A lil Story Of My Life Long Journey

The Sixth MC Of My Working Days!

2010-08-27T08:50:00.003+08:00

Yesh, I am officially have this on my FB " The Sixth MC Of My Working Days"!

I am keeping my fingers crossed tightly, because I do not want anymore MC in the next few months till the end of my contract!

Well, I am having a stomach flu, which I no idea what is the cause of it. I am guessing either last afternoon I had a mixed rice for lunch, and it turn out that the vegetables are oily, or maybe I had late dinner last night due to SYOG closing ceremony. Which I was there witnessing the light off and marks the end of SYOG 2010. The next summer YOG 2014 will be at Nanjing China!

*Laughs*

(Since when I am so active about all these!)

Anyway, work load is as heavy as ever! I am just hoping that the last day of work faster arrive because I can't wait to get out of that place! Which left no good memories!

Alright, time to rest!

Have a great weekend ahead!

Bug Please Go AWAY!

2010-08-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

*SiGh*

The bug is still around my body, I am going to conquer the BUG very soon!

Apparently, I have no idea why does the bug keep entering into my body, and even I have seen the doctor and have those medication taken as instructed I still feel a lil' sick. I admit, medicines makes me feel very exhausted and even make my mood get very low.

On a side note, my eczema is not getting any better even if I never go to work. I have been worrying way too much over the eczema and yes, the doctor's cream do help but I have no idea why does this eczema still on me. I do understand that there's no cure for eczema but I just hope that it will be better instead of the worst. Doctor told me to avoid seafood and yes I done as instructed. The eczema on me is like weather forecast, sometimes it will be better sometimes it hurts like hell alright!

I guess it time to visit the doctor and have some antibiotics for eczema, even the last time I visit the doctor, the doctor insist very much on putting me on 3 days medication, which means have antibiotics taken to cure the problem. But doctor say it will only cure now but it will eventually comes back after the medication stop.

I have reduce the washing hands habit as instructed by doctor, also a change in body wash and hand wash. And I must say, all these lil' habits change really helps.

Alright, I am still keeping my fingers crossed really tight.

Wish me speedy recovery!

Comex 2010 looming, I can't wait, because I am getting myself a lappy!

Enjoy the weekends folks!

Resting at home:)

2010-08-18T12:36:00.002+08:00

Well, I am resting today after I visited the doctor yesterday!

And I am feeling better I guess...

When I am home, my mind is thinking all about work...

When I am at work, my mind is thinking all about home...

It's funny right??

Apparently, I am keeping my fingers crossed tightly because I got the feeling that when I go back to work tomorrow my desk will be in a big MESS! I am already prepared to stay late tomorrow for work...

Many things come by my mind, many worries I have, but I will wave them all down with my strong willpower!

That's all for now!

Medication kicks in!

Off to bed!

I am Back!

2010-08-17T16:56:00.002+08:00

Hello blog!

I am back after MIA-ed or I should say not being active here for like 17 days since my last post! Those who are reading my blog must be wondering why, am I able to blog over here when it's still working hours for me right?

Alright, gotten the 4th and 5th MC during the days at work, so I officially have 5 MC since the day I started work till today!

Yep, I am on MC today and tomorrow due to throat infection and block nose. I seriously have no idea why does the bugs always get their way to my body! Either they love me or that my body is too weak!

I have bogged down by work which leads to stress and I hope that I will be alright soon, everyday when I woke up at 7am I keep missing my slacking days at home, I missed!! Work to me now is a chore no longer a joy, everyday same routine till the clock hits 6pm! Well, I can't wait for the last day at work to loom by!

Well, too much stuff on hands to worry about. I have been worrying about my eczema, not it not only on my hand but it also appears on my knee and elbow! *SiGh* Either I am too clean or that I hate dust! I need a dust free office!

I broke the record, in a month I visit the doctor twice, one for eczema and one for the virus bug! Believe it or not, 100 bucks gone just like things alright! Beside that minus those MC and PH I have less 3 days of pay to get for this month! *SiGh*!

Apparently, I am still keeping my fingers crossed well, beside I don't want anymore MC to come by and the flu bug and throat bug STOP finding your way into my body! I had enough of it!

Anyway, wish me speedy recovery on my bug and eczema!

August!

2010-08-01T12:18:00.003+08:00

It's the month of August which means five more months to the ending of working life at that hell place and I am really looking very forward to 13th Dec 2010... I can't wait for it to arrive because, I hate to see someone which I don't wanna see due to some conflicts that's occurs last Thursday... All I can was, I am very angry with what that had happen, perhaps people there not nice expect for a lady whom teaches me from day one I was there till now... I can say that I appreciate whatever the lady who teach me and thanks for siding me on the issue last Thursday...

Apparently, now work to me is no longer any enjoyment or I should say that I am looking forward to the working days due to some F**** reason happened last week... Sometimes I really wonder what does this world have for me?? I seriously have no idea to this question, all I can say is that whatever it is I will stay strong there till the last day of work...

I dislike working with people that thinks highly of their ability... If they are smart come and do the task that is assigned to me and I will resign for good!! I have learnt that there's no true colleagues at work, but there are still some nice ones whom are always there for me whenever I have a questions to ask... Thanks to those nice ones!

Talk less, work more, and I can go home on time if there isn't any shites happens...

Right now, I am really looking forward for the lonnnnnnnnnnggggggggg weekends to come!

Have a great month ahead!

Monday Blues Is Looming!

2010-07-25T15:35:00.002+08:00

Arghx....

Monday blues is looming!!

I am crossing my fingers really tight, hopefully when I get back to work tomorrow my desk will not be flooded with zillions of stuff!!

Now I really treasure my weekends!

I can't wait for the next weekends to arrive...

Monday Blues Is Looming!

2010-07-25T15:35:00.001+08:00

Arghx....

Monday blues is looming!!

I am crossing my fingers really tight, hopefully when I get back to work tomorrow my desk will not be flooded with zillions of stuff!!

Now I really treasure my weekends!

I can't wait for the next weekends to arrive...

I am back from RWS!

2010-07-24T14:13:00.001+08:00

I am back from RWS for a night stay!

Alright, never been able to sleep well last night, therefore I would be rolling into my bed soon after I finish typing over here!

That's all, my brain cells are tired will blog more when I got the brain cells back!

ZzzzZzzzZzzz....!

Updates!

2010-07-23T09:28:00.003+08:00

My bad for not keeping my bloggie update due to high work volume at work and in life! I shall do a quick review!

At work...

Apparently, I have been working for 2 weeks already and in between the lines many ups and downs but I manage to wave them all down, yayy to my willpower! Work is no longer and enjoyment for me or I should say that I no longer looking forward to those workings days... I have been bogged down with work till I get very tired after work, I wished that I have more time spend at home! During the second week of work, I am down with cough and flu, and there's it's goes MC!! I guess I really need a clean environment for work, either my immune system or the dust that causes everything...

Now I finally realize that there's no good colleagues there compare to AIA Tampines, people there are so damn proud and think highly about themselves... Imagine working with aunties around you makes you feel so uncomfortable, especially when there's a auntie who keep finding problems for me... I also hate it when they blame me for a thing which I never even do, serious it's getting into my nerves already... I may even shorten my contact with them because I CAN'T TAKE IT ALREADY!

Apparently, either I lead a good life that I could just shake legs at home because, now eczema is on me... :( The funniest thing is that when I am at work the rashes start coming back but when I am at home I am okay! Hopefully that the eczema will be alright, but I have seen a doctor last night over this issue, doctor say that it's clear that eczema is for life which means no cure already! To prevent it, use more hand cream, don't wash hands as frequent!

That's all for work, from NOW TILL 13 DEC 2010 ALL I HAVE TO DO IS 忍!!

LIFE!

Well, life has been a roller coaster ride for me since the day back to work!

Apparently, now I have lesser time spend at home, I really do miss those times at home doing nothing and of cos my 12 hours of sleep... Hahs! The 1 year odd spend at home was a good one because I no need to go to work and I can do what I want that no body cares!

Now that time is really tight, I really hope that I could meet up my besties for some kopi and gossip sessions! And yesh, I have arrange a dinner session with Bestie Jennifer, my youngest brother on 31st july 2010! I am looking forward... I really hope that time will permits me to meet up with Bestie Janice and of cos Priscilia Jie jie and her daughter lil' Samantha!

Even I am in the mist of being busy, I do still spend QT with Baby Love, and I hope that he will be more understanding now because I am back at work! Well, shall not reveal more over here because there's some uninvited people reading my blog, either they link from my friend to me or what so ever!

Well, right now I am chatting with Bestie E over FB, I am happy that Bestie E really still remember me as a friend after Bestie E got married... Bestie E, is a good and best friend of mine, who never fails to be there for me whenever I am feeling up or down or even I am sick, Bestie E will pop by a sms asking how am I feeling despite of Bestie E tight schedule... Bestie E, thank you for the many many years of friendship... I remember econs ago, during a very late night I ring you up over some issues and you were in the mist of a meeting at night, that you told me you'll ring me back and thanks for ringing me back despite of your tight time in catching the plane... I really do appreciate it... I hope that in many years to come, our friendship will be counting for more! For Bestie E, who told me that never even reminds friend with those past tense ex, or even to keep in touch, now I finally understand Bestie E saying! Bestie E, hope to meet up with you really soon... =)

To that uninvited reader(you know who you are):

Please STOP viewing/reading my blog, because whatever you read over here you will start to pick a fight with your bf, and he would start to send me text message by doing some probing and there's he goes the real reason of texting me! I will not listen to that idiot who give me the text message just to ask me to stop writing him into my blog... FYI, I have never ever wrote anything about you over my blog since you decide things your way, now I will not let you into control of me... I am free to do what I want and not letting you pleasing me over the message after we left un-touch for years ago! So can your gf, stop being paranoid! That's all I wanna say, if you both start to quarrel that's your problem not mine! Don't put your problem onto mine problem, I have no time to entertain your rubbish! The more that idiot please me not to I will do it even more because I don't see a point of me to listen to his rubbish!

Alright, that's all!

Promise to blog more when I am back tomorrow noon!

Have a great weekend!

... Haiz...

2010-07-11T12:47:00.002+08:00

Argggggghhhhhxxxxx.........

After the first week at work, I am down with cough, flu and this morning I lose my voice, so thanks to the dusty environment in the office...

Apparently, I went to visit the doctor this morning because I could not even speak properly, so I brave myself to visit the after one month later of recovering from the previous illness and I am back there again... I have been telling myself not to be sick but the dust just love me so much that they want the doctor to earn some income from mummy's wallet!! Hurhur!

I told myself that I had even of medication taken over the last two months, and I have no idea why does this bug keep coming back to me... I really wish that I will be healthier a bit more!!

I need a dust free office!!

Haiz!

For now I keeping my fingers crossed tightly!!

Wish me speedy recovery!

Promise to update more when I am better!

YESH!!

2010-07-01T13:04:00.002+08:00

Yesh, I am officially employed by AIA again!!

*Laughs*

After going one BIG round I am back with AIA but this time round isn't at AIA Tampines, but is at AIA Tower!

A different area, a different department, with different colleagues and bosses...

I really do hope that I can adapts to the changes, this time round my bosses are female, and I dare not think about working with female bosses, because they usually not very nice compared to males bosses... I admit, working with male bosses life would be really care-free unlike the female bosses... This will be the first time for me to work with female bosses there, I really hope that they will treat me well and nice...

Anyway, it's just a 6 months assignment, and after that I would be able to go and further my studies in either Early childhood or Business Admin...

I am enjoying my last 4 days of holiday, after wondering and pondering for a year plus and now I would really go back to the working society...

I wish nothing but the best for myself...

我好累。。。

2010-06-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

我好累，好想睡觉。。。

Is Better!

2010-06-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

I personally thinks that KS agency located at Tampines is better then the one at international plaza... The consultant of KS located at Tampines is much more helpful and provide me a good service and they are really polite... Unlike the one at international plaza, I shall not name the consultant at international plaza...

