Thursday, August 23, 2007
-Quality Over Quantity =)
I'm feeling very
woozy/wistful for the past few days... I guess that it's something to do with my metabolism system...
I digressed=X
Whenever, times allow me to be alone, my think too much illiusion will started popping- out... Choose not think make life easier and happier isn't??
Tingz does have a sweet darling who would keep me grounded, sane and happy...I need my darling to be the one who would be a pillar of strength and yet at the same time, be someone whom is caring/loving and filial!In all honesty, too much to ask for, I reckon?
*Laughs* But there's a real sweet heart who has been doing all this for me... That's no other then my darling...
In the mist all of these, I did realise, after having a long conversation, which made me feel real down and sad about loads of stuff (Maybe its that time of the month..! Imagine..! ), where I started thinking of my social circle and how significantly few
real close friends I do actually have...I mean, I'd rather go for
quality than quantity, but its pretty saddening to have friends whom you adore and love to bits totally forgetting about you/casting you away when you're no longer needed by them...Its an irony simply because I always try to be there for my friends, so much so that I feel that most of my "so-called" friends take my niceness and the goodness in me for granted; Some of them expect/assume me to be there for them 24/7 and when I dont, it literally tears me when they say that I wasn't there for them when they needed me.
Oh well, so what is the balancing point then? When should I still remain nice and caring towards friends that matter and fair-weathered friends that'd do a "David Copperfield", aka, disappearing act when bad weather does fall upon us? :(
I have been thinking quite abit about who are my true
blue friends, those that have been there for me, thick and thin, seen through my ups and downs - my joys, sorrows, tears and anguish...Those that have offered me piles of tissue, advices, pats and hugs to those that squirm and run away at the very instant when I say something's troubling me...
There's a few names that have always/constantly been there instantly pop up in my mind - you guys know who you are...And I guess that I am truly blessed to have them around me; to catch me when I fall, to give their most honest opinions when it matters, and to always have a ready hug whenever I falter...
Mummy and closest friends have told me that the
inherent problem or
plus point about me, depending on which side of the fence you're on, is that despite all the social hard-knocks that life has taught me, I am still pretty gullible and naive and the fact that I dont really know how to judge people and their intentions so much so that when someone says that they need help, I would naturally try my best and go out of the way to help them, without expecting anything in return...If they need someone to talk to, I would try by calling or sms-ing them, or just clown around and act all silly and goofy to make them smile... In fact, I still do have random people still calling/sms-ing me at wee hours in the morning, sober or otherwise, ranting about their problems and how they just need a listening ear...
Cos I've always believed in what Mummy have always said and taught me - Always be nice to people, for what goes around would come around...If you're nice to people, people would appreciate your niceness and treat you the way you've treated them...But now Mummy always adds a disclaimer where she askes me not to be nice to everyone and anyone...That I ought to be selectively nice only to certain people, and to people whom really matter...
I guess I've to start learning from somewhere, and right now, at this very moment, I would prefer
quality over quantity, thank you very much...! :)
I
LOVE all my
QUALITY friends & My darling!
*TiNgZ is sleepy*
*sMilEs*ZzzzZzzzZzzz Time...! *Snore snore snore*
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Carrie;eirrac: 8/23/2007 10:36:00 PM ♥
