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Sunday, July 8, 2007

-Resting In Peace (not die) + Freaking long entry for the whole week!

Thursday 5 July 2007

On this very boring and exhausted day, I was having my favourite module tutorials... *Laughs* This tutorials lasted for 3hours and finally ended at 10pm... Well, let me tell you bits and pieces what happen during this 3hour of tutorials...

Here it's goes:

The lecturer was going through the answer on those tutorials he given us, he was like asking us to put up of hands up if we got the correct answer...

*Laughs* I kid you not, but put up our hands somehow make me feel that I'm a primary school kid... *Laughs*

Yes, I ought to know I did do my tutorials work but I don't have my answer all correct, but hey, at least I bother to do it before the tutorials begins. I was like what the hell, whole class only a few of donkey did the tutorials... I'm one of the donkey... *Laughs*

During the tutorials, I was very busy going to toilet and busy replying my sms-es from friends and this special someone... The lecturer was like pin-point at me, ask me what is my name, I was like uhh my name is blahx blahx blahx.. He was like asking me why my answer is D give and reason to it, I say it's basic knowledge. Yayy, is true is really using brain to think:) The lecturer say, we students always trying to sms during his lesson, he say an example,like I was sms-ing my friend next to me... *Laughs* What makes him think so huh?? Cos me, fadilah and rowena was sitting at the very back row laughing and talking... But Hey, we did pay attention alright! I thought that the lecturer is going to give me a great dressing down, but luckily he didn't, cos he told the whole class he is a nice lecturer, which I personally also think so lahx.. =)

Yes, I must admit that isn't nice getting heaps of sms-es while you are having tutorials. One thing is I didn't put my phone onto vibration, but it's on silent mode.

Friends and that special someone must be thinking why I can reply in time right??

(I place my phone in front of me, once the light is up that shows I have a sms)

Well, the heaps of sms-es lasted all the way I reach home, well, beside sms-ing this special someone, friends of mine also give me sms-es asking me this and that...

That's on 5 July 2007!!!

Friday 6 July 2007

Nothing much happen, went shopping with mummy and sisters after that went dinner with my family and come home to date my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to cover!!!

That's all for 6 July 2007!

Saturday 7 July 2007

Well, I went to meet Evelyn yesterday for some heart to heart talk and of shopping... I just wanna say a big thank you to Evelyn for those advices she has given me yesterday. I heed her advices as well.

Finally, you found your happiness, so I shall wish you all the best in whatever you does.. I know teaching as a career is not easy, but I can see that you enjoy it.

Give me a sms/call anytime when you need to talk=)

Thank you....

That's all on 7 July 2007:)

Sunday 8 July 2007

Well, I must admit that I'm resting in peace recently... (resting in peace doesn't means I die ok) *Laughs* Apparently, I have subsided those problems that has been bothering me for the past few weeks, now everything got to rest and finally I'm in peace...

In a morbid way, I have learn to let go of those worries, and make my life easier. I believe that things will turned out the way that they're mend to be, for it gave me who to walk on with my life long journey; and yet in a certain way, it has made me who I am today, a lil' girl who is wary and emotionally barren at times.

Despite, of all the social hard-knocks that life has taught me, it makes me stronger and braver. Because each setbacks that has happen teaches me a valuable lesson. Yes, everyone is facing different obstacles in life, be in school, family, relationship,career, just remember that there's always a solution to all those obstacles. Yes, I know sometimes stress can be control but, if we didn't control it well it will lead to a bad depression... I own up, I almost suffer from depression, so isn't nice... The horrifying illusion isn't pleasant at all.

Well, I have learn not to hold things too hard, and by giving in some space of allowance for those problem to be solve... Yes, it's easy to say it then to do it. But no matter what I got to give it a try. I must admit, recently I'm feeling very exhausted and yes, I have since then been sleeping early everyday. Because I really feel the tiredness over the past few weeks, after the talk I have with this special someone, I felt much better and relieve and from that day onwards, I told myself, I mustn't take things to hard and learn to let go some of my worries, and let nature take the course. In the mist, of sleeping there's always friends sending me heaps of sms-es to check am I'm feeling better. But waking up in between the ringing sound of the sms-es isn't nice. (but, I appreciate what this friends has been doing for me) Constantly/Instantly telling myself, focus on what's more important the rest of those problem let it have a rest because I hate to carry so much burden and ended up I'm the one who is suffering like hell...

*Sigh*

I'm glad that I didn't make any hasty decision, because I thought of giving up on my studies, as I'm really very stress. Mummy told me if I'm stress quit school, but mummy has always been very supportive towards my life journey. I was delighted to have those encouragement from my family, friends etc... I merely telling myself, I must MOVE ON and don't LOOK BACK!! Life is always full of ups and downs.. Everyday, every second, life is a whooshing past at an alarming rate.

All in all, I have since then replies my those sms-es that my two great Darlingsss has been sending me... I have heaps of sms from them whenever I'm in trouble or I feel woozy/wistful. They has since then, played an important role in my life, they has teaches me through my ups downs. Darlingsss Jennifer & Alice, you girls never fail to be with me each time I call upon. Even in the mist of text-ing/ calling Darling Jennifer in the wees hours, she still offered me an ears and many advices.. Which I have heed it and from there, I'm going to forget my worries...

Now a days, I have subsided Sms-ing/calling this special someone, because yes, I know he's feeling very tired and stress at times, so I should let him rest well whenever he book out. Well, I still give this special someone a few sms-es in a day, to show that yes, I'm still caring about this special someone, I guess that he can feel it. Well, if he didn't reply, as what he said, he is busy, so I truly understand and of cos I believe that, once this special someone read this sms he will reply once he's free. I can only say, patiently waiting to hear from this special someone.

Hopefully that I'll get to see this special someone when he book out tomorrow! That's what I'm always hoping for. Thus far, I have send him about 4 sms-es, and I'm going to wait patiently for this special someone to reply. Yes, I did send him an sms again around 7pm plus, but I guess that he's resting already. But never mind, this special someone will reply once he check his mobile.

Patience is all I'm having thus far!!!

Therefore, I shall now declare that I'll be busy preparing for this looming Mid-Term Test which is respectively on 12th & 16th and 26th July 2007. Yes, I has been dating my mountain-ful of notes and what-nots to covered up for this thingy. Initially, I haven't complete my report, which is like due-ing on 12th July 2007, yes those snippets of information has been gathered but I still need some ideas. But hey, isn't easy to cope with so many things at one go. Generalize on those steps to solve my business maths module isn't easy at all. It's making me mad soon... I have heaps of getting this particular module to be done=( Things has been less screwed-up for TiNgZ, but I'm still trying my very best to solve what I can now, sitting down here doing nothing isn't going to help.

Hence upon blogging this, I have learn alot in life journey, what this particular doctor has been advising me thus far. I guess TiNgZ just need to relax more and enjoy life and be happy everyday is virtue. Technically, it has made me a happy girlie and living happily for another 30years or so... *Laughs*

* I give credit all to my dearies close friends*

*TiNgZ feel much relieve*

=)

The end of my blogging as of 8 July 2007!

Carrie;eirrac: 7/08/2007 12:08:00 PM ♥