Anyway, I gotten a phone interview with crocs asia last afternoon and I will be going for interview on Monday for Starhub... Anyway, I guess even RE agency I can't even rely on them, they don't provide good service and they even scream at me over the phone...

I do hope that everything will turn out well for me...

So do wish me luck!

On the side note, I have been talking over the phone with bestie Jennifer recently, it's great talking to her... I do hope that time will permits us to meet up for shopping uhh... :D

Good Night World!

=(

2010-06-24T14:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know why am I feeling so moody....

It's been a very tiring and full of worries weeks ahead of me, I been wondering and pondering should I give up in everything? Because its making me deadly STRESS, and it leads to those nights that I couldn't even sleep well... I really hope that my brain cells and STOP all these rubbish issues and what-nots!!

Sometimes I really wonder, what does my life have for me? There's isn't any answer to this question... Life a series of obstacles I guess, for nothing good happens to me always... The best thing in my life was that late granny is with me, but now to me, I am all alone by myself... I no longer put on the smiles on my face now what I have is the very fake smile to plaster on to tell others I am happy, but I AM NOT!!!

For I know deep inside my heart there's only late granny sitting in there, she's the one whom never fail to be with me no matter I am sad or happy... She would try her best to give me everything that I ask for... Granny, if you are here, I want you to know that I can't forget you and I seriously missed you deeply...

I always believe that late granny is watching me in heaven, I know she tries her best to protect me from and harm and danger... I can say that late granny is the one whom always make me feel loved with her around me... But this feeling has gone for 4 years, I told myself to be strong and happy here but I can't because she's my important love one that I have... I admit, there's parents and siblings but I am much closer to late granny...

I missed everything about her!!

I wished that she could stay a lil' bit longer in my dreams every night... I have so much to tell her, so much that I wish she could just appear in front of me... I know it's impossible, silly me!!

No one understand me~~

I am living in my own world!

It's Raining~

2010-06-23T13:54:00.002+08:00

It's raining heavily at the east area of SG!!

The weather is much cooling compared to the past few days weather which leads me to those nights that I simply can't sleep well...

Apparently, I have no idea why does this raining weather makes me feel so emo... I admit, I haven't been wondering and pondering around for the past few days... Some issues on hand makes me really feel very mood whenever the clock ticks to 12 midnight...

One of the reason being is getting a job now isn't any easy alright, I have been sending in e-mail to agency or directly to the company yes, they called me up for interview but after which they either didn't get back to you or they will call me back a few weeks later and ask me the same old question which really makes me feel very fed up!!! I have no idea what's going on, can anyone please help me by letting me which recruitment agency can be trusted??

I guess, there's too much for me to worry now, I just want my life to be happy and stress free is it so difficult for it to come true?? Anyway, I digress!!

Another reason being, I have been thinking is this friend of mine is trying to ignore me whenever I message the friend via Facebook, the friend either ignore my message or pretend nothing happen!! I don't know, these 8 years of friendship will it end just like this? I remember, the friend usually talk to me via Facebook whenever I am online...

To me, there's only two true friendship, that's Bestie Jennifer and Bestie Janice...

Anyway, the aching of my legs has reduce but still a bit painful... I hope it goes away soon!!

Legs Are ACHING~~

2010-06-22T15:39:00.001+08:00

I seriously don't know what happen...

My legs are aching like hell since last night...

Makes me wants to chop off my BOTH LEGS!!!

I am extremely sleepy too!

Toy Story 3

2010-06-20T12:11:00.001+08:00

Nice movie!

I watched it yesterday!

I Made It!

2010-06-19T12:59:00.002+08:00

Yesh, I made it by putting my own photo as my blog page!

Apparently, last night I was trying very hard to figure out how can this be done, therefore I went to click the PS on my desktop and from there my "ideas" came and I have put it up there!!!

Doing those editing is not easy as I am not a PS pro uhh, then went over to photo bucket to get those code done for blog and YESH I MADE IT after so lonnnggggggggg!

And I will still continue to brush my skills at PS so that I could come out with new design!

Weee!!!

Alright and I am going to watch TOY STORY 3 in the late afternoon with Baby Love!

Have a great weekends ahead!

....

2010-06-19T01:37:00.001+08:00

Nothing, but Goodnight world!

(Promise to blog more when my brain cells is back)

Slowly,Waving,Kissing-GOODBYE

2010-06-13T13:37:00.003+08:00

I am slowly, waving, kissing a GOODBYE to the BUG!!

And still I am keeping my fingers crossed well for that to happen soon! Imagine yourself, not able to consume your favourite food and drinks when you are sick uhh... It really makes me feel as if I am in a jail room alright!

But still, Mummy dearest won't not allow me to take those food I like partly because she is worried that I will be sick again, according to her dictionary, CHICKEN and COLD DRINKS are those top killer for me! *Sigh* There goes my all time favourite ICED LEMON TEA and CHICKEN!! *Laughs*

I am very determine to be healthy and I want my health back because I really dislike the feeling of being sick and yet so much things that I can't do, like interview(s) and what-nots!

I wish nothing but GOOD HEALTH on me!!

Apparently, cough had gone down and the flu bug is still around me either they love me or that my metabolism system is low!

That's all for now!

slowly,waving,kissing-GOODBYE!

It's been a week~

2010-06-11T14:18:00.004+08:00

It's been a week that I am sick, and I am still bit by bit to reach the free of bug zone~~

*Laughs*

I must say that during this period of me being sick, I have become somewhat lazy and tends to get sleepy easily due to the heavy dose of medication in my body system... And I really hope that I will reach the FREE BUG ZONE soon...

It's not very nice to be sick for like weeks, after recovering from previous sick bug and then it went back to my body again and I really want this bug to leave me alone... I admit, the days when I am sick, I tend to be a lil' bored over life and over loads of stuff... Simply because the medication is kicking in and making me feel so exhausted each time after I took the medicines...

Wish nothing but this BUG to leave me ALONE forever!

I am tired...

Time for bed!!

I am becoming a OINK!!

*Laughs*

TGIF!!!

HURRAY!!!

很烦。。。

2010-06-10T16:49:00.002+08:00

我很烦。。。

Am I Feeling Better?

2010-06-09T16:22:00.004+08:00

The answer is YESH!!

Maybe the flu and cough have reduce but the phlegm is still there but I must say that the doctor really helps me a lot...

As I have never mention, I took this particular tablet but I feel like as if I am floating so I have stop the course of that particular medication and continue with the rest of the medicines that the doctor has prescribe me...

Hopefully I will be well soon for this weekends uhh...

More aqua~~

On a side note, I have no idea why does this particular agency is getting into my nerves I wouldn't make the company because I don't wanna get myself into trouble... She knew that I am sick and yet she call me up to give me a great dressing down that I shouldn't have been sick and all the blah blah blah start coming out of her mouth... She's rude a very rude agent which I would not rely on anymore...

Meanwhile, anyone have good recommendation of job agency please drop me a msg on my tag board... Thanks Thanks:)

Wish me speedy recovery soon!!

3rd Time In A Row!

2010-06-08T12:47:00.002+08:00

TinGz is feeling tired or exhausted even... :(

Just imagine when all the phlegm has been struck onto my throat which make me feel really upset my throat for days already,Yeah, you get the drift... :P

Even if Im on medication, I still find that my body is being immune to antibiotic or that it's simply not working on me at all. I ought to know that somewhat Im feeling much better like cough has been reduce, however, now Im feeling the "dry cough" which might explains to why my phlegm is being struck onto the throat and that I couldn't puke the phlegm out.*Drats*

Apparently, I had visited the doctor for the 3rd time and I hope that I will get better soon so that I could make it for all the interviews and what-nots coming on the way...

I admit, recently, I hasn't been active due to the flu and cough I had which makes me feel very irritated... I really do hope that I will get well soon, because I hate the feeling to be sick uhh... When one is sick, they tends to be kinda moody or very emotional... As for me, I feel kinda moody, because sometimes, things never comes in the way I wanted or I had plan...

That's all for today:))

4 Years On...

2010-06-04T15:40:00.002+08:00

It's been 4 years on since my late paternal grandma leave us...It's her death anniversary yesterday and we did do those rights for her anniversary...Apparently, I still can accept the fact that she has leave us for 4 years, sometimes when I think of her tears will just roll down of my cheeks...

I tried to accept that she has left us and goes to a world without any pain for her, memories of her will be kept inside my heart forever... She's the one whom never failed to be by my sick whenever I am sad, got scolded from dad or even when I am sick she would always be ready to look after me... I ought to know that she's with me throughout my 17 years of life, but grandma was the one who have a nice heart to us... She had never once vent her anger on us whenever she's mood, she would try her best to plaster the sweet smiles on her face and we feel good with her great smiles...

Somehow somewhere along the lines, granny always tried her best to give us the best that she could and I thank her for taking great care of me and my siblings... I have learnt to be strong in life without granny by my side... Many a times, I feel like giving up in life but the lil' voice of her will make me wanna go on... Thank you granny...

She is the one who come into my life and teach me in life journey... I remembered during my school days, granny will be there to make sure we had our breakfast or lunch before heading to school... And during exams period, she would get off of her bed to make sure I don't stay up late to revise for the exams... She has never pressure me in my school days, all she wanted was us to be happy and all she wanted was us to give our best in our studies...

I believe that whatever I have done, she could see it wherever she is, I believe she's feeling happy over there and spend many great time with her mum(my late paternal great-granny)...

Granny, I hope you are well there...

Granny, I hope you are happy there...

I know I never say this to her before but I am saying it over here:

Granny, thank you very much for all the love and care you have given me,I really do LOVE YOU alot... I will always put the memories of me and you in my heart... You are deeply missed...

Granny, please don't be worried for me, I am doing well here and I am contented with what I have now...

GRANNY I LOVE YOU:))

Sick Again!

2010-06-03T12:07:00.002+08:00

Haiz!!

I am down with a BAD cough!!

I am down with FEVER which makes my head feel so painful!!

Is just last last week that I am recovering and now the bug is back on me, either the bug love me or I am weak!

Reflection

2010-06-02T14:08:00.003+08:00

I am back to blogging after days of not being active over here!!

First and foremost, I have witness youngest brother enlistment which is yesterday and Mummy dearest and I brought brother to his unit at CCK that's FAR alright!

I couldn't believe this but really youngest brother has grown up, from a small boy to a big boy who is serving the country for the next two years in his army life... I guess brother would never believe this that his quarter life journey begins now...

Along the lines, I have seen brother through his ups and downs from a young naughty boy to a big boy now... Brother has always trying his best in his life and I am proud of him being able to complete his studies and move on to army and after that I guess he would be taking some course of photography after his NS life...

Apparently, I have been worrying about how is he going to attempt his army life and worry that he can't get out of the bed on time... Too much to worry, but I guess he's have grown up and gotta learn to be independent...

On a side note, brother never fails in putting a great smile on his face whenever I am mood or so, he would be there trying his very best to clown himself and make me laugh after a seconds later... Thanks for the effort brother...

And now me, the cough bug is back on me!!! I hate the bug on me!!

*Humpfz*

Happy Birthday Bestie!

2010-05-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

It's finally here!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE ERIC!

Bestie Eric's quarter -life journey is officially today!!) *Wry smiles*

And although I hasn’t been seen him in the flesh for a year odd but, I do hope that he's much happier ! *LauGhs*

May this day be filled with joy, love, present and plenty of booze, hur hur!

Enjoy your holiday bestie:D

Arghx... BATTERY!!!

2010-05-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

Right now at this moment, my brainy is thinking to or not to send my cellphone for service!!

Apparently, I had called up SE this afternoon regarding the battery warranty and they just give me and short and simple reply, " bring your phone down to SE"... Omg, their service really sucks alright,it's a malay salesgirls who pick up the line...

Therefore I guess, I should GO SE tomorrow in the late afternoon!! Arghx, why does this unfunction battery always get into my nerves... I purchase this bloody phone not even a year and I will be going there to get the battery change again for the SECOND time and I am still counting my fingers alright!!

