"Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you."


One whom always creates quarrels for you but never once ever listen to me or believe me was something which makes me feel real upset about... It's all lies on him because he would always trying to me paranoid with what he saw online rather then to believe what I say... For this I am freaking out tired and seriously I am giving up, I do not want to probe or anything like this I would just keep my mouth shut because I knew that he would never ever believe me for once we are together... Perphas maybe this has prove to me that he never had confident in me not having faith with me...



For no reason,he would always be paranoid over stuffs he saw and being there excruciating things in his own ways and never once was in my way... Or maybe he felt tired listening to me... I admit, I am always the one compromising him in whatever he once but never once was mine! I give in all, I give my time, I give everything I can and all I get was nothing in return... He never once seems happy...


I have no idea what else should I do because I am freaking tired and I wish that I could just turn back time... I just don't seems to understand why can't he STOP being PARANOID! This is really freaking me out!


I have faith and confidence in him but never had that on me!


Now I realise that I was merely a problem or trouble for him, I guess that nothing will change... Here I am trying my best to keep this relationship and there he is putting all those funny quarrels out there...


I admit, I am being stressed up and all I want is to be happy everyday...


I gave my all.
I loved Him more than I did of my previous boyfriends;
Yet to be at the receiving end of such mistrust was just too much for me to swallow...

Im not an angel, neither am I perfect, I wished I was though -- I wished I had a magic wand to eradicate all the quarrels that we had inflicted upon us; to wave off all the unhappiness in your Life, and to make things between us right.




不喜欢怀疑什么　并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化　慢慢不同
我不是生气　　只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了　但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变　但不能
说　你会这么做是我的错

哭过就好了　伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱　　为了牵手
不是为了争吵　　为了调头

哭过就好了　　痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方