Saturday, January 19, 2008
-Thank You For Being My Twinkle Little Star!
After spending half a year together, it's an bittersweet of journey of all... I've enjoy most of the time where I spend with you. I hope that there'll be more lil' celebrations together and more laughter and joy ahead of us. :))) My demands for you are very little and thank you once again for enduring my mood swings and what-nots. One whom complete my heart.
*Muacks*Granted there are the regrets, the laments, the
"should haves", "could haves" and
"would haves"... But like what I used to tell people that needed my listening ear - There is much more to life than the
"should haves", "could haves" and
"would haves", and in my case, I think that it does apply - Admittingly, there would have been alot of things I would and wouldn't do had I known the outcome, but it wouldn't have brought me to where I am today, and I can definitely say that it has made me grown up in certain ways, and I now know for certain that there are flaws inherent in me that needs some fine tuning, so that TinGz would become a better person for her ownself; and that there isn't a party whose right or wrong in the relationship, for it takes two and whole lotta patience and understanding for things to work!
The walking for this half an year isn't easy for us, and why do I say so? In between the lines, we started to quarrel over all sorts of issues which at times make me real upset over it. However, I choose and yet to believe what this relationship is mend for. I remember how you would endure
my very irregular time of the month by acting all silly and goofy just to bring the smiles outta my face and you did manage to bring the smile back and bring away the madness I've in you whenever it's the months...
* Wry smiles*Somewhat we have gone through the thick and thin together and sharing the most honest opinion whenever I probe or you probe. Never fails being with me through my down moments and a hug which warms the relationship.
For I want us to start anew and forget those lil' upset issues we have earlier on the relationship, for I know you will change to be a better boyfriend after all. I hope you heed my advices and won't not hurt me anymore. For yet I chosen you to be the one whom I really wish to settle down with and I hope somehow along the lines, you will continue to a sweet and loving dearie.
*Loves*I do admit that there were nights when I lie awake, thinking what had gone wrong, there were the tears of frustration and anger. I, being the happy-go-lucky and silly girl that I am, had thought that Love would conquer all... But I failed to stop and evaluate things from another perspective; That perhaps you were so drained out by me and my antics that you didn't know how to handle or what to do anymore. But Im glad that each and everytime you did make an effort to bring smiley back to me and of course those words that were used when Im mad over you. After all, Im just a girl who loves to be pamper by you dearie! Sorry for all those nonsensical actions/moods. :)))
*Cheery*Very often, pride gets in the way of communication as well. Likewise, where I used to not want to listen to your advice or words merely because I know that they are, despite it being hurting and harsh, they were the truth; and that you had meant well for it. I would often allow the emotions to get the better of me and flare up at you, which I am really sorry for - It was never my intention to lash out at you; Most of the times, emotions got the uglier side of me, and I am really thankful towards you for enduring like you did. You clammed up after a while because you knew I couldn't stand hearing the harsh facts when I should have, you wanted to protect me, so you chose not to tell me those harsh facts after a while.
Apparently, I do still remember those lil' of surprise you have done for me and never the less, one whom Im very much in love with.
*Hearts* Words may not express the love I have for you but I hope that you can sense it somehow.
Throughout the months we been together I really treasure what upholds ahead over us all I want was be happy with you and I wish nothing but the best for us. Walking this journey hand in hand and sharing all those happiness and sorrows together.
On the side note, Happy 6th Anniversary Dearie:)))
My one and only dearie!
*Hearts* Thank you for being my twinkle little star! **sMiLes*Labels: Happiness, Love
Carrie;eirrac: 1/19/2008 02:34:00 PM ♥