*Humpfz*

When one is not in a good mood, unusal things do happen once in a while!!! I hope that they will solve my problem tomorrow because I dislike going their for their lousy SERVICE!!!

And it's the lonnnnnnggggg weekends that is looming:)) WEEEEeeeeeeeeeeee :DD

I just love longggggg weekends...

If only everyday is FRIDAY...

Either Cranky Hp Battery Or Cranky Power Supply!

2010-05-26T23:29:00.002+08:00

This is running into my fingers...

Either the power supply or the power socket is cranky or either hp battery are cranky!!

I am totally clueless!!

I have no idea why is this shites happening again and again... I noticed it whenever I charge my cellphone at the living room, the phone won't last me for 4 days odd!!

Apparently, I have tested it charging in brother's room and nothing went WRONG!! Therefore, I am thinking either battery cranky or the socket outside the living room is cranky...

No idea~~

But I am going to do a TEST again, by charging it in brother's roomy tonight...

I admit, I went to SE to get a NEW BATTERY last Nov 2009 went I got this bloody new mobile it never gives me a DAY of PEACE!!

Seriously, SE is not doing well in their mobiles parts... :(

Goodnight world!

=( :(

2010-05-25T23:47:00.001+08:00

LEGS ARE ACHING!!!

Too much to blog but brain cells are killing~~~

Tomorrow I promise....

阿嬤的話

2010-05-23T01:38:00.003+08:00

This song reminds me of her...

I miss her deeply...

Every lil' things about her I remembered deeply in my heart~~

She's my greatest~~

I Love Her Very Much...

I hope she's doing well out there...

In a week times, it will be her death anniversary... 4 years on, I still can't accept the fact that she's gone... She have go to a place very far which I can't call her or see her...

To be contiuned in a week later...

*Hugs*

I am FULL~~

2010-05-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

For the first time I am feeling very bloated with FOOD~~

I had "ban mian" this morning...

Then...

QQ rice and bubble tea this afternoon...

Then...

Went Kim Gary for dinner and I had mushroom pork rice and a BIG CUP of Honey Lemon...

Then back home...

Ate "dang hoon" before I could take my medicines...

I BET I am growing FATTER!! SINFUL!!

*Laughs*..

Goodnight World~~

:)

NOISE!!!

2010-05-22T12:00:00.004+08:00

Second post of the day...

Apparently,this morning I woke up at 9am due to the NOISE pollution which was travelling from so idiots who are living above me...

It's weekends and they are making so much noise in moving their furniture I guess?? Initially, I wanted to go up and complain but Mummy Dearest told me its been like days ago they are making such noise...

*SIGH*

Therefore my sleeps goes off just like that...

Imagine having such a nice weather to sleep and those noise are travelling even louder after minutes, its makes one person feel very fed up uhh... =(

I am tired....

To be continued...

=)

Aching~~

2010-05-22T01:46:00.001+08:00

Apparently the flu and cough bug is still around me~~

Now add on to one more rider, legs are aching and I have no idea why??

GOODNIGHT WORLD~~

:)

To be contiuned....

Why Does The Virus Still Here~~

2010-05-21T12:49:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I have no idea why does the virus still here with me??

Yesh, I am feeling much better but the "COUGHING" still here~~~

Flu has gone down, sore throat that I have conquer...

Now the only worries is COUGH and FLU!!

Can these two very strong virus get out of my way please... :((

On a sidenote, I have been feel very tired recently, I have no idea what's the course of it but I am still determined not to be tired over those issues I have on hand...

Apparently, one reason of me being sick was due to the stress level I had encounter when I was working with relativie for one week and I gave up eventually.... I guess endings has its pros and cons and everyone that had help me in one way or either I am really very grateful...

I really dislike the feeling of being sick because its makes one person gets very sleepy and moods tends to swing as and when...

Initially, I was thinking of catching up with Bestie Jennifer but time hasn't allow me to do so recently,and I really miss those shopping moments with her... So time please permits me to meet up with Bestie Jennifer... My bad, for not meeting up with you bestie more to tell when I get to see you in flash uhh... =)

God please get the virus out of me~~

Thanks thanks~~

:D

:(

2010-05-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

=(

I am coughing like hell now~~

I need to go to a place which NO ONE is unhappy with me~~

I guess at the end of the day, sleeping ends all thoughts~~

Never been feeling lonely before!!

No one ever understands me!!

I missed those great moments with her~~

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh :(((

2010-05-15T21:53:00.002+08:00

Can the virus of flu and block nose and ear please go FAR FAR away from ME!!!

It seems that those virus is not getting away except for sore throat...

I hate it when those block nose and ear find their way to me, I feel so many uncomfortable with them all around me...

I admit, I am trying very hard to get rid of all these virus, but maybe those virus just likes to stay by my side until they make me agony and eventually they will leave me alone...

I want a good night sleep please!!!

:(((

我生病了。。。

2010-05-13T21:37:00.003+08:00

我生病了。。。

感冒了。。。

喉咙痛了。。。

生病的感觉真得很不好受。。。

不之不觉的 fever 就来了。。。

我希望明天我会好起来。。。

可能是最近的烦恼震得让我觉得累了所以就生病了。。。

Please wish me speedy recovery so that I am able to fight for those aims I have in life...

:DD

Sore Throat

2010-05-12T14:12:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why does this virus of "SORE THROAT" keep finding their way into my body... This time round, it's really painful and I just feel like digging out my throat for an exchange... *Laughs*

Apparently, this sore throat virus has come way into me and it always out and in to visit me like a regular friend... *Cross finger* If I am still feeling unwell, I shall visit the doctor soon... I guess that the doctor is waiting to earn some $$ from mummy's pocket... *Laughs*

Tried many ways to get rid of this virus but each time the pain worsen and make me don't even feel like talking or eating... *Sigh*

Does drinking more water helps??

No idea, but will drink loads of water to keep the virus far far away from me...

:((

My Bestie Friend "E"

2010-05-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how many times I have been chating with this Bestie friend called "E"... So many times, as in, I have always been the one to chat with "E" over MSN or FB techology...

It came to my surprise actually "E" started chatting with me over FB last afternoon, I so like omg!! Hahs!Cos "E" never once started a say HI to me, it's always me who started the HI thingy... I am pleased and happy that "E" didn't forget me as a BESTIE FRIEND! *Smiles*

I am counting the years of friendship we had share ever since I knew "E" when I was in Secondary school back then! It's amazing how all these techonology get as still keep in touch...

Apparently, "E" is enjoying "E" new life uhh... I shall not reveal anything over here... I am happy in one way or another that "E" do still keep our friendship close to heart...

Hereby, I wish "E" Happy Birthday In Advance:)))

8 years and counting:DD

I Give Up~~

2010-05-10T14:09:00.002+08:00

Yesh, I give up the job last friday after some hard time wondering and pondering does ending this makes me feel happier and I guess YESH!!

I know it's no easy to work with relative but I guess this is the experience gain and I understand well enough of me that I still like working in the outside industry that does not even relate to relatives...

I made this hard decision after 4 days at work and I feel somehow now I am lighten and stress free... Well my cousin was the one who keep me feel stress up and I merely told myself that I must endure till the end but yes, somehow somewhere along the lines, I give up... And this is the first time that I am giving up, because I dislike forcing myself to do something which I don't like and make myself feel like as if I am a animal over there...

Things have come clear to me, making this decision not only alone but with Mummy dearest and Baby love beside me telling me that there's pros and cons in giving up... I happy that both of my parents understand and they didn't blame me or anything... I wanna say a big thank you to my parents, thank you for the understanding... They knew that I wasn't happy over the week there, and if by giving up makes me feel happier I guess they will be happier too...

Right now, I am still busy looking out for jobs asking my agents for help and I do hope that I will get the reply fast...

Now I feel much lively, happier and stress free~~~

Whenever there's a decision to be made, I am glad that Mummy dearest will always be there for me hearing all my complains... And Thank you Baby Love, for encouraging me in one way or another...

This chapter has been closed... I am not going to reveal anything over here...

Have a great week ahead!!

Is Enjoying My LAST Holiday Before Going to WORK~~

2010-05-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

Yesh... I am enjoying my LAST day of holiday before the start of working life after 1year on...

I admit during that 1 year I have been wondering and pondering a lot and I am finally getting back to WORK~~ Cheerios!!

I am happy~

But I am also sianed, that no more slacking for me but to go to work on weekdays and yesh is 9-6 job!!

So I am enjoying my LAST holiday very much.....

I promise to update more when I am free from work uhh...

*Laughs*

I've Got The Feeling... SICK!!

2010-04-28T16:36:00.002+08:00

I have got the feeling of getting SICK!!

That might explains to headache, dry throat and I guess some other virus like "flu bug, cough" is coming on their way to join the family!!

Apparently, I have come in close contact to those who are sick recently, like the two kids of bf's nephew and niece, bf's brother/ sis-in-law! All that are sick has pass the virus down to Baby Love now... And I guess I'm the next one, but I am still keeping my finger crossed tightly...

I just dislike the feeling of getting or being sick!! It makes someone feel really dread sleepy and tired...

May all the virus go out of my way!!

Headache!!!

Last week of rotting...

2010-04-26T01:14:00.003+08:00

Well, I am here to kiss goodbye to my 1 full year of slacking and rotting...

And I am enjoying my LAST week of "rotting" before going back to the working society uhh...

Apparently, I've been slacking wayy too much for the one year odd and now I will be starting my working life as of 3rd May 2010...

Therefore I am officially employed for the next three months, and I do that this will last me till the end of the year, if only next three months nothing goes wrong and I will keep myself there till the end of the year!

Well, it's a 5 working day job, and yesh 9-6 job!Yesh admin!!

And I know everyone there well enough ever since I am a baby! *Hint hint*

Overall, I am contented, more things to learn ahead and save up for the year end trip!

I promise to do a self-reflection over the pass 1 year what I have done since I am jobless! *Laughs*

Right now, I am still enjoying the LAST WEEK of NUA-ing life!!

:DD

天黑了。。。

2010-04-25T01:46:00.004+08:00

天黑了，你会想起谁？？

天黑了，你会在我身边陪着我吗??

天黑了，我都会想起奶奶。。。

天黑了，我知道奶奶一定会守护我。。。

天黑了，不开心的事情会过去，而快乐得回忆永远存在。。。

天黑了，我不要害怕，因为奶奶是天上的一颗星星。。。

天黑了，就要好好的睡觉，因为明天会跟好。。。

天黑了，闭上眼睛好好地做个快乐了的梦吧。。。

天黑了，奶奶会牵着我的手，轻轻地说，奶奶永远不会离开你。。。

奶奶，谢谢你，重视在我不开心的时候在我身边陪着我。。。

好想说，奶奶，我好想你，我也很爱你。。。

奶奶你永远是我最爱的人。。。你是我唯一活下去的勇气。。。

我再也不会哭泣了。。。

快乐随风而来。。。

加油婷！！！！

我可以。。。

LAZY!

2010-04-19T12:08:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone!!

I know, I hasn't been keeping my bloggie updated recently, simply because either am I tired or too lazy to blog so might as well, too much for me to blog but fingers are getting lazy nowadays... My bad! >.<

Well, I am still searching and looking out for jobs and I do hope to get one soon... For now I am keeping my fingers crossed well...

Hahs!

Wish me more luck!

:DD

Ramblings

2010-04-02T23:07:00.001+08:00

I'm TIRED~~

I have MADE IT~~

Short and sweet~~

Time for bed~~

Good Night World~~

:DD

A Good Starts From Here...

2010-04-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

A good starts which begins from here...

I had went for interviews for jobs that agent has given me, but there's nothing seem getting my interest!!

1. ACE Insurance = I am not good with numbers, so I wave them down!

2. UOB = I am not interested in their sales department job, waiting for a reply on coming Monday!

3. CAAS = Hopefully everything will go well and will head down for interview on this coming Tuesday! I am still keeping my finger crossed!!

