Thursday, September 10, 2009
-At 1-ish in the late night
It's 1.10am right now and yet I'm still highly-activate on blog...
*Laughs*There's reasons for me not being on the bed down due to some issue which make me somehow or another can't sleep in a clear peace of mind... It's been days since I last updated, because of blogger being screw-up again and again that I could only blog at this hour...
Apparently, I've been feeling very uneasy with my feelings and emotion nowadays, I don't know what actually happen to me as my brain have been sway-ing somewhere else which leads me to those TTM=thinking too much situation... I've never been like this before, and I really hope that I will be back to the normal self soon... I can't let this feeling and emotional thingy going on like this... It would only be nice, if I've some time spend all alone without anyone by my side, I guess I'm tired over life but hey, I would do anything to hurt myself alright... =)
"Life gotta go on no matter what may come and I just wanna be happy everyday."
When one is helpless at this hour they will tend to go all the way, to search for besties to talk to, but for me, I would rather wanna have this night all by myself, sitting in front of the pc while I'm trying very hard to blog all these down over here...
I would still reserve the night for my own self-reflection, because I have been slacking far wayy too much that sometimes I really get tired of being at home doing nothing but online and etc... Life is much meaningless, because, I've no self goals, well I admit I do have some but I guess it will never allows me to do it until sometime next year...
The life journey that I am going through wasn't easy because I no longer how my beloved granny over here with me, whispering to me that everything will be alright... I miss her nice and sweet voices, till some nights I cried over my sleep... Which left me, nothing my those droplets of tears...
It would have been; but never; she's gone for four years and counting, I'm still here standing with my own fighting all those life obstacles which god have for me... It really makes a person feel tired sooner or later...
*Sigh*Granny was someone whom have love me in her life and forever, she will always be sure that I have my meals and all... She will always be the one waiting for me to come back home after school to prepare my yummy lunch for me... Those moments I am really missing now already...
Nothing what may come, I do hope that I'll be happier and braver in my life journey... Sometimes we gotta taste those bitter rhythm before getting those sweet melody...
In life it need two hands to claps to go on...
I wanna be happy everyday=)
Labels: Life
Carrie;eirrac: 9/10/2009 01:08:00 AM ♥
