-; xoxo Hearts♥

Thursday, April 26, 2007

-Tired Sleep

Today very 'song' lehx.. sleep till 12pm.. haha:) 12hours of sleep i still feel a lil tired.. nice weather to sleep lorx.. raining..haha:) hmm.. actually i dont know what to write here lehx.. just feel tired and sleep lorx.. i brought the straits times and newpaper havent even read yet..cos eye lazy to read..haha:) will read it later.. haha:) feeling a lil moody also.. maybe i think too much bahx.. aiyohx.. how i wish i can see jennifer now..and flood her with all my worries.. she know me the best manz! she was so funny yesterday lehx.. sms me ask me to ring here.in the end i ring her she didnt pick up lehx. then i ring again and ring finally she pick up.. then she tell me later then ring me..*laughs* after that she sms me apologise to me.. haha:) funny lehx.. never didnt anything wrong say sorry to me.. girl ah.. you really very funny lehx.. *laughs*

Anyway, Jennifer is my very best sisters.. haha:) get to know her since we were in primary one same school and same class till primary two nia.. after that the only different is we went to different class..but her classroom is one step away from me nia.. i cannot forget how i know her manz.. we was the crybabe in class back in primary..(girl you know the stories well i shall not say out chou shi here)

*laughs*

After that we all went to different steam... but still same school in primary and secondary:) actually i miss the secondary days the most..cos we will always go school together.. how wonderful it was, everyday she will walk to my house and wait for me to go to school together.. haha:0 we stay one road away from each other.. this girl here has been encouraging me alot since the day i know here..she become my DOCTOR!! doctor means she will listen to all my worries and doubts i have. i cant forget how she encourage me when i retook my N levels. Jennifer, thanks for those airport and library trips to k our books.. Finally i made it.. i get what i wanted and i further my studies in ITE Colleage East, and took the course i wanted. i have then went through alot of hardship in the year of 2006.

*crys*

Without jennifer i dont think i can over those obstacles in the year of 2006. she share my worries and be there whenever i needed her. girl thanks for everything..

Here's a lil story of what happen in the year of 2006

Obstacles :

In the year of 2006 sometimes in FEB my family gotta a call from hospital, something regarding my granny. The doctor called and ask us to bring my granny to the hospital by today. After we hang down the phone we brought her to the hospital. I knew that something bad is going to happen. In my thoughts, i guess that the doctor ganna crack the bad news. After a few mins later the nurse say that the doctor wanna see me and my mummy first. after me and my mummy went in, the doctor told ask to take a sit, and told us to remain calm. A few mins later the doctor crack the news to us. "saying this: i'm sorry but you all gotta be strong, i know is not easy for you all(my family). He told my mummy that her mother in law is suffer from lung cancer, in no time my tears come out like tap water. i really felt why is this happening to her. we have no choice but to keep this to ourself and not letting my granny know. the cancer she have is already the last stage.

She was admitted in the hospital that day and went through alot of testing. she went for a mini opreation 2days later. to check is the cancer positive or negative. to the bad news dr said is the last stages. i cry everyday in my sleep, asking myself why must this happen to my granny. she went into a 1day coma after the operation, but she can sense something is wrong. i remember she was half Concuious and told my mummy she wanna go home. she dont wanna stay in the hopsital. i think somehow she feel that she is going to leave this world. It was really a heartbreak to us, especially to my father he cried and was really in deep heartbreak. Firstly, my father was my granny, foster son. They have no blood relationship. but i know that my father love her as her biological mother.

The pain that my granny bear, i feel helpless. Seeing her lying there and hoping to go back home with us. She was discharge from the hospital after a few weeks later.. we got her home with us, but each and everyday seeing her getting weaker and weaker, i couldn't do anything to help her. At that time, i was busy with my school stuff and dont have time to accompany her. But i know she understand why.

In a blind of eyes, god has took her aways from us on 18 May 2006. She leave peacefully without any struggling. That morning i was feeling sick so i went to see the doctor and get MC for my school. After one hour later i got a call from my er jie she told me to come back fast, granny is leaving us. I was totally BLANK. To face the fact is not easy. But i know letting her go let her feel relieve..without any pains.

2more weeks from today is her 1st year Anniversary.

To my beloved granny:

We miss you alot, we hope that you are living in a better world with your mother (my late great-granny). suffering no pains. Ah ma, you will always be remember in the hearts of your Dearie son, daughter in law and your 4 grandchild. Ah zhen (da jie), Ah Mei(er jie),Ah ting (san jie), your only grandson Wei cheng. Ah ma continue to protect us in your hands.

You're my best granny. never fails to look after the 4of us. thanks for bringing us up. tough is just 17years in my life, but ah ma, ah ting will remember how you loved me and dote me when you are here with us.

*hearts*

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I hope that this story i share withh motivates those who are reading this. i hate how illness take away those life, but i could only face the fact. Remember we only have one lives here, life it to the fullest. Believe in yourself and be happy everyday is the life rules.

Everyone of us face different obstacles so with what obstacles you face just overcome the face. Remember learn the lesson and never repeat the same mistakes. Everyday is a new day in life, to learn something new.

If i can over come those fears so do you!!

*jiayou*

Carrie;eirrac: 4/26/2007 01:04:00 PM ♥