Sunday, November 4, 2007
-Random Thoughts Vs The Grossly Misunderstood!!!
Its amazing what a random thoughts, or shall I call that
" more problems kinda situation" does to the brain... I had to shower, so I dragged myself outta bed, and before I knew it.... The problems didnt stop...
ORIt's amazing how time whizzes us by and before I had time to stop, smell the roses or whatsoever...
It's been many days...
Uncountable days till my last breath...
Time has really flown me by...Im currently feeling a lil' vexed with loads of stuff be it
personal or non- personal... Im simply feeling very fuck up... =( I had been a lil' vexed for almost the entire day. I can't exactly pin-point an exact reason for it, but maybe its just that I sometimes feel grossly misunderstood, by a lot of people. I mean, close friends and family members usually know my what I am trying to get at most of the time, and amazingly, the mood that I am in either by just the tone of voice I use or by the words I type on
MSN -- you guys know who you are! :)
I guess endings always have the writings on the wall even before anyone says/initiates anything, and in this case, problems or grossly misunderstanding. I guess it has to do with the very fact of having a person whom you loved/cared and whom are very significant in your life, can get mundane, so much so that people often take the daily little things for granted. I admit that I have been guilty of being unreasonable however, I didn't take anyone for granted; but I would have never expected things to be so cranky pretty recently, for I had always thought that he'd be the knight of my fairytale, the one whom will share the white Pickett fences dream with.
{Note: Be it schoolmates, classmates, dearies friends and love ones, I never want things to go wayy cranky...}I've learnt it- because of the group project all those members I cared for are now totally out of my sight...
Im actually feeling kinda vexed at this moment in my life...I dont know what I ought to do with my life...
*SiGh*So many dreams i aspire,
So many things i desire,
But many thoughts
are the stumbling blocks...Maybe I ought to head out to the beach more often to clear my thoughts...
"seriously TinGz.. sometimes... make decisions on your own...
dun hv to keep doing wat others want u to...
the old TinGz i noe has a mind of her own..."
On the sidenote, there's few random thoughts came across my mind, thinking of the past and the current Im feeling rather emotional... The love I had last time couldn't compare to the love I have now... Because there's two very important person who was in my life but how they are gone and have went to heaven... Yea, Im talking about my paternal grandmother and paternal great-grandmother... They are the two loves ones who shared my joys and sorrow together and often falter me with a hug when I always beckons... I salute them...
[My dearest "ah ma"(grandma) and "tai ma"(great-grandmother) I miss you all a lot, I hoped that no matter where are you all you all will continue to protect your grandchildren and great-grandchildren and be the reason of our daily smiles]During my most
"upset moments", Im happy that there'll always be a few sweet dearies who will text/call me up... I give them most credit...
*Hearts* I guess how am Im feeling right now only two dearies will understand that's no other then Darlingg Jennifer and Evelyn... Yayy, they've always been here with me and give me the most honest opinion...
*Sly smiles*
For some weird/morbid reasons, sometimes it really tears me down whenever I think of the past and the current... Yea, some will heed my advice but others will like wavy off my advice and be the way they wanted and Im seriously washing off my hands off of all school stuff... (Im saying this to all my projects members) no offend to others...
Technically, I hope that things will goes smooth of me and everyone of there... Blogging this down, makes me feel real very emotional, yes I ought to know that I'm still putting smiles on my face but deep down inside my heart I'm feeling weak. I hope that I could just sleep through all those problems that are occurring next week. I admit, from next week onwards will be a real stressful and tedious week till the end of my course. But never the less, there's friends who will just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make me smile...
*Wrinks* I'm emboldened by all my dearies friends... ^^
It's really alarming hours...
I know, allowing others to have their own freedom and space will be better and therefore, I do not want to became a sad girlie I use to be.... And I admit, I have taste those bitterness life- be it school, family, relationship and what-nots... I know, I must not be too encroaching... I guess what the ending now will be, less wary and just focus on what's more important...
So in a way, after I've come to realize the
pros and cons of being single and the
pros and cons of being in a relationship with a significant somebody...Either way you look at it...!!!
*Wry smiles*Is wrong being too concern over dearies friends/boyfriend??
Let time prove everything to me...
I guess only those dearies friends who knows me well, will get what I mean and Im a girl who is asking for simplicity...
Simplicity is virtue...!!!
Im highly stress up over loads of thingy and Im currently very tired of it...
*Hint hint*All I needed was someone whom would keep me grounded, sane and happy... Isn't very difficult uhh?? But it seems damn it difficult... :{To be honest, there's too much to beckons...
*Wry smiles*In the mist of being real stress up, Im happy that Im still able to be positive and looking forward for the coming days... Exams are just very near and I've no time to waste it...
Keeping myself busy is what I can do right now at this wistful moments, I've been thinking quite a lil' bit of what I shall do now... I guess I gotta stick with my plan...
*Sly smiles*I hope everything will rest now and I need peace...
*TinGz is feeling rather upset*Labels: Sad, Sentimental
Carrie;eirrac: 11/04/2007 07:53:00 PM ♥
