Apparently, I always dislike every Sunday that is looming, because that’s a day filled with truckloads of scolding from this person who is near me… Yes, that’s my father; I could only say that from young till now, I never once tried talking to my father in a nice tone… He would always go beyond his lines, he shouting at me or even those “arrows” shooting me whenever he moods stir me up…



Which I personally much dislike every Sunday, I never once look forward to any Sunday, because I knew that “there’s nothing good happen on Sunday”… (My BLACK SUNDAY)…





It strikes me from young, whenever he always start his scolding only at me, perhaps maybe he thinks that I will not rebut back, but sad to say, I would always just shout back at him because I knew wasn’t my fault at all…




I believe that everyone out there are close to their father but minus me out of the category!



*Laughs*




We(my dad and I) never once, shared a dinner together, watch tee vee together, laugh together and all sorts of categories a dad should does he NEVER does that to me! I’ve learned to let go those love from him, he NEVER once care for me… He merely ask my Mum where is my whereabouts!




For almost 21 years on, he NEVER once show is fatherly love to me, and I never look forward to come by one day, because I knew that the day will NEVER loom by…


I was like “bad” person marked in his heart for he always like to compare me with my oldest sister, which I really HATE about it… In my theory, I thought that parents should treat every child fair and well, but I am the odd one out!!




Anyway, I am okay with whatever he want to do on me, be it, shouting, scolding, arrowing me among the 4 of us, everything that had happen I have learnt to tolerate his rubbish over this 21 years on…



He NEVER once remembered my birthday or he NEVER once praise me in whatever I does out in the world…




在他（爸爸）眼里我永远都比不上我的姐姐和弟弟，我对他绝望了。。。我再也没有理由和他住在东一个屋檐下了。。。




爸爸对我来说是个陌生人。。。




No matter what may come, I will still be positive and overcome all the obstacles that is coming…





I always believe that, I can do it and never let HIM look down on me…




I guess nothing really matters to me now because; I am really used to this kind of relationship with him…

(To him I am not a perfect child! But I know I am NOT!)



On a cheerier note, another 4 more days to my 21st and I am really looking forward…




I know friends has been text-ing me on catching up and passing my my present, and hopefully I will have time to meet them for coffee session…

Hahs!




Anyway, I am going to meet Dr Janice tomorrow afternoon, it’s been econs since I last saw her… =)




Time for bed!




Good night world!
(Tonight gonna be a GOOD GOOD NIGHT)


:D