It just seems like it was last week when I was at the counting down at home with my siblings,hoping 2008 would be kinder to me! :P
So has 2008 been kinder to me like I had wished for when the clock struck midnight at home?
Read on... ...!!
:)
January - March 2008
Brand new 2008 was ushered in with a smile on my face, with me hoping 2008 would treat me much better after all the shites in 2007...
The early quarter saw me having heaps of slacking at home alone... I've therefore since graduated from MIS... For the 3 odds, I've been wondering and pondering around, thinking what careers suits me... During the 3 odds, I've been there all alone at home doing those house hold chores... Staying at home far wayy too much, to hop by online and chat with those random friends... :)
It's been actually a slacking months...
Spending quality time with Mummy dearest is one of the sweet moments we had shared... Having time spent with the ex ex ex bf's of mine was the moments we once shared in the relationship...
April - June 2008
April was the month that I'm officially back in da corporate world... Being struck in starhub for almost 4 years odd with a higher position... :) All these months alone hasn't been real kind to me... Been real sick for almost 2 weeks odd coping with flu bug and what-nots which leads me to the two weeks MC!! *Roll eyes*
The busy month going around hunting for sales, trying very hard to get my workload done... Made a new friendship with Rajes which was one thing I had never regret working with uhh... :) We have never fail in going each and every roadshow and canvassing together...
Nothing much happening during all these months...
Just more work to be done I guess...
July - September 2008
It's the first year of the relationship anniversary with the ex ex ex bf... A bittersweet one!!
July was the month which loads of unhappy moment begins...
Things have come cleared to me that I should quit the job in StarHub and get myself a better job... I have to talk things out with my boss (male), he being the nicest boss I ever had during these 4 years odd... Making sure I'm okay in whatever I does in my life...
It's 14 July 2008 was a day to remember, that was the day I leave StarHub and wave a big goodbye to one and all... I ought to know, I don't bear to leave them all, but for me being young, it's time to try out more jobs and see which one suits in me in my life to come...
Between the 2 weeks of break, I begin to search for job via newspapers and online through agency and I've got myself a job at American International Assurance Company... I've to learn everything from the start picking myself to get use to office work and what-nots...
Not long after I've join AIA, the company faces financial crisis which really makes me goes real busy... I remember the first month at AIA, I've been lunching in for a month odd!! And the second month onwards I've make 3 real friendship at the department and started to join them for lunch around the near by mall and random kopitiam... The group was later increase with another guy and not long after another girl come in... We are the big family...
As usual, the lunch, the going of toilet breaks, the waiting of one another to knock off and walk to the bus stop was so bliss... Words can't describe how this group has made my life so different, they never failed to filled up the laughter whenever one was moody or feeling very random... The random of walking towards my desk just to get sweets or even crackers really make me feel like I'm opening a mini mart uhh...
It's been a great time with them all... :)
Coming towards September, was a month which many things have come cleared to me... In between the working hours/days, there's always a relationship issue... Wayy far too much things had happen... He wasn't the one I wanted anymore, which somehow, the lack of communication started and I since then keep a distant with him...
Work soon affected us, in more ways than one... I was never a morning person, yet struggling to get to work earlier than what I was so used to was a constant struggle...
Work was not what he had said it would be, mind-less, carefree with routine hours...Work soon became a chore, it had drained me out of my energy that I soon became what I totally detested - a lifeless being...
Relationship by then has already become a problem in me... Which I no longer looking forward to his sms-es/call... I admit that there where times, I just ignore his sms-es/calls, for I'm always busy in da office...
October - December 2008
I usually dislike the months after September intensely, for nothing good happens to me during this period...
Still as usual, trying very hard to focus on my work... Trying very hard not to fall asleep while boss are busy... Still, I've deadline to meet, and to get everything done before the tons and zillions of stuff pile up on my desk or lying around the cabinet...
It was the month of October 2008, a day which I msg him to say everything is over and for him being such a jerk during the times... I admit, he's nice, but he couldn't give me what I wanted in a relationship... So after I've learned to let go of everything and walk on with the life... I admit, there was a guy whom I hearts after the break up... That someone whom I hearts alot till now, will he notice how much I've hearts him??
Going through everything alone, heartaches, heart pain and in between the nights, tears just rolled down whenever I've listen to this random song... I know is my fault for not telling Mummy dearest first, but yet she have knew everything and she's happy for me... As Mummy dearest doesn't really like the ex ex bf behavior...
Finally I'm free...
Which means, more meeting up with Bestie Jennifer to the near by malls or even the random night walk at the park...
Somehow,somewhere along the lines, something hit me, it was this someone whom I really wanted to be with, however time have never really see us through every journey... We have since then somehow stop communicating... But still, I missed him and outta missing, I do still give him those random sms-es hoping he'll answer me... Or he has merely reply don't worry!!
Still hoping he'll do something to it... But I guess time have proven everything which more of less I've learn to walk on with my life and not to be affected by those issues... I ought to know it's not easy at all, however I still gotta put the plastic smile on my face so much for being fake...
If you are reading this: I'm still hearts you... :)
Finally, it's my forever young 20th bday which many well-wishes/gifts from friends and colleagues... It's the ever best bday I ever had in my years of living...
For Matthew for being the sweetest guy, knowing that it was my bday and he made and effort to meet me and treat me for dinner and of course thanks for the gift and the bday song which you have sung thrice for me...
All in all, it was a memorable bday to me...
I no longer grumble at things that I usually take for granted, and I have since learnt to be more forgiving and less critical towards myself, and to love and appreciate the family and friends around me much more! :)
As I usher in the new year in 2 hours later, I can give myself a pat on the back, have a smile on my face, and tell myself that it's been a fruitful year, knowing more about myself and of Life that I would never ever have learnt about had the Love not been lost...
How, despite my very jaded outlook with regards to Love and relationships, and how I am extremely cautious and more wary now; I am able to tell myself that it doesn't matter with regards to affairs of the heart and what matters more now is living the Life that I wish and want to lead, not being controlled nor dictated by anyone except myself...(And well, maybe the family and real close friends! :P )
Come what may, I hope that I am able to withstand the distance ahead of me, for I know that there'd be water and resting points ahead whenever I struggle and falter... ... =)
And as a yearly tribute... ...
Appreciation goes out to all my daRLings that have been there for me through this emotionally roller coaster year...The encouragements, laughter, jokes, listening ears, big hearts and keeping me in your prayers aside, I just wanna thank you for not being judgmental and for loving me for who I am, and for gently accepting me, my flaws, my nonsensical crap, and for offering hugs, company and listening ears whenever I needed them... :)
I am truly thankful! =)
Have yourselves a wonderful 2009 ahead filled to the brim with joy, peace, health, wealth, and of course LOVE! :)
R.I.P. 2008!!!!
DIEEeeeee!!!
*LauGhs*
*HeaRts
Labels: Life, Reflection