The night that I go to bed with tears, it’s a very baddd feeling to have heard those unpleasant from someone whom you love so much…


Sometimes, you always want things in your way and it’s always your choice and never mine!

Last night was really a night which filled with sadness and tears on bed, I was so strong in telling myself that I shouldn’t tear at all, because he would never once trying to call me or sms me back whenever we put down the phone with quarrels…


Apparently, I would be the one lying on the bed at night, thinking what the hell have I done wrong that he would always shout and yell at me… For I know that leopards would never change their spots…

When one is in Love,
More often than not, we would want things to be perfect,
and strive for perfection...


But as always,
things more often than not, don't always seem to go as you have in mind,
or have planned...


For he would always insist that he’s right in everything, for he wouldn’t ever believe whatever I say…

Maybe one day I will just blow everything out, because I really dislike the feeling of having in control in whatever I do…


I’m tired of everything…

I want to live in peace…

All I want was someone whom can really listen to me, wouldn’t rebut in everything thing I say… I hate being here to listen to all these rubbish…


For he would think that he always got a smarter explanation then me, because he thinks that I’m scared of him…
Things has never been the same again like four years back, I could only say that granny is the only one whom love me, dote me, be here for me no matter what happen to me… And granny was the only one whom believes in me, she’s the one that give me strength to live everyday… Granny never once stop caring, loving me, granny was the only reason which I live until today…


I know, things would never be the same again like 4 years back, whatever that had happen wouldn’t change… But one thing for sure is that granny is still living inside my heart, as she has gone to a place so far…


I cannot imagine how life has bring me on for 4years without granny here, the usual me whom always laugh and joy around has gone since the year 2006…

Many a times, I want to give up in everything, but is granny love here telling me that things would definitely be fine one day!

To me granny is my only kin; she’s my beloved granny…


To my Dearest Granny:

If you are here seeing me, I know that you wouldn’t want to see me in this state now… But granny I promise you that I’ll continue with my life because I know that you really want me to be happy here… Granny, I know that now I cannot see you but I still can feel the care and love you gave to me no matter where are you… I do hope that you are happy over there…


I promise to be the cheerful grand-daughter of yours, to stay happy no matter what… As long as I know you are still here for me, the rest of those people I wouldn’t wanna care anymore…


Granny’s love is biggest among all…