Friday, January 9, 2009
-It's Da Mood!!
I admit throughout the whole day...
I was mood less!!
My brain cells died when I was in da office... Well, in the morning it was still okay for me and still, pretending to be happy in da office was one greatest lie I have up to be with... Plastering that very fake smiles of mine, just because I don't my colleagues to know that I was in da mood, but some of then sense it when I was having lunch with them... They did help by cracking a joke or two, but this time round I never even smile or laugh! I merely reply with a so much fake smiles on my face which was very random...
In the midst, I'm trying very hard to myself occupied with all my workload and even knock off later then 8pm... Just wanna keep my busy and tired so that once I reach home I can go to bed without thinking of any other stuff...
Still, trying to be strong and brave throughout the day in da office, but never seems right after I've received a sms from this particular someone! To apologise what had happen last two days... Actually I've got a urge not to reply, because I knew if I were to reply tears will start coming and fighting with tears rolling down when I'm my at work station... In between the receiving and reply of sms-es, unknowingly, tears just roll of my cheeks and I ran to the ladies to get it done with and carry with my work... However, I never manage to finish my workload and once the clock ticks to 5.45pm I went to my maternal granny place for dinner as what I've promise her...
Not long after the dinner, I went to visit my maternal great-grandmother, she's being old but still young in her heart... I accompany her to watch the telly till about 8plus this evening... Maternal great-grandmother, held on to my hand tightly and I finally sense I should be more happy... But I ought to know, sitting beside her, watching the telly with her, holding her hands was really bliss which I never can do that with my paternal great grandmother nor my paternal granny either that someone whom step into my life and walk out of my life...
I can never share the laughter together with him anymore... I know is wrong in the first place to switch off my cellphone, because I'm feeling real extreme low and got the urge to head off to the beach for some quite moments... Time has proven... Time will heal... Time will bring me to a good world!!
*Crossed finger*
Just leave me alone... I'm fucking tired of my bloody life...
Are all guys rotten??
I'm losing my faith...
Of all that had happen, I promise myself not to step into any relationship for the next couples of months... Till I meet mine!!
But now, wish me luck for my coming activities and what-nots...
Have a great weekends...
Labels: Relationship, Work
Carrie;eirrac: 1/09/2009 09:23:00 PM ♥
