Thursday, July 12, 2007
-It's Officially Mid-Term Test + Self Relection
It's
officially mid-term test...
And...
I haven't get prepare yet, or I should say I did study through all my mountain-ful of notes or I should put it this way, my mind is simply not focusing on my mid-term test...
Either way you look at it!!
*Laughs*(Friends wish me luck)Indeed, I did read through all those MCQ thingy, to be ready to fight for the war...
*Laughs* Isn't sound so scary, but because due to certain personal problems it leads me to no where but to be positive... I'm getting absolutely exhausted over many personal problems... The irritation is just there.
Yes I admit, I have learn to let go since Tuesday night, since then yesterday Wednesday in the morning I give an sms to that
Someone but that
Someone didn't reply. So I told myself at least I have made my decision, now the problems lies with that
Someone, I have no idea is he simply ignoring this problem or not. Whatever it is I can only say that that's a immature way in handling relationship issue. That
Someone is simply avoiding or not facing the fact, whatever he does now, let him be.. If he would to reply, I can only say thanks for respecting my decision.. Yes, not easy to let go, but no matter how much how deep I love him still, I can only let go and to be selfish to everyone. To me, if you love a person, who doesn't even love you in return, hey, don't waste my time... I willing to let go because, at least I see him happy I'm satisfied already. Love cannot be force... Yes, letting a close door shut and there's many doors that are opening up for me=)
No point putting in so much effort in it, since there's already a crack line, and heartaches will never be heal. I just want that
Someone to understand that in what circumstances please handle things in a mature way. Yes, he may not like the idea of what I have said, but my patience towards him is really running out... Once I cried over about
Someone that love, until my tears have dry up it shows that I'm really letting go it and move on. It's not worth to cry over him at all. He will never understand. Yes, he is a nice guy thus far... That's what I can say..
It's has make me feel very agitated for those past few weeks...
*Sigh* I'm
mentally/physically tired of it. Loving a person is not easy, when the love bonding are there it's never easy to forget and move on. But to me, after deleting all those sms and what-nots, I feel much relieve.. But hey,mind you, I hasn't been sleeping much recently, I only sleep for 3hours daily, or simply going without sleep for 24hours or so... The nights without sleep really sucks to death alright=( I hate having a
tedious/anguish relationship. As what this
once special someone told me via sms,
Fight for your own happiness... I totally agree with what this
once special someone told me this morning via sms... Just that the past me and this
once special someone had, lead us to no where, but we are still friends...
Yes, it's a
mock horror to me in making this decision, but I'm seriously very tired of it, and I want to let go as soon as possible. Since it's only lasted for about 2months. So I think that is it easy to let go now better then to be in love too deep. I don't put to much hope on it le, worst to worst that Someone didn't reply, I'll take it as he agree it. I hate to force myself to do all this, but
love is selfish at times. I hope someday that Someone will realise what I'm doing. I won't hold onto hopes anymore.
Let this door be shut now and forever...
Unfortunately, I has since then lost
2pounds or so. It's leads me to a very mood less days, whenever I'm feeling
woozy/wistful that
Someone will never knows. Even if he hurt me indirectly, I close one eyes and open one eyes, and accept what he said to me. Well, I didn't blame him for saying that to me... Hope that
Someone will really go and sit down and think through it...
Now what I can is
let bygones be bygones and move on. I have learn my lesson, Yes I has seen alot in relationships matters, so no matter how am I feeling now, I'll over come it and be happy in my life.
Alright, I shall end here for today, too much to say but I can't literally blog everything in just one day...
*TiNgZ feels a strong feeling of tiredness**Wish me luck for my test during this evening*
Carrie;eirrac: 7/12/2007 12:22:00 PM ♥
