's NEVER enough... More aqua...*Laughs*
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