Many times, I just wanna give up, because I am tired of everything, but there'll always be a voice inside of me telling me not to GIVE UP!!

With that voice inhered in me, I will go on and on!!

I believe I will succeed one day!!

阿嬷28 March 2010

2010-03-29T10:18:00.006+08:00

As mentioned on the previous post, that I'll be going to visit granny tomb...

Yes we did it on March 28 2010!

Belated post! My bad! >.<

As I am typing this post, I am sure that I AM MISSING HER... We woke up early last morning at about 4.15am, to get prepare and head down to the tomb for praying...

I only remembered that I visited Granny's tomb for the second time, it's gonna be four years odd that she left me and went to a place with no worries and pains... I could only remembered that sweet moments spend with Granny when she's still around with me... I almost cried when I was there last morning, I clean up Granny's tomb with her picture there and there's a few droplets of tears roll down my cheeks... I guess, loving someone you deeply love is something which called happy-ness...

But I am happy that, Granny is on the other side of the world enjoying her "天伦子路"...

I hope she's well~

I hope she's happy~

I hope she's with her mum/sisters/brother(my late great-granny/grand-aunts/grand-uncles)~

I hope she's still loving us~

I hope she's missing us~

I want NOTHING but HOPE she's happy, that's all I am asking~

There's a song which always remind me about her... But the song is in dialect, but it's meaningful...

阿嬷，你现在听到我在叫你吗？？

阿嬷，我很想你。。。

阿嬷，希望你过得好。。。

阿嬷，你是我永远最爱的人，谢谢你在我生命理陪我度过每一天。。。

After 15 Days Of "In-active"!

2010-03-25T00:12:00.003+08:00

My apologies, for not keep my bloggie updated over this period of 15 days...

There are many reasons of me being "in-active" over here...

First of all, I am just so lazy to keep my fingers away from blog, either I am lazy or I am just too lazy to update what had happen over the 15 days of MIA!!

Secondly,I am just wayy to busy searching for jobs and busy going for interview, which might make me feel tired once I am home!!

Thirdly, the weather is getting cold, which make me even more lazy to get a blog post type ready and post!

I can say, that I am wayy to stress up... Over lotsa things!!

I wanna a get a JOB soon~~

Which I have been looking like 3 months odd and still counting, and yesh, I am going for the career expo 2010 this coming Friday and I do hope that luck will be with me... :))

*Crossed fingers*

And not forgetting, my NDS is keeping me hooked on it!!

It's like getting me crazy!!

*Laughs*

Apparently, I am looking forward to this coming weekends! Well, it will be the 2nd time visit to Granny's tomb... It's been long since I last pay my respect over there...

I really miss her deeply...

Once a year visit to Granny's tomb for "qing-ming jie" according to Chinese calendar !!

That's all for now...

It's bedtime!

Good night world =)

I MISS HER~~

2010-03-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

I miss everything about her~~

I miss those times she was around~~

I miss those times that she would always make sure I have all my meals before and after school~~

I miss those times, she cuddle me to bed~~

I miss those times that she would always be ready for me whenever I am feeling sad or troubled~~

I miss her cooking~~

I miss her smiles~~

I miss her calling me~~

I miss her hugs~~

I miss those times spend together~~

I miss those times that she would bring me to the market on weekends~~

I miss those times that she would wake up in the middle of the night to make sure that I sleep well before exams~~

Granny I really MISS YOU~~

Granny was the one whom never fails to understand me~~

There's so many "missed" her moments!!

So many things I wanna share with her, but she's no longer here...

Granny, if you can hear me, I hope that you will continue to be in my heart always till one day we met in the other earth~~

Granny, I want you to know that your my GREATEST LOVE~~

You are a Granny whom I always love~~~

You are a Granny whom always making sure that all your grandchildren(s) are alright~~ (be it happy, sad or when we fall sick)

Granny, thanks for the many many miles you have done for us~~

I choose not to remember the years she have left us, because I don't want memories to fade away...

Granny, I LOVE YOU DEEPLY~~~

I MISS YOU DEEPLY~~

Missed by: ah ting~~

Good Start

2010-03-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

Apparently, I hasn't been keeping my bloggie active!

Reasons was, I am just lazy alright!

What does "Good starts" means??

I had a wonderful last day of the CNY! I am keeping my mouth shut over here, cos there's certain stuff which I better keep it to myself!

Hahs!

Anyways, I am looking forward to the good start of the rest of TIGER year!

*Laughs*

Wonderful times, wonderful happy-ness!

And Yesh, I have gotten my DS lite after so many years down the road!

And next, HELLO KITTY Crocs, which I promise!

So WAIT FOR ME!!!!

=)

Smiles~~

Weekends

2010-02-27T14:10:00.002+08:00

It's another weekends!

Weekends to me are usually very special and filled with FUN!

But now I no longer looking forward to weekends because, weekends are usually for me and Baby Love heading down to town for some walk or even to catch a movie or even just roam around...

After a year on, weekends are now similar to those normal weekdays like, going to over to Baby Love's house... I hate to have weekends special over there...

Imagine yourself, almost 4 days in a weekdays spend at his house doing nothing... *Sigh*

So weekends for me now, it's really BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a good weekends :)

Gambateh!!

2010-02-20T23:47:00.001+08:00

Just one word in mind now...

GAMBATEH!!

In everything I do, I wish nothing but the best... Hopefully everything falls in place for me, and I would be less stress out! *Cross fingers*

:DD

Random Ramblings...

2010-02-19T08:51:00.001+08:00

I admit that I've been very busy during CNY!

So my bad, for not keeping my bloggie updated... >.<

Anyway, how's everyone "angpow" collection??

For me it's a TOP SECRET!

*Laughs*

Apparently, I have been receiving calls from agents recently regarding my job searching... And I've got many eye catchy jobs that I am really eyeing for, for a long long time...

And I pray that luck will continue to be with throughout the year...

I am sleep deprived now!

Imagine tears has been rolling for 4 hours in a roll, it will get one person very tired and eye sight eventually went blurry... *Cross finger*

Sometimes I wonder, why life has been so unfair to me? Why life has been giving so much sadness? I give all these a big question mark?? I wish nothing but the best for me..

Somewhere,somehow along the lines, I feel like as if I am dead! I am feeling tired and maybe it's really getting tired ... :((

Sadness will only go went you try to forget but it not easy as what you may think... Many times, I tell myself, everything would be fine... But nothings goes fine in the end...

I guess for now, sleeping ends all thoughts!

As I mark down this post, I am already half dead!

:D

BYE COW, HELLO TIGER!!

2010-02-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

BYE to the Year of COW!!

BYE to all those unhappy moments too...

Hello to the Year of TIGER!

More luck on me please!!

Be healthier!!

Be happier!!

That's all I am asking!!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!

HUAT!!

CNY!!

2010-02-11T16:15:00.002+08:00

2 More days to CNY!!

2 More days to TIGER YEAR!!

I wish nothing but the BEST througout the TIGER YEAR!!

CNY shopping almost done...

Gonna get my bag tomorrow hopefully!!

I know I have been very LAZY to keep my blog updated...

Reason being- busy with those spring cleaning which makes me feel real exhausted at the end of the day...

For the next couples of days I am sure that I gonna be filled with lotsa FUN!!

*Crossed fingers*

Hurhur!!

Out of LUCK!!

2010-02-05T12:51:00.003+08:00

My creative ear piece went dead on me!!

My favourite dress button drop out one me!!

My chest and heart is giving me PAIN!!

Am I really out of luck??

Got a replace for my earpiece yesterday and brought back the same brand creative in ear, ear piece...

Got the dress button replace too!

But chest and heart cannot be replace! *Laughs*

I ought to know that the pain has reduce and I am feeling much better but I am still a lil' worried!

Arghxxx...

1st Post Of FEB 2010!

2010-02-01T17:34:00.002+08:00

I am back after MIA-ed for like days without keeping my bloggie updated due to the busy-ness!

I am still searching and looking around for a suitable job for myself, and therefore I have went to meet up my new agent last Friday morning!

Apparently, last week of JAN 2010, was busy keeping Mummy dearest accompanied by helping the local economy shopping and Mummy dearest has gotten herself truckloads of CNY clothing's!! Mummy dearest enjoy the retail therapy session for 3 days during her off days...

Well as for me, I gotten myself a pair of jeans and a white dress from Mummy dearest! I am so far satisfied with it... More to loom by this coming Thursday with Bestie Jennifer... :) Hurhur!

Hopefully, I will get back to the corporate world real soon as there are many things I need to get and of cos to cure my boredom at home... *Laughs*

I am still keeping my finger crossed!!

*Crossed fingers*

:D

Have a great week ahead!

2 more weeks to CNY!!

Spring Cleaning For CNY!

2010-01-21T15:40:00.001+08:00

Spring cleaning for CNY 2010 has started...

And I am almost half-done with cleaning up the room and what-nots...

All this which might explains to backaches and all the aches which suppose to join them real soon... *Laughs*

I am not kidding, it's really tiring, it can drain out my bloodsteam by climbing up and down like a monkey! *Laughs*

More spring cleaning will be looming soon maybe next week as weekends are reserve for good times... Hurhur!

Anyway, I digressed!

:)

Ramblings

2010-01-19T17:28:00.003+08:00

First of all, work hunting hasn't been successful yet..

Many applications I send some has ring back in regarding of sending my CV to respective companies...

None of the companies ring me...

Therefore I will be still trying very hard to get back to the working society real soon and hope its before CNY!

Truth to be told, time hasn't allow me to catch up with Bestie Jennifer for a long time, however she has text me and asking me out on this coming Monday but will confirm with her again...

Anyway, I am looking forward for shopping spree this weekends and CNY is just round the corner and which means SHOPPING begins from NOW!! Yayy! *Hurray*

I have change my blogskin today, FYI, the section of " The Past" are not click able due to some reasons that the HTML code went literally cranky on me, so mean while use the Lables tab at the end of each post to read "the past" ...

Will update more when I am not LAZY!

*Laughs*

I Feared, I Cried, I Worried!

2010-01-16T12:32:00.003+08:00

I am feeling highly stressed up!

I am feeling highly moody!

I am feeling highly fed up!

I am feeling highly tired!

All that rubbish that adds onto my life is really giving me a hard time, I am just 1km near of giving up in everything...

Somehow somewhere along the lines, the rocks is getting real rocky and its resulting me to those upleasant thinking...

Like what I have always heard from friends, "life is like a box of chocolates, you will never know what you are going to get"! I totally agree with them...

For no apparent reason, I have no idea why is he giving me a hard time in everything, I have tried my best by giving in and all that I could... But he doesn't seems to be happy...

Seriously I have no idea what does being happy means to me??

Perhaps the times I use to be happy has already buried longgggg time ago, it's been 5years on and I never for once can forget about her in my life... She's the one whom I heart alot, she's the one whom will always be ready for me whenever I called upon... She has really gone to a place which is far far away that I couldn't see her...

Indeed I really do miss her very much... I wonders if she can see or hear me, I wish nothing but the best for her and for me too... I rememebered her in my dreams telling me to be happy and all that she wants from me was merely to be happy as ever as I could...

I know, I failed to do it... I fear, I cried, I worried... No one will ever love me as she does...

哭过就好了　　痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

I need a break to all those rubbish...

I want to be the happy girl I use to be!

:D

I am FUCKING TIRED

2010-01-14T14:12:00.003+08:00

"Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you."

One whom always creates quarrels for you but never once ever listen to me or believe me was something which makes me feel real upset about... It's all lies on him because he would always trying to me paranoid with what he saw online rather then to believe what I say... For this I am freaking out tired and seriously I am giving up, I do not want to probe or anything like this I would just keep my mouth shut because I knew that he would never ever believe me for once we are together... Perphas maybe this has prove to me that he never had confident in me not having faith with me...

For no reason,he would always be paranoid over stuffs he saw and being there excruciating things in his own ways and never once was in my way... Or maybe he felt tired listening to me... I admit, I am always the one compromising him in whatever he once but never once was mine! I give in all, I give my time, I give everything I can and all I get was nothing in return... He never once seems happy...

