The feeling of this is coming recently, maybe I am seriously getting tired over with everything/ issues in my life...

I have never felt this before last night while I was on the phone with The Love, it suddenly strike me which lotsa emotional and time is really getting into my nerves lately... I've been telling myself that no matter what may come I should stay positive and happy, however, I didn't but I went deeper in tired-ness of LIFE...

Apparently, my yesterday morning was started with those topic like" Have you got a job"? This was prompt by my paternal aunty and uncle when we saw them at my maternal granny's near by coffee shop while we was having breakfast...

Speaking the truth, I'm seriously getting tired of people asking me all those related to job questions, I was like a multiple choice to them... Imagine, the mad-ness at the hawker with those irritating people asking you the questions again and again and I am not a goggle.com whom can give you all the best answer...

They have never spare a thought for me and yet they are just those naggy aunties/uncles in the market... If they were in my shoes they will know that I'm doing all these because of the particular person whom have entered my life...

Some moments which I can't waste it and I have promise myself that I would go back to the corporate world soon next year in the early month of the year... I just wanna enjoy my slacking days now and I would promise to work hard next year and earn enough money... I guess I shouldn't go any further to prevent misunderstanding over here...

I've tried my best in everything I do and I hope that those people who is in my life knew it and all that matters was merely just being happy... It would do me nice if those people can STOP asking me all these questions, else I would come down with depression...

Arghhhhhhhhx......

Whatever I do all I want was my love ones are Happy that's all I'm asking too, cos I reckon that they will go beyond their limits in me... :(

I usually dislike the months after October for there's nothing good happens after that, hopefully some year later, I would really love the months after October... *Cross fingers*


Some nights, my mind have been coming up with those memories of my late granny for she's the one whom always ready here for me whenever I called upon... She's the one whom never made me fear of anything, she's the one whom I really need whenever I'm happy or down... She would never failed to be with me, but for now, she's has gone to a place very far far away and wouldn't come back to me again... The promises I have made to her, I will fulfill it one day and hopefully I will be a less barren girl... The Love, Care and Joy she has given me would always be kept inside my heart...

It's been 4years on, and she is till watching over me from a very far away distance, without any pat on my head, any hugs and all she was my greatest LOVE in my life...

奶奶，如果您听的到我所说的话，我想跟您说，在这里的我虽然，不是很快乐但请您不用担心我。。。



I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (I know it's true)
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you (for you) (ohhh)

I used to think that dreams were just
For sentimental fools
And I'd never find someone
Who'd give their love so true u u u
But I knew the very minute (ohh)
Couldn't live my life without you in it
Now I want the whole wide world to know (ohhh)


~"Anywhere for you" by Backstreet boys~