Wednesday, November 21, 2007
-Through the Rain Vs Bad Headache...
It's been rainy and breezy the past few days, and it being rainy means that I can either sleep like a log (Christmas log! It's 34 days to my Birthday and Christmas!) cos it's so cooling and un-stuffy at nights.
It's raining, and I've found myself unable to have my afternoon nap as Im currently having a very bad headache that has been lasting for days or so... Isn't very glam to be during exam period. Im feeling rather woozy and this headache has causing much inconvenience to me.
While I was trying real hard in mugging my notes, my head hurts badly its just like many stuff that is hitting my head. I ignore it fo days, and it got worst, and Im feeling quite blur now. =( Am feeling very cold, am shivering in much! -_-
I hope that I'll faint, as Im all alone at home in the huge house!
*Sigh*
On the sidenotes, I wish that there will be someone nice to here with me listening to all my worries and what-nots. Indeed Im glad that dearies friends always made their way here to text/call me up. I guess most credits are give to them. And I kid you not, bestie Jie AKA Evelyn has always compliment on my level of patience in many situation-work(last time), school, relationship, family and so on. Well, my level of patience is excellent! =)
*Woots*
Apparently, I guess no point been to encroaching and having those think too much illusions. If Im not in da good mood, I will choice to keep it to myself rather than to share it. Because I guess no point, as people wont understand what Im feeling now.
*no worries babes, Im ok*
At this moment of time, Im feeling kinda lost in many areas, I cant pin point exactly on what happen but I guess all I need is to follow what my heart says. I remember that there is a nicetest friend who always keep telling me "focus on what's more important". I totally agree with what he/she says to me, I may heed his/her advice. Because he/she is always my advicer and my bestie in many ways. =)
Im feeling kinda sentimental!
*Sigh*Too many unanswered questions that are left in me and too much loads in me which I hasnt been throw it away.
Life is so amazing in such a way that there would be times when you're kind of looking for something and that you'd think you know you're correct about something, yet subconsciously, your mind tells you the polar opposite...Perhaps its a hunch, or the intuitive sixth sense, or instinct, I cannot pin-point the exact word to describe it; Yet sometimes, your gut feeling tells you that you're correct, yet sometimes, it might just be that one is thinking too much of stuff...
Perhaps I need a conversation with one of my bestie later! Because some of my bestie always bring me back to earth whenever Im real down because truth enough they have always been there see me crossing the most difficult bridges and never fail lending me a hand to rely on.
I guess there's really too much uncertainties in my life journey.
Frankly speaking Im feeling very good in moodwise, deep inside my heart I could only hide those worries to myself and of course sharing it with my bestie Jie AKA Evelyn. I text her with my worries and she replied me" think things on the bright side. No point making one unhappy. It doesnt feel good at all. Sometimes have to make sacrifices for loved ones."
Im glad that she never fail in giving me advice and listening to me. I cannot help it that I am a natural pessimist that sees the glass as being half full, and that I am a natural worrier... Or maybe its got to do with the fact that I always try my best, be it for friends, or for issues in life, so much so when it all falls apart, I get disappointed and I try to protect myself even more, for I am fearful of getting sad at times.
But with each setback I have experienced, the experiences have made me much stronger than I have never imagined possible.Likewise, in this case, I have made decisions, and with each passing day I know that it's been a long road discovering things about myself and of other issues that really matter to me.
It has been an eye-opener, for I really have no absolute idea where I found the intrinsic strength to bounce back into the game of Life.I guess the setbacks that I have experienced along the way have made me become stronger, and more aware of issues around me.
Of course there are the lovely friends whose talks and chats with me made so much sense and that they have indirectly helped answered the questions that I probably had all along, but didn't seem to have the correct answers, or that I was just simply afraid of knowing the truth and answers, cos I knew I was instinctively correct... Their encouragements and advices did contribute to me becoming stronger... I am just surprised at how quickly I have adapted and stood up to the challenges that were waiting for me...! =)
Like in this rainy season, where when the rain and stormy weather clears, there would be clear blue skies ahead! And I now am beginning to see that clear blue skies, and even the rainbow ahead of me! =) Granted that there would be times when there might be rainy and stormy skies again, but come what may, I hope that I can make it through each shower there is and become a much stronger, better and happier person! =)
The greatest things I felt is I do really have nice friends always be there ready for me and truth enough they often paused for awhile to let me vent my worries and never fail to bring a smile back on my face! =)
Thank you, to all my lovely darLinGs! Thank you for listening, for having an open heart, for not judging, for being honest, for your encouragements and for helping and wanting me to become better! I *HeaRt* you all! =)*TinGz is getting stronger*Labels: Sentimental, Sick
Carrie;eirrac: 11/21/2007 04:39:00 PM ♥