I have no idea what else should I do because I am freaking tired and I wish that I could just turn back time... I just don't seems to understand why can't he STOP being PARANOID! This is really freaking me out!

I have faith and confidence in him but never had that on me!

Now I realise that I was merely a problem or trouble for him, I guess that nothing will change... Here I am trying my best to keep this relationship and there he is putting all those funny quarrels out there...

I admit, I am being stressed up and all I want is to be happy everyday...

I gave my all.
I loved Him more than I did of my previous boyfriends;
Yet to be at the receiving end of such mistrust was just too much for me to swallow...

Im not an angel, neither am I perfect, I wished I was though -- I wished I had a magic wand to eradicate all the quarrels that we had inflicted upon us; to wave off all the unhappiness in your Life, and to make things between us right.

不喜欢怀疑什么　并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化　慢慢不同
我不是生气　　只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了　但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变　但不能
说　你会这么做是我的错

哭过就好了　伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱　　为了牵手
不是为了争吵　　为了调头

哭过就好了　　痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

Job Searching

2010-01-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

I am feeling really very bored at home...

But I am doing online search for jobs can be somewhat therapeutic...

Of cos there's manu research to be done before getting back to the coroprate world but however, I do hope that I will get the job with my interest in it... I am still keeping my fingers crossed well because I don't want anymore hips cups here and there which really leads me to a moody world...

Apparently, life hasn't been really happening because I am struck at where am I now... I want to lead my life well now and of cos letting parents to enjoy their soon after I am back to the corcoprate world...

I have been doing what I can in getting a job many methods I use and many source of applications I have been using...

And Yes...

Finally a agency called me back to confirm all my particulars and I hope that I could get into this particular job... I wouldn't want to probe anything over here before everything is CONFIRM!

Wish me luck!

:D

Mood-less

2010-01-10T22:04:00.003+08:00

It's the 2nd weekends for the Year 2010...

Weekends to me are just like any other days but weekends is reserved for QT with Baby Love...

I gotta admit that I have made a nice and yummy dinner for Baby Love today and I am sure that he loves it all...

Alright back to some usual updates on me...

I had there send many resume to companies out there and hope that I will get a reply soon because my brain is getting rusty after slacking over more than 6 months and it will be soon come close to a year if I don't get myself a job... Anyway wish me luck!

*Laughs*

Been really very mood-less nowadays, simple because I am tired and I wanna slow down the life walking steps because I need some fresh air... (Using fresher helps??) *Laughs*

I am just kidding!

Apparently, I am really looking forward to go back to the corporate world soon because I wanna start to earn money and save up for my year end trip and many other stuffs which I need in life....

Here are some things to get after I have work:

- Buy Sony Camera

- Lappy

- Year end trip

- Of cos, more dresses and heels

- Maybe a new mp3(Itouch)

- New mobile phone to replace C903

Alright, I guess that's all for now...

Am going to work hard to it...

Time for bed...

Good night world :)

Finding Jobs!

2010-01-08T00:14:00.005+08:00

I admit I hasn't been keeping my blog updated for the past few days...

I promise the things which I must do in the year 2010!

But there's nothing done for now...

Here's the list of " MUST DO 2010"

- Blog more.

- Get a stable JOB. (which I am still trying my best now) *Keep finger crossed*

- Save up for year end trip.

- Shopping for CNY, which I haven't yet started...

- Meet up with friends whom I haven't been seeing them like econs ago.

- Spend more QT time with love ones around me especially maternal grandparents and maternal great- grandmother! (I admit I hasn't do my part in playing the role)

- And of cos be HAPPY EVERYDAY! (By Dr E) Shhh *sercet*

That's all for the MUST DO 2010!

Apparently, I have been trying my very best in hunting for jobs be it over online application or through agency I have tried all and hope they will get back to me...

One thing which make me feels real fed up was, to ask my agent keep a look out for stable job or me but I didn't hear from her. Till today, I rang her and send her e-mail, she merely reply me which this " when I(agent) got the job I will call you (ME)"... I was like what the hell is this service from you, I have given her months and yet she could simply give no damn to it...

In most reason, I guess it's better to depend on myself rather then asking them a favor which I never want to do it... That was the only source I have then...

Anyway, I digressed!

*Pun-intended*

I promise myself to put in effort to find the best and suitable job for myself without anyone helping hands!

Wish me luck!

Till then!!

Good night world!

-_-zzzz

2010 Weekends!

2010-01-04T18:15:00.001+08:00

Apparently, the first weekends of 2010 begins with a literally loud bang!

Why do I say so?

Imagine you have a great fall to welcome the New Year wasn’t a very pleasant thing ever! I might have just merely smile during the fall but I didn’t as the pain was indeed irresistible and I remember vividly I was screaming in pain where no one come to help me or perhaps I should say there have one person who is in my life simply ignore me during the fall…

Anyway, I digressed!

I would never want myself to bring in the New Year with those injuries which really makes me feel that 2010 wouldn’t be a good year for me… I should have just crossed my fingers till then!

There’s only the pains that really brings me into a worst night ever! Never would I want myself to be suffering the pains on my knees and toe… For that I wouldn’t want anymore injuries to come by way, as I am really trying my best to wave down all those unpleasant stuff in life…

I guess there’s pros and cons in life but after all, what matters is just being happy am I right?

In some reasons or another, I want my life to be filled with brimming happy-ness, joy, laughter and LOVE to be filled in these category…

Anyway, it’s time for me to start “job hunting”!

:D

HELLO 2010!

2010-01-01T12:29:00.001+08:00

HELLO 2010!

A new beginning, a new journey, a new chapter in life which falls GOOD for the Year 2010!

I am crossing my fingers still BUT I HOPE that 2010 will be a kinder year for me as compared to 2009!

Of course 2010 hopefully I will get the job which I want and may all good things rolls together hand in hand!

Anyway, how’s everyone NYE!??

Anyway, I have digressed mine!

Because it’s another usual day…

*Laughs*

So later in the noon bits, I am heading of for dinner with Baby Love’s family over at his paternal grandparents place!

Hahs!

Have yourself a cheery 2010!

=)

Year 2009 In Quarterly Reflections...

2009-12-31T14:49:00.002+08:00

It's that time of year again! How a year has whizzed by me, not to mention how I've learnt so much about myself in 2009!

It just seems like it was last week when I was at the counting down at home with my siblings, hoping 2009 would be kinder to me! :P

So has 2009 been kinder to me like I had wished for when the clock struck midnight at home?

Read on... ...!!
:)

January - March 2009

Brand new 2009 was ushered in with a smile on my face, with me hoping 2009 would treat me much better after all the shites in 2008...

The early quarter saw me having heaps of busy-ness at work when I was still with my last insurance company. For the 3 odd months, I was busy with tons and zillions of work that I have to admit with, after which I have been wondering and pondering when should I end everything with AIA… Still I am deciding then!

And for the 3 months odd, it was filled with love, joy and laughter…

For it filled with love, I have found my partner on the particular month in FEB; it was really a sweet start from then on… I can’t imagine myself, falling in love again after all the shites that had happened in 2008!

April – June 2009

I remembered the month of April 29th, it was the day which I finally left AIA for good… I can only say that making decision on leaving this company was never a thing I like it, because I have made many friends there and bosses there treat me real well… So it come close to heart that I am leaving waving them goodbye and all I could say was they are great people there!

Thank you for all the laughter, joys, and sorrow spend together… And not forgetting my cliques whom are always ready to be there for me whenever I am down or need someone to listen to my nags! Thanks Thanks!

For the next 2 following months, I spend my days resting at home and of course spending much quality time with Baby Love and Mummy dearest… It was a slacking lonnngggg months ahead of me… *Laughs*

July – September 2009

For the month of July it was filled with celebrations because it was Baby Love’s nephew 3rd birthday… I could say that lil’ Ethan was really enjoying himself over the celebration…

And of course more QT with Baby Love, accompanying him for his wisdom extraction and more MC ahead for Baby Love which I hop by his place to be there for him…

In August, its another usual month, usual day spend with, with more slacking and sleeping at home and by now I feel like a PIG! *Laughs*

Nothing much happening after the month of August…!

For the month of September, I was trying to get myself another temp job, but it ended with loads of quarrels and what-nots which I shall not reveal over here… I have always been asking myself to do things which I don’t like and to compromise with Baby Love… But deep inside him, have he notice that I have always give in all he wanted and put myself into his shoes…

It’s another lonnnggg quarrels ahead over this working issues… Which I dislike it a lot, and I don’t like anyone to probe over this issue… I dislike being controlled by people, I love to do things my way and I want to be the one who is deciding my own future ahead!

*SiGh*

Never smoothing months ahead!

*Finger crossed*

*Pun-intented*

October - December 2008

I usually dislike the months after September intensely, for nothing good happens to me during this period...

Still as usual, same issues on hand, same quarrels, same topic and everything was like making me stop breathing for a while!

Apparently, this is the months which parents has been barking at me for get myself a job so that I can have my own income… But they didn’t know the reason behind it and that’s when they started shouting and nagging at me… I am doing all these not because of me but is because I am doing it for Baby Love, but have he ever put himself to my shoe facing the same situation with me??

Things when wrong, everyone was unhappy with me, I have done my best to make everyone happy but I am not happy neither!

What’s the point of making others happy while you are not??

*Blank*

I have therefore, explain to Baby Love and hope he will understand that not only “mans needs to work but women needs to work too”.

Imagine having your morning spoilt with scolding and nagging while you are having breakfast? It’s never NICE alight!

Topics of these will continue until I go back to work!

*I Pray*

For the month of November, it was filled with celebration too, it was Baby Love 22nd birthday, which I have spend with him for the first time in our relationship… I do hope that he loves what I have gave him and may be remain happy as ever!

I have gotta admit that, time hasn’t allow me to catch up with friends out there because most of my QT was spend with Baby love…

Finally, it’s was My 21st birthday which many well-wishes/gifts from friends/loves ones... It's the best birthday I ever had in my years of living... But I gotta admit My 21st was not much happening compared to my 20th! I can say that it’s a lil’ boring!

For Baby Love, thank you for the dedication vice versa Class 95, the gifts and of course the dinner, I have FUN!

(May I be wiser on my 21st journey…)

All in all, it was a memorable birthday to me...

I no longer grumble at things that I usually take for granted, and I have since learnt to be more forgiving and less critical towards myself, and to love and appreciate the family and friends around me much more! :)

As I usher in the new year in 9 hours later, I can give myself a pat on the back, have a smile on my face, and tell myself that it's been a fruitful year, knowing more about myself and of Life that I would never ever have learnt about Love was found once again...

How, despite my very jaded outlook with regards to Love and relationships, and how I am extremely cautious and more wary now; I am able to tell myself that it doesn't matter with regards to affairs of the heart and what matters more now is living the Life that I wish and want to lead, not being controlled nor dictated by anyone except myself...(And well, maybe the family and real close friends! :P )

Come what may, I hope that I am able to withstand the distance ahead of me, for I know that there'd be water and resting points ahead whenever I struggle and falter... ... =)

And as a yearly tribute... ...

Appreciation goes out to all my darlings/ BABY LOVE, that have been there for me through this emotionally roller coaster year...The encouragements, laughter, jokes, listening ears, big hearts and keeping me in your prayers aside, I just wanna thank you for not being judgmental and for loving me for who I am, and for gently accepting me, my flaws, my nonsensical crap, and for offering hugs, company and listening ears whenever I needed them... :)
I am truly thankful! =)

Have yourselves a wonderful 2010 ahead filled to the brim with joy, peace, health, wealth, and of course LOVE! :)

R.I.P. 2009!!!!

DIEEeeeee!!!

*LauGhs*

*HeaRts

FLU BUG!

2009-12-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

I am feeling SICK…!

I am feeling TIRED…!

I am feeling SLEEPY after medication…!

And I think that the FLU BUG is finding their way back to me…!

*Laughs*

I am having a bad FLU…!

