Thursday, June 24, 2010
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I don't know why am I feeling so moody....
It's been a very tiring and full of worries weeks ahead of me, I been wondering and pondering should I give up in everything? Because its making me deadly STRESS, and it leads to those nights that I couldn't even sleep well... I really hope that my brain cells and STOP all these rubbish issues and what-nots!!
Sometimes I really wonder, what does my life have for me? There's isn't any answer to this question... Life a series of obstacles I guess, for nothing good happens to me always... The best thing in my life was that late granny is with me, but now to me, I am all alone by myself... I no longer put on the smiles on my face now what I have is the very fake smile to plaster on to tell others I am happy, but I AM NOT!!!
For I know deep inside my heart there's only late granny sitting in there, she's the one whom never fail to be with me no matter I am sad or happy... She would try her best to give me everything that I ask for... Granny, if you are here, I want you to know that I can't forget you and I seriously missed you deeply...
I always believe that late granny is watching me in heaven, I know she tries her best to protect me from and harm and danger... I can say that late granny is the one whom always make me feel loved with her around me... But this feeling has gone for 4 years, I told myself to be strong and happy here but I can't because she's my important love one that I have... I admit, there's parents and siblings but I am much closer to late granny...
I missed everything about her!!
I wished that she could stay a lil' bit longer in my dreams every night... I have so much to tell her, so much that I wish she could just appear in front of me... I know it's impossible, silly me!!
No one understand me~~
I am living in my own world!
Labels: Reflection
Carrie;eirrac: 6/24/2010 02:23:00 PM ♥