I am having a bad HEADACHE…!

And I wonder when will this back ache problem get away of me??

I seriously am getting worried…!

Can someone tell me how??

Or is this a sign of going to be SICK??

I'm totally clueless…!

Or perhaps the lack of rest over the pass few days??

I DON’T KNOW…!

I don’t want to be SICK because, there’s so much of catching up with friends and more QT with Baby Love…!

I want to conquer the FLU BUG AWAY…!

HELP!

Time for medication on off to bed…

Till then, the last Sunday of the year 2009!

Watch out my quarterly reflection…

Stay tuned!

Good night world!

Review On My 21st!

2009-12-26T15:22:00.002+08:00

I am BACK!

How’s everyone Christmas??

As what I have promise on my last post, I am here to share with you my 21st bday!

Apparently, it was just another usual day that I have spend just that this time round my 21st was with Baby Love, for all you know, he put in much effort for my 21st. Therefore I would say that it was really a wonderful 21st birthday spend with…

I admit, for the last few hours of 21st birthday was really too boring but nevertheless, we did still walk around the mall after we had our dinner at port art!

I give this 8 of out 10!

Anyway, it was not the food that matters the most uhh!

Thank you to all whom send me well-wishes and gifts on my 21st!

Will upload the photos once blogger get their problem fixed!

:D

It's finally here!

2009-12-24T13:35:00.000+08:00

It’s finally here!

I am here to kiss good bye to my 20th years of life and WELCOME my 21st year of life…

And I do hope that this 21st will be filled with many joys and happy-ness around me…

I admit that friends has been sending in SMS or msg from FB, when the clock ticks 12!

It’s really a blessing from everyone…

Thus far, I have received 4 gifts which includes, new roomy bag, a heart design dress, a note book and a nail manicure all these from Janice includes Xmas too…

Second gift, a card and an ang pow from Godma…

Third gift, a necklace with key design symbolizes my 21st from parents…

Fourth gift, a BIG ang pow from Mummy dearest…

And there’s more to come to wait for me to upload all the gifts photos…

Apparently, I’ve got a touching gift from Baby ♥ at 12.50am… Baby ♥ did a song dedication for me via CLASS 95!

Thank you DARLING and CLASS 95!

A great birthday among all!

I promise to update my bloggie when I am back!

Happy Holidays!!!

MeRry MeRry Xmas to all !

:D

24 more hours!

2009-12-23T15:40:00.001+08:00

Yayy, its arriving in another less than 24 hours when the clocks ticks to 12am!

And yesh, I am here speaking about my 21st birthday which will be arriving real soon!

I am still enjoying my last 20 years of life before it hits 21 years on!

Thus far, I have received a birthday card and ang pow from my godmother just now in the noon… She’s the one whom see me through my every journey, ever since I was a lil’ baby back 20years ago!

And I reckon that there are more presents and ang pow coming on the way…

Apparently, my dad told me last night that he has already brought my 21st gift and I will be getting it tonight! Yesh, it’s a necklace symbolizes my 21st birthday… I am happy that he remembers, that’s all I can say! Thank you dad!

Anyways, it the thoughts that really counts!

=)

I am grateful that friends of mine remembers this day and coming forward to ask me out just to pass me my birthday gift…

谢谢朋友们，你们有心啊。。。

And not forgetting that 2 of my friends sharing the same birthday with me…

A friend of mine whom shares the same year, same month, same date, that’s my K1 classmate Kai Li!

And last but not least, Ying Lin who shares the same month, same day but different year she’s 2 years junior!

Have fun till then!

:D

2nd Post Of The Day!

2009-12-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Alright, 2nd post of the day!

I shall keep this post short, simple and sweet!

I woke up at 7.30am today!

And till now, I am tired!

Off to bed early tonight!

:D

Counting Down To My Bday!

2009-12-22T01:28:00.001+08:00

I am counting down to my 21st!

Till now or I should say till yesterday, I have so far received my very first 21st birthday cum Xmas presents from Dr Janice…

Apparently, we met up yesterday after eons ago ever since I last saw her, and yes Dr Janice being the first one to send wishes to me and of course the presents from her which I really appreciates and I really do thinks that Dr Janice to hop on to my blog…

So far, Dr Janice has fulfilled one of my wishes on my wish-list on my earlier post, and I must that Dr Janice had put me effort on my gifts which I truly thank her for being one of my bestie… I ought to know that we are busy with out own life, but never the less, we do still keep in touch… :D

Yayy, to our 6 years and counting friendship!

Anyway, it’s the thoughts that really counts, therefore no matter who is the first one to wish me or to give me presents, I still appreciate what those friends who remembers my birthday does…

Nevertheless, we did cam-whore a bit with Dr Janice’s camera, and will upload some when I get it via FB…

I’m looking forward to 24th and 25th…

Gonna be away from 24th-26th…

Will blog when I am back…

Keep all those well- wishes coming…

I simply can’t wait for24th to arrive!

Till then, I keep my finger crossed…

Will take a combined photos my gifts from Baby Love and Friends out there who are die-ing hard to meet me out!

=)

Review on my first present from Dr Janice:

- New roomy bag which I LOVE it!
- A set of pretty nails!
- A notebook!
- A dress filled with my favorite heart shape!

I reckon more to come!

So please check this out real soon!

Alright, time for bed!

Goodnight world!

Hugs…

:)

Black SUNDAY!

2009-12-20T23:42:00.001+08:00

Apparently, I always dislike every Sunday that is looming, because that’s a day filled with truckloads of scolding from this person who is near me… Yes, that’s my father; I could only say that from young till now, I never once tried talking to my father in a nice tone… He would always go beyond his lines, he shouting at me or even those “arrows” shooting me whenever he moods stir me up…

Which I personally much dislike every Sunday, I never once look forward to any Sunday, because I knew that “there’s nothing good happen on Sunday”… (My BLACK SUNDAY)…

It strikes me from young, whenever he always start his scolding only at me, perhaps maybe he thinks that I will not rebut back, but sad to say, I would always just shout back at him because I knew wasn’t my fault at all…

I believe that everyone out there are close to their father but minus me out of the category!

*Laughs*

We(my dad and I) never once, shared a dinner together, watch tee vee together, laugh together and all sorts of categories a dad should does he NEVER does that to me! I’ve learned to let go those love from him, he NEVER once care for me… He merely ask my Mum where is my whereabouts!

For almost 21 years on, he NEVER once show is fatherly love to me, and I never look forward to come by one day, because I knew that the day will NEVER loom by…

I was like “bad” person marked in his heart for he always like to compare me with my oldest sister, which I really HATE about it… In my theory, I thought that parents should treat every child fair and well, but I am the odd one out!!

Anyway, I am okay with whatever he want to do on me, be it, shouting, scolding, arrowing me among the 4 of us, everything that had happen I have learnt to tolerate his rubbish over this 21 years on…

He NEVER once remembered my birthday or he NEVER once praise me in whatever I does out in the world…

在他（爸爸）眼里我永远都比不上我的姐姐和弟弟，我对他绝望了。。。我再也没有理由和他住在东一个屋檐下了。。。

爸爸对我来说是个陌生人。。。

No matter what may come, I will still be positive and overcome all the obstacles that is coming…

I always believe that, I can do it and never let HIM look down on me…

I guess nothing really matters to me now because; I am really used to this kind of relationship with him…

(To him I am not a perfect child! But I know I am NOT!)

On a cheerier note, another 4 more days to my 21st and I am really looking forward…

I know friends has been text-ing me on catching up and passing my my present, and hopefully I will have time to meet them for coffee session…

Hahs!

Anyway, I am going to meet Dr Janice tomorrow afternoon, it’s been econs since I last saw her… =)

Time for bed!

Good night world!
(Tonight gonna be a GOOD GOOD NIGHT)

:D

Happy Bday Bro

2009-12-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

It’s the smelling of weekends!

It’s raining during this weekends…

It’s cooling…

But…

I will have a difficult time of getting out of the east of SG later!

And on a side note, it’s youngest brother 20th birthday today…

May his 20th be a wonderful journey!

That’s all for today…

=D

6 More Days :D

2009-12-18T13:06:00.000+08:00

6 more days to my 21st birthday…

6 more days to my new 21st journey and chapter in life…

And I do hope that everything will go smooth for me on my 21st of the year…

And it’s less then 24 hours to youngest brother 20th birthday, and my bad for not getting him any pressie this year… Will make up next year bro!

Well, truth to be said that I am really looking forward to my 21st birthday with Baby Love, as this will be the first year spending together and more come in times…

On a side note, I am not looking forward to my 21st with the family because there is some issue which I wouldn’t want to speak over here… I could only summarize with this “I worth only 10 dollars note in their eyes”! (That’s how heartbreaking it is) Imagine, when your younger sibling got a 150 dollars worth of clothes and “ang pow”…

That’s all…

I dare not imagine huge gifts from them!!

Anyway, my back do still aches a lil’ bit more…

Weekends ahead!!

:D

Back Still Aching =(

2009-12-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

Well, there’s nothing much happening today!

Because my back is still aching like nobody business!

It get painful when I bend my upper back!

For no reason, those medication plaster doesn’t seems to work on my body… I have no idea what the hell is going on!

I just want to get rid of the pain…

It’s isn’t nice to have those aching problem all over your body, it can make one person get very tired or motionless…

I’ve notice that this few days, I’m not in a mood for talking, I seriously have no idea why… I just wanna keep my mouth shut…

Perhaps maybe I’m really tired…

Anyway, tomorrow I’ll be joining my Mummy dearest for shopping in the noon till about evening before I head off to meet Baby Love!

Bedtime!

Goodnight World!
(tonight gonna be a GOOD GOOD NIGHT!)

I hope…

:D

Minor Accident + Skin Care

2009-12-15T12:29:00.001+08:00

Apparently, I woke up quite early today due to a minor accident at home- reason being- youngest brother got a minor bleed on his feet as he stepped onto broken pieces of glass which is left lying around the kitchen floor!

Poor him has to bear the shocking morning to go down for his interview, anyway, I do hope that his interview goes well for him… I guess it was like 2weeks back when I broke the eye wash and I believe it was those bits and pieces of glass lay around the kitchen without anyone seeing it…

My bad! Sorry brother! >.<

On top of that, I’m still feeling kinda sick, maybe because the aching of my back have not recover, but it’s more than a week that this pain of my back is really killing me… I’m worried, but there’s nothing much I can do, I could only apply oil and put those plaster which are meant for body ache… Will see if the pain will be there for the next few days and decide whether I should visit a Chinese sinseh not! Till then, I keep my finger crossed…

Actually, I have been worrying why does my face skin being so dry nowadays, could it be the change of facial wash? I give this question a blank answer, but however, I went to buy back the old facial wash and will see how my skin will react for the next couples of days… Had tried apply Nivea moisturizer, and I could say that Nivea products are really indeed good… It has proven to me, because back then my hand are always dry and itch when I was still working, and I tried on their product after seeing doctor which never cures my hand skin problem… Therefore, Nivea was a product which I can rely on to give me the best skin results for prolong using terms… I admit that the product itself is not too expensive, but what matters the most is at the end of the day, my skin is smooth and not to dry and rich for skin care…

Thank you Nivea!
(My life helper)

I’m not kidding Nivea products can really cure your dry skin problem no matter what skin problems you encounter… I was never a Nivea customer before, after a friend of mine recommend me their product which I am really happy with…

I guess there are pros and cons of skin care problems, all I want was my skin to stay health and smooth everyday! That’s every girl’s goal!

Anyway, that’s all for now, and is time to rest as medicines kicks in!

*Laughs*

Wish me speedy recovery of my flu and backache!

=D

2009-12-14T14:44:00.002+08:00

Friday 11 December 2009

On this special day, it was Bestie Jennifer’s 21st birthday… A day which she begins with her new journey, new chapter in life… And it’s was the 15th years of me celebrating her birthday with her… We have shared 15 years of friendship and counting…

And I do hope that, her 21st journey will be a sweet one, may you stay happier as ever…

Bestie Jennifer was my best friend among all, she’s the one whom I can turn to when I’m really down, when I just need a listening ear she would be there for me without fail…

I’ve learned that “A friend in need is a friend indeed, and that friends indeed come our of the woods like army ants when you call them”.

Therefore many years of credits with Jennifer alone, without a friend like her, I wouldn’t make it here and this far…

To Bestie Jennifer:

Thank you for always being here with me, without any complains and judgment over the issues I had in life… You had done a great part in playing my best friend in life, one whom I wouldn’t want to lose for you being the nicest bestie sister… I believe that we have share many happy moments together… I wouldn’t forget how I met you, if you still remember it was like 15years back when we first met one another by an acquaintance… It was that acquaintance belong us together to share this special friendship…

A big THANK YOU JENNIFER!

Saturday 12th Dec 2009

Nothing much to say because I’m down with flu and sore throat and all these makes me feel very tired because in my dictionary weekends was a day reserved to spend quality time with Baby Love…

Imagine yourself being sick during weekends wasn’t a pleasant experience because there’s so much I want to do during weekends, but it held back by my flu and what-nots…

Before heading to town, Baby Love come all the way here to meet and because he knew that I was not feel well, that’s how sweet of him…

There’re tons and zillions of people in town due to the Christmas decorations at town and I people there are really busy taking picture with all those decorations… Anyway, Christmas is round the corner and I haven’t got Baby Love’s X’mas gift…

Anyway, I promise myself that I wouldn’t have dinner at food court in town anymore because is flooded with zillions of people.

And we headed to The Cathay for movie, and I admit that I’m still trying very hard not to fall asleep during the show time… Because medications kick in and make one feel tired and sleepy…

After everything ended, we went back home and only able to catch the bus for like 45 mins journey back to the east…

And then it’s bedtime!

Sunday 13th December 2009

Anyway, still feeling sick, but I’m slightly feeling better day by day… This was the day which I spend more of my time concerning which career I should get and settle down after being jobless or I should say that after resting for like months, it’s time to get back to the corporate world…

There’s still bits and pieces of disagree with me and Baby Love, but all I want him to know that no matter which job I got into I will still be a faithful partner…

I admit that I really dislike to discuss my career with him because after all I am the one who is working there… I want to get a job of my choice to pursue my dreams and goals in life without anyone who is holding me…

Apparently, no one likes to control at which dreams and goals you have but all I have to do was still be persistent over my own future… I just want to be happier everyday without having any worries… How he put himself into my shoes??

How do you feel when your parents keep nagging at you everyday??

How you ever spare a thought for me??

Sometimes, I just wish that there is two splitting image of me, so that I can do things for my parents and Baby Love!

It really gives me headache whenever you keep wanting my life in your way, but however one have to give in no matter what! I am always the one whom give one step back, and making you happy… Did you appreciate what I have done for you??

I’m in doubt!

Whatever I do here, I just want everyone to be happy including ME!

Anyways, things have come clear and I would still go and look for jobs now and decide sooner or later! I know that he would always wanna avoid the topic over work!

I have made this clear between us, and I want you to know that no matter what choices I made I would always think of you first…

Alright, enough of my nags over here…

Monday 14th December 2009

One thing I would never imagine is that I went to library yesterday after years, and I went to borrow a book called” Life that way”…

It’s a nice book thus far, will do more review after I completed reading…

Anyway, talking about work…

A few seconds ago, I have call up the agent and she will try her best to help me to look for suitable jobs… Anyway, I pray that everything will go smooth for me…

Till then, I keep my finger crossed!

Nothing much happen today, as I’m seriously tired after medications and it’s time for me to rest!

10 more days to My Sweet 21st Birthday!

There’s one thing I want to do at this moment…

I WANT MORE SHOPPING!

I Am Sick!

2009-12-12T13:09:00.001+08:00

Finally weekends…

But how do you feel if your weekends are caught by flu, sore throat and all sorts of “friends” joining this family!

Apparently, I went to see the doctor this morning after last night was a sleepless night for me… Imagine you have to wake up in the middle of the night to settle those nose blocks and ear block problem can give you seriously madness in the night…

I guess is the weather nowadays are very unpredictable so that one for sick after another and I’m one of them! Hahs! First the virus got through eldest sister and follows by dad and then is Baby Love…

Then it caught me along the way… *Laughs*

Anyway, isn’t nice to be sick on weekends!

Sighs (but it doesn't go away)

2009-12-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

The night that I go to bed with tears, it’s a very baddd feeling to have heard those unpleasant from someone whom you love so much…

Sometimes, you always want things in your way and it’s always your choice and never mine!

Last night was really a night which filled with sadness and tears on bed, I was so strong in telling myself that I shouldn’t tear at all, because he would never once trying to call me or sms me back whenever we put down the phone with quarrels…

Apparently, I would be the one lying on the bed at night, thinking what the hell have I done wrong that he would always shout and yell at me… For I know that leopards would never change their spots…

When one is in Love,
More often than not, we would want things to be perfect,
and strive for perfection...

But as always,
things more often than not, don't always seem to go as you have in mind,
or have planned...

For he would always insist that he’s right in everything, for he wouldn’t ever believe whatever I say…

Maybe one day I will just blow everything out, because I really dislike the feeling of having in control in whatever I do…

I’m tired of everything…

I want to live in peace…

All I want was someone whom can really listen to me, wouldn’t rebut in everything thing I say… I hate being here to listen to all these rubbish…

For he would think that he always got a smarter explanation then me, because he thinks that I’m scared of him…
Things has never been the same again like four years back, I could only say that granny is the only one whom love me, dote me, be here for me no matter what happen to me… And granny was the only one whom believes in me, she’s the one that give me strength to live everyday… Granny never once stop caring, loving me, granny was the only reason which I live until today…

I know, things would never be the same again like 4 years back, whatever that had happen wouldn’t change… But one thing for sure is that granny is still living inside my heart, as she has gone to a place so far…

I cannot imagine how life has bring me on for 4years without granny here, the usual me whom always laugh and joy around has gone since the year 2006…

Many a times, I want to give up in everything, but is granny love here telling me that things would definitely be fine one day!

To me granny is my only kin; she’s my beloved granny…

To my Dearest Granny:

If you are here seeing me, I know that you wouldn’t want to see me in this state now… But granny I promise you that I’ll continue with my life because I know that you really want me to be happy here… Granny, I know that now I cannot see you but I still can feel the care and love you gave to me no matter where are you… I do hope that you are happy over there…

I promise to be the cheerful grand-daughter of yours, to stay happy no matter what… As long as I know you are still here for me, the rest of those people I wouldn’t wanna care anymore…

Granny’s love is biggest among all…

Birthday Wish-list :D

2009-12-07T12:58:00.001+08:00

It’s another 17 more days to My Forever 21st Birthday…

All I want is a smashing birthday with Baby ♥, and I know that Baby ♥ has already plan for my BIG DAY! =)

I shall keep my finger crossed still…

Anyways, Bestie Jennifer 21st Birthday is this coming Friday and I haven’t got her pressie done… But I do hope that she would like what I have for her…

Alright, is time for my Birthday Wish-list!

Here's a small lil' birthday wish-list of sorts!

TinGz's Forever 21st birthday wish-list:-

- SHOPPING VOUCHERS!! Mango, Topshop, Dorothy Perkins, or even Charles and Keith, CK Tangs, Takashimaya, Isetan, BHG (Formerly known as Seiyu)... You name it, I want it...! *Laughs*

- Unlimited credit for online SHOPPING on my fave websites!(To-die-for accessories,clothes and bags...!) The list goes on... :P

- Soft toys of my favourite Sanrio friends… Be it Hello Kitty, My Melody… You name it, I want it… =)

- Ice-cream cake and I know Baby ♥ is going to get one for me! *Hearts*

- A new roomy bag to replace my current one…

- Health, wealth and smiles for everyone around me! =)

But TinGz reckons that she'd be getting loads of accessories from friends again! Well, I guess that's the safest present to give a friend when you don't know what to get her! *Laughs*

A lil’ review on my 20th birthday 2008

- I have got a new wallet and a second titus watch from Bestie Jennifer.

- Mummy dearest brought me my first titus watch which I have asking for.

- Colleagues from AIA celebrated my birthday at cartel and gave me a pair of earring, hp pouch and a snoppy handphone holder.

- Still I want my 21st to be one of the best one…

Well, to be honest, this is just a wish-list... Its the thought that counts...Really! =)

Over The Last Weekends!

2009-12-04T13:54:00.009+08:00

35th Year Anniversary brought to you by Kitty Lab!

I know this is the longggg over due post after going to Kitty Lab last Sunday... Anyway, this is the only picture that I've manage to take because, no video and photo taking are allow at Kitty Lab!

So how's my trip down to the kitty lab?

It was a FUN day at Kitty Lab, going around and play games and if we could finish by 35 minutes we have a got a gift from Kitty Lab... I admit, I dont like playing game but anyway it was a nice memories for me Baby Love!

Here's the gift by Kitty Lab, when you finishes your game in 35 minutes!

Back view of the card! It says, you believe patience is the truth!

Front view of the card... Hello Kitty 35th Anniversary Project!

This is the badge given when you have completed the game!

Overall, I rate this 6.5/10... It's sad the I can't take picture with those cute sanrio characters but anyway, I had a wonderful Sunday!

One should be contented enough so that life will always be as cheerful as before...

Dec a Month Of Joy!

2009-12-02T21:39:00.001+08:00

I’m always looking forward for the month of December every year, because it’s a month of celebrations and Xmas…

Obviously, this year is my official Forever 21st Birthday and I reckon that is going to be FUN out there… =)

*Cross my fingers till then*

Each and every year of December was a year which really making me feel happy about or sad about…

But after all, it’s year which I can do many reflections on and of cos there’s bitter and sweet along the journey…

Birthday wish-list next up! =)

Random Ramblings...

2009-12-01T17:58:00.003+08:00

Indeed, Life is really short, the earth walks, people walks on...

Every minute, every second, there's good and bad happening...

Apparently, life is really precious too, to have known that my maternal 舅妈 is down with sickness was something really shocking... I admit I only get to see them during CNY, no ones knows what will happen next...

Therefore, I've always said that "Treasure the people around you"...

I'm sad by having this breaking news over the weekends, but I do hope that 舅妈 will recover fast not just because for herself but also for my 舅舅and her two children whom is really young and they have to take whatever it happen...

I pray nothing but the best for their family...

God will bless you too...

All About ♥

2009-11-26T14:09:00.003+08:00

Baby ♥ 's birthday is looming in another two more days!

Am looking forward for the first birthday with Baby ♥ and more to come in times...

*Love*

Apparently, I've already plan on Baby ♥ special day and I do hope that th weather will be fine enough of me to surprise me... =) I shall not say thing over here... *Laughs*

On the side note, I've still deciding on which resturant for dinner with Baby ♥ and this weekends if going to filled with lotsa FUN!

And me being me, have also order Baby ♥ 's birthday cake from Tampines 1 mall, and the cake if from Emicakes... Hey folks, do try out their nice cakes and other nice and yummy treats!

Never the less, tomorrow will be FUN day too, as Baby ♥ 's nephew couldn't wait for sing a birthday song and blow the candle with Baby ♥ ...

More FUN coming on the way...

More Birthday coming!!!

My Forever Young 21st is looming!!!

My Bestie 21st is looming in another two weeks time!!!

Christmas is just nearing!!!

♥♥♥

A Week Later!

2009-11-23T16:17:00.009+08:00

It's been a week since I last update my bloggie...

My bad!! >.<

Due to some reasons why I am not blogging for the past few days or a week... The reason being that there's some virus on my PC which really make me goes mad about solving it and trying to find ways to get it done over with it... However, I am not a PC pro, therefore, I would need to send it for service soon when I'm more free...

Hahs!

(Still keeping my fingers crossed!) *Laughs*

Anyways, this week will be fun week as Baby ♥ birthday this is weekend... I just do hope that everything turns out well for the celebrate with Baby ♥ ...

Apparently, this is the first celebrate with Baby ♥ and I hope that there will be more to come... =) *Smiles*

On the side note, my last weekends was FUN!!

FUN filled with SG FLYER on the second time but this time round with Baby ♥ ...

Alright, shall end here gotta get my things to done...

It's gonna be another BUSY week!!

=)

SiGh I HATE SUNDAY!!

2009-11-15T13:53:00.003+08:00

Today is SUNDAY and I usually hate every Sunday because Dad has no work on Sunday and then we will head down to maternal granny near by hawker centre to have our breakfast...

The other reason being is that I would get to see my paternal aunty over here having breakfast with her family and there's when they start nagging at me like "have you gotten a job", is time to get a job because your dad(referring to mine dad) is nagging... Sometimes I really hate to bump into them over there, I don't know why they will kick off my morning by pissing me off!! That's when I keep my mouth shut because I don't wanna answer them...

I'm just getting sick and tired over THEM!!!

I thought Sunday was a day for my brain to rest and not letting them trying to pissed my Sunday off just like that... They have always thought that they are so clever but hey, no one is ever clever... They are just trying to make me dislike them more and more...

Is okay if we didn't bump into them, but Mummy dearest always like to go around and look out for them because Mummy dearest knew that they will be there for breakfast...

Apparently, no one like to be nag at early in the day... From next Sunday onwards, I shall ask Mummy Dearest if they are going there for breakfast again I would just absent myself... Hahs!

Why can't they are just give me some PEACE!!!

Arggghhhhhhhhhh.....

Anyways, gonna meet Baby Love in the wee bits afternoon....

That's all for now...

=(

A Early That Kicks Off!!

2009-11-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

Imagine waking up at 8 o'clock early in the morning, I am not kidding; I haven't been waking up at this time before... Due to special reason that I made it today by waking up early in the morning by accompanying Baby Love for his appointment...

knew that I would be tired on the way there but I still manage to keep up my energy till now, but I am not going to my bed now because, I am blogging over here...

=)

*Laughs*

It's really been econs ago since I wake up early either for work or school but now I am free from work and school so I can sleep more at home... *Laughs* Actually my sleeping habits has change since I stop working, now I'm highly-active in the night... *Cross fingers*

Anyway, I guess that I can still slack and rot at home for the next couples of months to loom by...Hahs!

Alright that's all for now...

COS, I'm TIRED!!!

Good night world...

Random Reflection

2009-11-09T13:21:00.006+08:00

The feeling of this is coming recently, maybe I am seriously getting tired over with everything/ issues in my life...

I have never felt this before last night while I was on the phone with The Love, it suddenly strike me which lotsa emotional and time is really getting into my nerves lately... I've been telling myself that no matter what may come I should stay positive and happy, however, I didn't but I went deeper in tired-ness of LIFE...

Apparently, my yesterday morning was started with those topic like" Have you got a job"? This was prompt by my paternal aunty and uncle when we saw them at my maternal granny's near by coffee shop while we was having breakfast...

Speaking the truth, I'm seriously getting tired of people asking me all those related to job questions, I was like a multiple choice to them... Imagine, the mad-ness at the hawker with those irritating people asking you the questions again and again and I am not a goggle.com whom can give you all the best answer...

They have never spare a thought for me and yet they are just those naggy aunties/uncles in the market... If they were in my shoes they will know that I'm doing all these because of the particular person whom have entered my life...

Some moments which I can't waste it and I have promise myself that I would go back to the corporate world soon next year in the early month of the year... I just wanna enjoy my slacking days now and I would promise to work hard next year and earn enough money... I guess I shouldn't go any further to prevent misunderstanding over here...

I've tried my best in everything I do and I hope that those people who is in my life knew it and all that matters was merely just being happy... It would do me nice if those people can STOP asking me all these questions, else I would come down with depression...

Arghhhhhhhhx......

Whatever I do all I want was my love ones are Happy that's all I'm asking too, cos I reckon that they will go beyond their limits in me... :(

I usually dislike the months after October for there's nothing good happens after that, hopefully some year later, I would really love the months after October... *Cross fingers*

Some nights, my mind have been coming up with those memories of my late granny for she's the one whom always ready here for me whenever I called upon... She's the one whom never made me fear of anything, she's the one whom I really need whenever I'm happy or down... She would never failed to be with me, but for now, she's has gone to a place very far far away and wouldn't come back to me again... The promises I have made to her, I will fulfill it one day and hopefully I will be a less barren girl... The Love, Care and Joy she has given me would always be kept inside my heart...

It's been 4years on, and she is till watching over me from a very far away distance, without any pat on my head, any hugs and all she was my greatest LOVE in my life...

奶奶，如果您听的到我所说的话，我想跟您说，在这里的我虽然，不是很快乐但请您不用担心我。。。

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (I know it's true)
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you (for you) (ohhh)

I used to think that dreams were just
For sentimental fools
And I'd never find someone
Who'd give their love so true u u u
But I knew the very minute (ohh)
Couldn't live my life without you in it
Now I want the whole wide world to know (ohhh)

~"Anywhere for you" by Backstreet boys~

SE C903

2009-11-04T13:24:00.002+08:00

Had brought my SE C903 recently, and overall the phone features are good...

BUT!!!

The battery is screwing ME up!

Apparently, I've ring SE service centre this morning and ask them about the Battery Warranty and what-nots...

Therefore I'm OFF to SE to have a great CHAT with them...

*Laughs*

I'm not joking the phone runs low batt on me every two days and I haven't been using the phone to chat with anyone recently...

I'm still keeping my fingers crossed!!

=(

Swimming :)

2009-11-03T00:06:00.001+08:00

I went swimming with Baby Love last evening and it's was really indeed FUN out in the late evening while we are soaking ourselves inside the pool at Baby's place...

And I did enjoy the "soaking of water" while Baby Love swim around the pool at his condo, it was first drizzling and then not long after the drizzle stop and yayy, that's the time for POOL!! *Laughs*

I admit that at the end of the swim Baby Love is feeling kinda tired or exhausted even because he have work in the morning and manage to reach home at 7pm... :)

Rest well Baby Love...

That's all for now as I'm also TIRED!

Off to bedtime...

Good night world...

=)

11 Months On...

2009-11-02T14:01:00.003+08:00

11 months on of the Year 2009!

Time has flown by me!

Imagine it was just like yesterday when we enter to a new year with all happy-ness and laughter around us...

Indeed, time has really make me learn alot in life, like how to love one another, care for one another and be together through all the ups and downs rhythm... Time has really proven those impossible to me and I'm glad that in one way or among I found myself way to happy-ness, laughter and of cos those sour moments... I've learn to be strong as ever!

At this moment, I really thank God above for being with me whenever I really need him too, Thank you God!

Anyways, I am gonna meet bestie Jennifer this Friday to help the local economy and those lil' gossiping with her...

For now, enjoy whatever you have now and be happy everyday!

On a side note, I haven't fully recover from the BREATHLESS days... Argggghhhx....

New month, New Beginning!

Jiayou!

=)

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh BACKACHE + AIA Lunch :(

2009-10-31T00:28:00.004+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh BACKACHE :(

PAIN PAIN PAIN PLEASE GO AWAY!

After being breathless for the past few days, I'm getting better without having any cold stuff like cold drinks and ice-cream which is very highly tempting at the moment...

I guess that I'm really very weak as I'm now suffering from a very bad backache which had occurs for the past few days too... I really do hope that I'll be well and no more pains here and there but I guess is impossible for me as I'm prone to hurts over my body... *Sly smiles*

Apparently, I've apply those pain plaster which Mummy dearest brought for me early on when I sprain my ankle about a month back... Since I was in Secondary school till now I've been using those pain plaster which is actually meant for those older ages people like old granny and old grand-dad, in fact I'm OLD enough to use it! *Laughs*

Get the picture of it??

Hahs!

On a side note, I've also went to meet up with my AIA colleagues yesterday afternoon for lunch cum gossiping session... I really missed them so much... Anyway, the first thing they say to me when they saw me was" Carrie you getting skinny as compared to the days in AIA back then"! *Laughs* I was like okay, I do still have my meals when I get outta bed in the weeeeeee bits noon... Have a great laugh with them too... Many of them share those QT time when I was in AIA back then, they will always be the one for me no matter what may come and be my confidant and pillar whenever I walk up to them while they are busy doing stuff and what-nots...

Indeed, I have been a very good friendship with them during the time I was there and now we are somehow lack of communication, anyway, lunching with them was great... *Smiles* They was the one whom really care for me when I was there making sure I'm alright and everything else... Thank you friends =)

Alright, off for bedtime!

Good night world!

Breathless!

2009-10-30T14:23:00.007+08:00

First and foremost, my bad for not updating my bloggie for days...

Cos I'm really having REAL TIME with Baby Love and FACEBOOK!

*Laughs*

Which might explains to my days for being breathless recently, and had went to visit the doctor which I hasn't been going there ever since I quit my previous job and for about 6 months later the doctor is FINALLY seeing me because, I'm feeling breathless for the past nights... Therefore, I've decided to visit the doctor and ask him what had happen to me...

Well, one of the reason of being breathless is because from young I've this heart mur mur thingy which somehow along the lines I had recover and maybe it come back to find me again... This is what the doctor had predict and advise me on going on a further check up at cardiology at National University Hospital which I haven't yet go... As the doctor told me to rest for a few days and see how my conditions goes and I admit, it's getting better on and off which leads me to those breathless sleep for the nights... *SiGh*

I am still crossing my fingers and hope that nothing is gonna happen to me as I'm really very afraid of being sick... The feeling of the breathless can leads to many causes which doctor had told me and most important is that I could stay HAPPY everyday without worries and what-nots from the family and all which I'm getting really very sick of it... =(

Apparently, I've been telling myself to be positive everyday but I couldn't because there's too much worries on hand which is making me feeling very bluesy!! I really do hope that family members can understand how I feel right now and stop asking me those questions like "why haven't you got a job?"

Whatever that may come I really do that I will be brave in whatever stuff I'm facing!! Being happy is one of the most important rule in my life... Life is short, so do enjoy LIFE!

Life is indeed great, for there's laughter, joy, fun, sorrows and pain, going through all these is not easy but what really matters at the end of the day is JUST BEING HAPPY!

If only I was like Google.com, having all the answers to every single thing which would merely make things easier... But with such subjective matters, answers would not be as easily found...

LOVE,CARE,CONCERN IS THE GREATEST THING OF ALL IN LIFE...

Thank God who give me wisdom and faith in my life and for always being here with me no matter I'm happy or sad!

HURRAY!!

(The month is ending, bye bye to all those shites worries!)

Wish me speedy recovery!!

I WANT TO BE HEALTHY!

(I wanna say GOODBYE to "breathless"!)

It's time to kiss goodbye to my all-time favourites; GOODBYE Cold DRINKS & ICE CREAM...

I promise to blog more once I'm FREE!!

Have a great weekends ahead of you...

SE C903 LOVED!

2009-10-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

Yayy, I've gotten my SE C903 after an hour Q at Singtel Shop!

Hahs!

It's time to get my fingers onto the SE C903 which I haven't get use of using it... *Laughs* Anyway, I'm satisfied with the Camera by cyber shot, it's still my love among all the mobiles...

(Not much time in playing my new phone yet, becos I'm getting bored exploring the functions...)

No idea why, this time round when I got a new phone I don't feel excited anymore... Maybe it's because I'm using the brand again... >.<

=)

Yayy....

2009-10-23T13:30:00.004+08:00

Yayy, I'm going to get my new mobile phone tomorrow...

I can't wait!!!

And have decided on getting SE C903!! YipppPPPPPPPPEEEEeeeeeeee!

Finally gonna say a BIG GOODYBEYEEEE to my SE K770 for being with me almost 2years odd and went haywire on me through the 2 years!! I'm getting rid of YOU (SE K770)! *Laughs*

Hahs!

Shall update more when I get the phone...